Mandolin Rain

Elliot's POV

“Can we talk about the elephant in the room?” I notice Harry rub his hands on his cup.

“If you want to.” I take a deep breath preparing myself for this.

“I'm just so sorry. I don't know what else I can say about it anymore. I just wake up every day so upset about what I did, how I jumped to conclusions. I'm not making excuses for myself but tour life is not easy. It's fun at times but its mainly stressful and I don't make the best decisions.” I really look at him, I can tell his mind is racing behind his eyes.

“I understand moving around, Harry, I really do. But I don't understand why you would just assume I wanted a break from us and I just wanted to be done. I would have never ended things with you over the phone like that.” I just need a hug. This is not how I wanted today to happen. I just wanted to spend all day doing nothing. I bring my knees to my chest and squeeze so I can calm myself.

“I just don't know what else to say.” He's frustrated. I know that face. “I've just spent everyday wishing I could kiss you and hold you and just be next to you. I don't like Lou like that, I never have, she's just a friend. She's actually back with Lux's dad now, thinking about quitting tour life because Lux is getting older. I don't know why I've said that out loud actually.” I don't even care about Lou anymore. I was hurt that she knew I was with Harry and still kissed him but he was there too, he was the one that broke my heart. Why am I just dying to be in his arms again?

“I just can't forgive you for this Harry. I mean, what if I kissed one of my friends? Not only kissed but got a hotel room with them and slept with them in the same bed? A friend who I've known for years, that knows almost every thing about me. How would you feel?” That's what I want to know. I want him to understand how I felt. Betrayal.

“I'd be devastated.” I know he's ashamed. “Can we just be friends again at least?”

“I don't know if I can be friends with you Harry. It's just too hard. We have too many memories. To much heart ache to just be friends.” I'm trying hard not to cry but I just can't help it. I can't be friends with someone I love. I just cant.

“Please don't cry. I hate seeing you cry. I know I'm the one whose made you cry but you're too beautiful to cry.” He stands up, puts Luna on his seat, and comes to wipes my eyes. “Don't feel bad, this is all my fault. You did nothing wrong. I will spend my whole life wishing you happiness. I'll leave Luna with you.” I just break down. I can't do this. I can't keep up this charade anymore, it's just to hard. I don't want to spend my life wondering what if. Before I can think my body is launched off my seat.

“Harry, wait!” I yell after him and practically slam into him. “Please don't leave me. I love you.” Oh God, I said it.

“Say it again.” I place my chin on her head.

“I love you.” I can't believe he's doing this.

“One more time.” I hear her laugh.

“I love you.” I smile.

“I love you more.” And with that we kiss like it's the first time.

I don't know what possessed me to run down the hall after Harry, profess my love to him and kiss him but I missed him. I know he kissed someone else, but he's done nothing but prove his love to me since. His birthday present to me was just over the top. Going to Singapore just to see my mom and finally meet my dad reassured me that he really would do anything for me.

I pulled away and instantly looked down. Suddenly nervous for my brave act. I felt like a movie actress for a second.

“I love you Rain.” Harry whispers and kisses my forehead. “So does this mean we can't be friends?” He smiles at me.

“I just want to take things slow.” I tell him, I want to be with Harry, I can't imagine anyone else I'd rather spend my life with but I can't just jump in head first. I need time to adjust to the water.

“That's fair. How about pizza and a movie here?” He suggest and I smile.

“I like that plan.” I wrap my arms around myself as Harry wraps his arms around me and holds me close.

“I'll order it, you pick out a movie.” He lets go and spins me around following me into the living room.

“Thank you for the birthday present by the way. I can't believe you went to Singapore to see my parents.” I'm still shocked.

“I know, it was a little crazy but it was so much fun. You're parents are amazing and so not selfish. I can't believe they do that everyday.” I sit on the couch as Harry scrolls through his phone to order pizza.

I pick one of my favorite films, When Harry met Sally, kind of funny because, well his name is Harry. But its been a favorite movie of mine for a long time so I'm making him suffer through it. Not that he will be suffering, I swear he likes romantic movies more then I do.

He pays for pizza, I don't even argue this time to split it or have me pay for it, we eat on paper plates on the couch in front of the TV. We're classy. When we finish I lean back away from Harry and prop my feet up on his lap. He doesn’t even flinch when I do it and starts rubbing my feet without being asked.

“I missed you.” I'm not even loud when I say it, not aware if Harry heard it or not.

“I missed you every second of every day.” He looks at me and smiles. That smile that melts my heart. “I really did. Everything is just so crazy on tour, and you're my home. Being around you makes everything easy. When you were stressed out that day, I was stressed out, I just wanted to protect you from that crazy woman and I couldn't. I just snapped and there's no excuse for my behavior. Seeing you in that hospital bed I realized how I could lose you at any second but I had to be honest, I had to tell you what I did. But I never stopped loving you. I just wanted to talk to you all the time, which is why I always text you and called you but I understood why you didn't respond. I just took a big jump coming here today and I'm so thankful that you let me in.” I see him bite his lip almost to hold himself back.

“I'm not trying to be rude but I don't want to always bring this up. Whats done is done Harry. I know you regret it, I hope that you will never do it again. Because this is really it Harry. Its all in or nothing.” I move my feet off his lap and scoot closer to him as he throws an arm around my shoulder and kisses my temple.

“I know. All in forever.” He continues to kiss my face until I break out into laughter.

“Watch the movie!” I scold him and try to scoot away but he won't let me. I just can't stop smiling. This feels perfect.

“Elliot, wake up.” Of course, my favorite movie, I always fall asleep.

“No.” I muffle my voice into Harry's lap.

“Come on babe, lets get you to bed.” He helps me sit up and guides me to bed, peeling the covers back and helping me inside. I turn to the side and and let Harry put the covers back on.

“What's this I see?” I know what he's talking about before I even open my eyes. On my nightstand is a picture of Harry and I at the wedding we went to. The night we became fully invested in into our relationship.

“It's a picture.” I sass him.

“I know it's a picture. How long have you had it here?” He asks me.

“Since I moved here, it's my favorite.” I smile with my eyes closed. I don't even care that he caught me with this picture, it's my favorite. I hear him put the picture back.

“It's my favorite too.” He whispers and comes to kiss my forehead “Goodnight love. I'll see you tomorrow.” I open my eyes and grab his arm.

“You're not staying?” I ask.

“I thought you wanted to take things slow.” He furrows his brows.

“I do. But I missed you. Just lay with me, please.” I'm surprised with my actions but completely okay with them at the same time.

“You don't have to ask me twice.” He chuckles and walks to the other side of the bed, kicking off his boots and his jeans, pulling the covers back and snuggling right up to me, kissing my neck.

“Don't get too excited Mr. Styles, just sleeping.” I tease.

“Well don't call me Mr. Styles and we'll be fine.” I laugh as he pulls me closer and I feel little feet pad across the bed as Luna comes and snuggles right up to my stomach. Perfect little family finally together again.

Notes

Can you believe it?! Tomorrow is it! The story will be over. :(

But I'm still working on my Louis story. It probably wont be for everyone but it's proven to be one of my favorites yet.

And, sorry it's so late, practice went way late today and I only had a half an hour to shower and get ready for my 8am class. And I'll have practice in a few hours, why you ask? Because my coach is a PSYCHO! But that's besides the point. :)

AND- 1D proposal? You guys see that?? How cute was that??

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