Everything I Didn't Say

We have been on this bus for hours, but it feels like its been days. "You really love her don't you?" Luke asked Michael flopping down on the couch next to them where Tarah was snuggled into Michaels side sleeping soundly. I didn't realize i was staring at her until... "What are you staring at Ash?" Luke asked snapping me out of my current thoughts. "What n-nothing." i said shaking my head abruptly. Michael looked at me almost knowingly. "Why are you looking at me like that?" i ashed almost scared to think he knows my feelings for Tarah, his girlfriend of almost a year. "Are you okay Ash you seem out of it." he tells me almost confused of why i am afraid. "Y-yeah why wouldn't i b-be?" i stuttered and he cocked his head to the side in confusion. 'I can't let him know i like her.' I think to myself as Michael and Luke get back to their own conversation. I cant help but think what is going to happen if she or Michael ever find out. This is eating me alive.

"Good morning Mikey." I hear Tarah whisper from the bunk that was directly below me. "Morning beautiful." i couldn't help but frown. I have been waiting for Tarah to get up but honestly, i didn't want Michael up too. He would just let her cling to him like glue. It is killing me. She does not know how i feel and even if she did she is with Michael and i can't do that to him. He is my best friend.

so your friends been telling me
you been sleeping with my sweater
and that you cant stop missing me
bet my friends been telling you
im not doing much better
cause im missing half of me

I heard Liam strumming his guitar so i decide to get out of bed to make myself some tea. As i walk into the kitchen i am surprised to see Niall and Harry up as well. Liam still strumming with Niall with his guitar as well. I am surprised to know that Niall actually let Liam borrow one of his guitars. Maybe there is something between them. I will have to set them up. They are truly good for eachother. "Morning mates." i say in my tired accent as Tarah and Michael come into the room hand in hand. I glare at them for a moment then go back to making tea. I put some milk in mine and leave to sit on the couch as Michael comes behind me startling me. "Only milk?" he chuckles. "Yeah, Haz said that it helps you relax." i smiled still tired from the lack of sleep i got from thinking about Tarah. "ahh" he said "well hope you relax well enough, we are going to be at the airport in a few hours." he told me "I am going to wake the rest up. Wanna help?" he asked me again i smiled and nodded excitedly. We walk into the hallway and it is funny we hear everyone snoring. I stifle a laugh and start shouting at the top of my lungs "WAKE UP YOU LOOSERS!" they all groan and get out of their beds. I laugh as they walk out of the hallway like zombies. My heart breaks everytime i see her but somehow i still go back to liking her. Hopefully i will stop sooner rather the later. It kills me to see her not with me but maybe i can get her to know somehow, just the way i feel.

Notes

So i found free time and was able to update. I will put chapter 9 up later. Can i get 10 comments? What did you think about the story so far?