Drink the wine, my darling, you said
Take your time, consume all of it
But the roses were only to drain my inspiration
The promises were spoiled before they left your lips and...

I breathe you in again just to feel you
Underneath my skin, holding on to
The sweet escape is always laced with a familiar taste of poison

~ HaleStorm, Familiar Taste Of Poison~

Chapter One

‘We’re all gonna die anyway, why wait?’

I could feel the tears slip down my cheeks, off my chin and onto the carpeted floor of the hotel room. My knees were pulled up against my chest with my arms wrapped around them, my ankles crossed.

A bit of blood flowed down from my forearms and onto the carpet with my tears, turning the egg shell a dark pink color.

My bottom lip was red and sore from the way I bit it to keep my sobs muffled for the past half hour. Natalie, Felicia, Chellie and Lilly were out and they knew why I wanted to stay home. So they had taken the guys out and left me to be alone. It's all I wanted right now. "Willow." I whisper between cries.

I still remembered how it happened. Willow had just turned seventeen and she decided she was going to tell her parents about us. She came from a very strict and religious family. Her parents weren't very accepting.

Their super smart, beautiful, Christian daughter with a bisexual freak of a girl. A week later she disappeared. They found her body washed up by a lake where we always used to hang out. Her death was declared a suicide.

I couldn't even go to the funeral. Seeing her like that, even thinking about it made me nauseous. It hurt. She was dead and I might of well had killed her myself. I pushed her to tell her parents and when she did, I thought that was it. We could be together forever. I look towards the balcony, the lights from outside nearly blinding me.

It was beautiful. Maybe we still could be together. Maybe this was it. I stand up and roll down my sleeves. I slide open the glass door and step out. The night sky was dark and tempting. This was it. This was the end of my story. I smiled.

I closed my eyes. I could still see her bright, red hair and her sapphire blue eyes. I opened my eyes. I saw her around me. The wind was her laughter in my ear. The stars were her beautiful eyes. The red at the end of the barely there sun was her ruby red lips.

I felt her guiding me. Her cool porcelain skin on my own. I lift up and sit on the railing. I run a hand through my hair and the wind blows again. My feet have nothing under them and, God, it's such a beautiful feeling.

I push forward and let go.

Someone grabs my arm and I scream. "Let me go!"

It's one of those boys we had gotten thrown together with.

"What are you doing?" He nearly yells. I feel his grip tighten and I whisper, "Let me go."

"I'm not going to let you fall." Louis tells me

I knew I was beaten. Crying and ashamed, I'm pulled and fall into a heap, my back against the railing. I curl up, my head on my knees. I feel myself shaking.

"What is the matter with you?"


"You were supposed to be gone," I say simply, closing my eyes again.

"So, we all leave and you decide 'Hey, no one's around, so I'm gonna go and jump off the first goddamn ledge I see!'?"

"It isn't like that." I say, almost defensively.


"Look, I'm going to wait with you until the girls come back," He says, helping me up and walking me over to my bed. He sits me down. "We'll handle it then."

"No!" I say, scared that he might actually tell them what I nearly did. "Please, you can't! Promise me, you won't tell them! Promise!" I'm screaming like a psychotic now. But I'm nearly at my breaking point and if he wasn't there I would've jumped again.

He shushes me. "Fine, I won't tell. But we need to talk about this," He says, his fingers waving between myself and him.

"Tomorrow, I promise." I say.

He stays as I lay down on the bed and suddenly, I'm really very tired and I don't know why. I sleep.

Notes

Whew! You guys have no idea how long I've wanted to put this story up. Tell me what you think! Love Y'all ~ Harry's Only