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I Need to Know
I wasn't going down this easy. I was going to know Niall Horan whether he liked it or not. When he talked to me there was this look of regret, pain, and love in his eyes that pushed me to want to know more. The thing is, I didn't just want to know anymore, I NEEDED to know.
Niall had been gone for half of the day. I was begining to wonder if he was even going to show up at all. That was just my luck, the day I had finally built up the guts to talks to him, he wasn't going to be here.
It got around to 5th period, and I knew that if I didn't see him here, I wasn't going to see him at all. But as I made my way into history, there he was. My heart fluttered a bit, what was that about?
I don't know what made me realize it, but I noticed a lot of girls staring at Niall, and trying to wave and flirt. Needless to say I didn't like it, at all.
I have no idea what was going through my head as I walked toward him, but I didn't care.
"Hey," I said as I boldly sat down beside him.
"I thought we had an agreement, you don't talk to me, you don't know me," he said. He was talking barely above a whisper.
"Yeah, well that was your bloody agreement, not mine, so you'll just have to get over it," I said, surprised by what had just come out of my own mouth.
He turned his head in my direction and looked me in the eyes. I froze, that was the first time he had ever really looked at me dead on. I was lucky was already sitting down, if I hadn't been, I would have ended up on the ground.
"I....I w-want to know," I said, my boldness began to retreat and my voice shrunk down to a whisper.
"And what exactly is it that you want to know?" He asked rather roughly.
"Whatever it is that your keeping from me," I said.
"Have you ever thought that maybe I am keeping it from you for a reason? That maybe, just maybe I was doing it to protect you?" He asked.
"Why are you so eager to protect me? You hardly even know me! Why do you care so fucking much?!?" I asked. "You're always going out of your way to save me, then you tell me to forget about it, like nothing ever happened! You freaking moved to my school to make sure that I'm still safe, then you totally ignore me. I deserve an explanation," I said crossing my arms.
"Yeah, you're right, you do deserve an explanation, but you're not getting one. I'm sorry but I'm not going to put you in harms way," he replied trying to keep his voice steady.
"And what harm are you keeping me from exactly? I mean, you're always telling me that if I get too close, then I'll get hurt, what's going to hurt me?" I asked. My curiosity was getting the best of me.
"My past will catch up with me as soon as it realizes I care about someone again. I won't let that happen to you. I'm not answering anymore of your questions," he replied, but there was that hint of pain in his eyes when he looked away that made me keep going.
"Why do you care about me? If you really cared then you would tell me," I said, hoping to get a reaction out of him.
"I'm a bad guy, and if you're even remotely close to me, you'll get hurt. That's just how my life goes. I care about you a lot more than you know, and I've already lost every other person in my life because they got too close. I have feelings for you but you can't get close to me, I won't let anyone take anything else from me again. This can never go any further than just two people who know of each other," he said.
"You know, you keep telling me your a bad guy but I'm not buying it. There's more to this story than your telling me," I said looking up at him.
I looked into his eyes, he was killing me, they were full of pain. Seeing him like this, I realized why I wanted to know so badly, I had feelings for him, for a guy I barely knew. A guy that wanted me in his life, but tried so hard to keep me out of it. I Wamted to know him because I was falling for him.
"I can't tell you," that's all he said. I opened my mouth to talk but the bell wrang before I got a chance.
It was the longest day of my life. I didn't see Niall again, and I had the feeling that even if I did, I wouldn't get a conversation out of him.
When I got to my car, Jeremy was waiting.
"Hey," he said. He looked concerned, and a little mad.
"Hi, what's wrong?" I asked.
"Get in the car, then we'll talk," he said.
Niall had been gone for half of the day. I was begining to wonder if he was even going to show up at all. That was just my luck, the day I had finally built up the guts to talks to him, he wasn't going to be here.
It got around to 5th period, and I knew that if I didn't see him here, I wasn't going to see him at all. But as I made my way into history, there he was. My heart fluttered a bit, what was that about?
I don't know what made me realize it, but I noticed a lot of girls staring at Niall, and trying to wave and flirt. Needless to say I didn't like it, at all.
I have no idea what was going through my head as I walked toward him, but I didn't care.
"Hey," I said as I boldly sat down beside him.
"I thought we had an agreement, you don't talk to me, you don't know me," he said. He was talking barely above a whisper.
"Yeah, well that was your bloody agreement, not mine, so you'll just have to get over it," I said, surprised by what had just come out of my own mouth.
He turned his head in my direction and looked me in the eyes. I froze, that was the first time he had ever really looked at me dead on. I was lucky was already sitting down, if I hadn't been, I would have ended up on the ground.
"I....I w-want to know," I said, my boldness began to retreat and my voice shrunk down to a whisper.
"And what exactly is it that you want to know?" He asked rather roughly.
"Whatever it is that your keeping from me," I said.
"Have you ever thought that maybe I am keeping it from you for a reason? That maybe, just maybe I was doing it to protect you?" He asked.
"Why are you so eager to protect me? You hardly even know me! Why do you care so fucking much?!?" I asked. "You're always going out of your way to save me, then you tell me to forget about it, like nothing ever happened! You freaking moved to my school to make sure that I'm still safe, then you totally ignore me. I deserve an explanation," I said crossing my arms.
"Yeah, you're right, you do deserve an explanation, but you're not getting one. I'm sorry but I'm not going to put you in harms way," he replied trying to keep his voice steady.
"And what harm are you keeping me from exactly? I mean, you're always telling me that if I get too close, then I'll get hurt, what's going to hurt me?" I asked. My curiosity was getting the best of me.
"My past will catch up with me as soon as it realizes I care about someone again. I won't let that happen to you. I'm not answering anymore of your questions," he replied, but there was that hint of pain in his eyes when he looked away that made me keep going.
"Why do you care about me? If you really cared then you would tell me," I said, hoping to get a reaction out of him.
"I'm a bad guy, and if you're even remotely close to me, you'll get hurt. That's just how my life goes. I care about you a lot more than you know, and I've already lost every other person in my life because they got too close. I have feelings for you but you can't get close to me, I won't let anyone take anything else from me again. This can never go any further than just two people who know of each other," he said.
"You know, you keep telling me your a bad guy but I'm not buying it. There's more to this story than your telling me," I said looking up at him.
I looked into his eyes, he was killing me, they were full of pain. Seeing him like this, I realized why I wanted to know so badly, I had feelings for him, for a guy I barely knew. A guy that wanted me in his life, but tried so hard to keep me out of it. I Wamted to know him because I was falling for him.
"I can't tell you," that's all he said. I opened my mouth to talk but the bell wrang before I got a chance.
It was the longest day of my life. I didn't see Niall again, and I had the feeling that even if I did, I wouldn't get a conversation out of him.
When I got to my car, Jeremy was waiting.
"Hey," he said. He looked concerned, and a little mad.
"Hi, what's wrong?" I asked.
"Get in the car, then we'll talk," he said.
Update pwetty pwease!!!
12/16/14