Being Carter Hood (5SOS)

The occasional flashes of lightning and roars of thunder filled mine and Stella's apartment as well as the desiring smell of Chinese food from the take out place down the street.

"Remind me again, how I let you convince me to agree on watching Ouija?" Stella pouts from the other side of the couch on my choice of movie for tonight. Were only into the previews and she began her 'fear of scary movies' complaints, that has to be a new record. I love watching scary movies with Stella, she reacts so dramaticaly I nearly pee my pants from laughing at her. Might as well be a comedy.

I let out a chuckle and open my mouth to begin saying something, but the catchy ringtone coming from my phone kept me from doing so.

My smile soon dropped as I read the familar name upon the screen and quickly pressed the ignore button before tossing it back onto the table in a huff.
"Calum?" Stella says with sympathy.
"Yeah." I respond in a sigh.

It's been almost two months since Stella and I have even considered talking to them, not after what we found out. What they've been lying about.
How could they keep it from me for so long? I thought I could trust each one of them with everything I have, only to find out ONE FUCKING YEAR LATER that my parents were in the middle of getting a divorce before my mom past away and no one decided to tell me! Until it accidently slipped out of Luke's mouth while we were having our nightly phone call, I imediatly hung up and stormed into Stellas room cursing her out, but completely regreting it to find out she had no idea. Guess I wasnt the only one lied to.

I honestly didn't expect Stella to be upset with them, but i guess that shows how much she cares for me. We've gotten so close over the past year that we even moved in together about three months ago. She's nothing less then a sister to me.

"When is the order of egg rolls they forgot to give us, coming?" I ask her, changing the subject.
"They said about twenty to thirty minuets." She shrugs and stuffs an orange chicken in her mouth as she rises to her feet to press play on the DVD.
I follow her actions and make my way to the kitchen that's an open space to the living room and flick the light switch off, leaving the only light source the tv and the flashes of lightning.
"Seriously?" Stella groans.

"There's no point to watching a scary movie if the lights aren't off." I argue in amusement. "You just want to torture me!" She yells jokingly and flops onto her side of the couch. "That too." I giggle while taking my seat and wrapping myself in my favorite cotton blanket.
Our attention was taken away from the tv to Stella's phone vibrating loudly against the tabe. We both groan irrated, already knowing who it is. With no surprise she shows me the screen with Ashtons name popping up.

"Won't they ever just stop calling?" Stella presses the ignore button and turns her phone off.
Ignoring 4 guys is easier then it sounds like. Especially when those four guys are off on their third tour in America and your at home in another continent. Ofcourse it's not even close to enjoyable. It hurts so bad inside. The feeling is unexplainable.

Only once had I answered the phone when one of them called, It happened within the first week of me ignoring their calls. It was Luke and instantly, I regreted it once I heared his voice speaking to me. That deffinetly didn't help my situation.
"Carter?" Stella mumbles in concern, snapping me from my thoughts. It was her way of asking me to say whats on my mind.

"I just dont understand, Stells. I mean, I have a good relationshp with all of them, I thought they trusted me as much as I trusted them and my own brother!? seriously? I still can't believe it." I pour my thoughts out to an understanding Stella.

I was talking like I didn't now the reason, but it was clear to me. I just wish the reason didn't exist. If I let them explain, I know they'll say they couldnt tell me, because I woud've colasped physically and mentaly, more then I already had. Yet I grew to a happy place in life and they still didn't tell me. I could've handled it if they talked to me about it properly, but the way i found out.. Only made it worse.

Stella had left my comment alone and we began to get deep into the movie.
" Why the hell would you walk outside at night by yourself!" Stella mumbles nervously as the suspense in the scene grows once the girl begins to walk to her car after work.
"Well she needs to get to her car somehow." I defend the character. The room grows silent as the suspense progresses.
By the time she reaches the car and sees 'HI FRIEND' written on the window, our hands are gripping eachother, huddled under one blanket, not removing our eyes from the screen. here it comes.. here comes...
"AAHHHH!" We scream bloody murder in unison and our bodies jump practically to the ceiling.. bursting into a huge fit of laughter together realizing the reason we screamed was not because of the movie, but because the doorbell rang.
"Our egg rolls!" Stella manages to get out between laughs while holding her stomach in humorous pain.
"I'll get it." I say with laughter, since im closer to the door. I pick up the cash to pay and turn the door knob, swinging the door open smoothly while Stella and I remain laughing.
My heart fell out of my body, my face dropped and stiffened to a serious glare, and my emotions were turned to overdrive.

The familair boy dressed in the chinese resturant dilivery uniform, has swift blonde hair and crystal blue eyes... three men stood with him. All soaked from the rain. It was them... back from tour.. but the tour isnt even over yet.. if I could speak right now i wouldnt know what to say.. Half of me is raging inside and wants to slap each one of them for lying, yet then to other half wants to hug then to death. So i stand there, glaring at them angrily.

"Eggrolls?" Luke hands out the bag with a nerve racking sloppy grin. I roughly grab the bag and step back to slam the door loudly in their faces and tightly lock it.
My body calasped inside, now knowing they cant see me I set the bag on the table and silently bring my hand to jaw dropped expression.
"Carter, whats wrong?! You didn't pay the guy?" Stella panickly asks me in confusion, not seeing who was standing there since my body was blocking her sight of them.

"I-I-I." Nothing comes out. Light pouding comes from the door with their voices pleading us to open it, giving Stella the answer to her question.

"Please Carter, open up. Please baby." Luke says making my body grow weak. The others follow with pleads, directed to Stella and myself.
"Oh my god." Stella immediatly tears up and beings to sob in excitement. She has a right to be happy, i dont blame her one bit.
"Its them." She cries, overwhelmed, looking at me with a slight smile and soaked cheek. I give her a nod and she races toward the door, roughly swinging it open.

I watch as she flings herself into Ashtons arms as everyone anxiously walked inside. Luke sets his eyes upon me and make his way to me.
"Carter just lis-" He was cut off by the surprise of my palm slapped across his right cheek. The sound echoed through the apartment. All eyes are on Luke and I.
"How dare you." I say between my gritted teeth. The only sound is the rains drops hitting the ground visiously.
"How dare all of you! I trusted you. Then you lie straight to my face!" I scream. My face hot and red with tears streaming down my cheeks for multiple reasons. I needed to say it. Even if i wasnt as hurt as I was when I first found out. They still needed to know how much of an impact it had on me.
"We couldn't tell you! Your to-" Calum tires.
"To fragile!?" I look at them with irratation.
"Exactly. You couldn't have handled it then." Michael confirms.

"You all don't know that, because you didn't even give me a chance! I know you all meant well, really i do, but im a big girl. I don't need to be protected. I'm better now, im happy. So let me deal with this, Okay?" They watched me with emotional expressions. I saw pride come from Calum as he listened to me.
I dont want to fight. Life's too hort, I've learned that the hard way, but the only way we are going to be happy is by trusting one another and they need to trust me to be able to be strong.
"Okay." Was all that left Luke's lips and he stood inront of me with a sweet smile. I take a couple steps forward and walk into his chest, letting him wrap his arms around me as we hug eachother tightly.
"I've missed you so damn much." I whisper in his ear.
"Not as much as I missed you, beautiful." His lips brush agaisnt my ear sending chills down my spine.
"How about a hug for you brother?" Calum clears his throught. I let out a gasp and Imediatly throw myself on him.
"Oh I've missed you, Calum!" I squeal, making us all chuckle.
I make sure to give everyone a longing hug. Lastly, I go to hug Ashton, but he puts his had to stop me.
"Before we hug and call it good, you should know I ate two of the eggrolls in the bag." Ashton apoligizes making us all bust up laughing at how serious we know hes being.

"Come here." I say with a smile, pulling him in for a hug.

They are all so crazy....

My crazy disfuctional family that I love to death.

Yup thats them.

Notes

Its FINALLY up!!!! One last time thank you soooo much!!!! The next update will be about my new story. I hope you love the upcoming one as much as you love Being Carter Hood.