Being Carter Hood (5SOS)

"Luke, I think I change my mind.."
My tone a low hesitant whisper while I pull his arm back quickly before we entered the living room section on the first floor. He looks down at me and sighs.
"Carter, you promised you would go to therapy for the rest of the tour break . We even got you an in house therapist. Please, just try it out."
He spoke in the same whisper. In his clear blue eyes I could see the hints of plead, but I remained stubborn.
"Maybe we could reschedule it for tomorrow, I'm sure she's-"
I tried to protest. He quickly turns our bodies to face one another. "Carter, two days ago you admitted you were sick! Yesterday and this morning it took me two damn hours to calm you down from crying after being caught sneaking the vodka bottle! Now please, go ahead and try to tell me now that you don't need this!" Luke whisper yells at me. trying to get it in my head. One of his hand grips my shoulder softly as the other cups my cheek. I close my eyes to calm myself. You can do this, I tell myself. Do it for mom.
We enter and the women looks from her clipboard to Luke and I.
"Hello Carter, I'm Mrs. Dunn but of course call me Kaitlin."
The short petit older lady greeted me with a quick firm handshake. I returned the handshake out of politeness, but was overwhelmed inside. My hands fidgeted with Lukes black t-shirt as he stood next to me closely, hugging my side . Knowing my anxiousness.

"Shall we start our hour session?" Kaitlin gestures to the grey living room couch from one of the dining chairs she requested.
"Guess that's my que to leave."
Luke speaks up in a friendly tone. I grip him closer, but he grabs my hands and sets them by my sides.
He flashes Kaitlin a goodbye grin after he tells me to find him after my session. I nod my head and he leaves around the corner out of the living room. I take a seat, haven't yet to say a word to her. "How was your morning, Carter?" My new therapist asks with a smile. "Fine." I keep it short, not changing my expression. Picking at my finger nails.
The feeling of her eyes studying me make me look up at her. "Since it is the first day, I thought we'd stick to the simple questions. To get to know one another. You can also ask me any questions." She explains.
"Okay." I reply.
She looks down at her clipboard and writes something down before saying. "What's your favorite color?"
I squint my eyes for a second in confusion. My favorite color? is this seriously what therapists talk about..
"Uh.. I don't really have one." I shrug my shoulders and stifle a laugh from falling out. Some therapy this will be. "That's okay. How about colors you just like?" She pushes. "Well I really like burgundy and Lavender." I answer her question and I could tell she was examining my posture and the way I spoke. "Lavender is pretty. Do you read any books?" She asked another question. I nod my head and stay quiet, but her body perks up in interest.
"I'm actually in the middle of reading an astrology book of the zodiac signs, its quite lovely." Kaitlin shares. Her thin pink stained lips smile. "I'm a Sagittarius." I tell her. She raises an eyebrow at me and takes her glasses from her eyes and sets them on the coffee table. "A Sagittarius? So your birthday is near or passed?"
"My birthday is on Thursday so a couple of days actually but I'm not planning to celebrate." I respond with a blunt tone.

"I see." Kaitlin mumbles and jots something else on her clipboard..

We go through about 10 questions before our hour is up and I walk her towards the front door. "It was nice to meet you, Carter. Our first session was great. See you tomorrow same time." She says goodbye which I follow before she shuts the front door after her.
Well, so far I think she's okay. A bit strict looking....

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After grabbing myself a bag of some sun chips I head my way up the stairs to find Luke like he had asked. I'm expecting a full set of questions about my session. Ugh like I haven't already been asked enough.
Turning the corner to his hallway paying no attention as I munch on my chips, my body suddenly collides with another, making me drop my chips in shock. "Oops. Sorry." I say urgently before grabbing my chip bag from the ground. I look up to see someone who has been avoiding me.
"Hey.." I smile a small hesitant smile at Michael who looks down at me in surprise and turns to walk away.
"Wait come back!" I call to his back, his back that never turns around and just ignores me. Ugh no matter how many times I tried to call, text, or find him in the house I get nothing. Its been two days since I told him I wanted to take a break and this was the first time I've seen him since then. With how big the house is, I guess hiding from someone isn't that hard...

I release a stressful sigh and stomp my way to Lukes bedroom door. I knock frustrated soon with him answering the door in now, pajamas with damp hair. He must've showered obviously.
"Dang. Thought you were the police with the way you banged on my door." He chuckles and I ignore his comment and help myself to walk inside. His face softens and shuts the door then follows me to his bed where I throw myself on top, laying on my back and cover my face with a pillow and scream into it, as the pillow muffled my need of release.
After I let out my frustrated scream, but don't remove the pillow even as I breath a bit heavier the bed shifts then dips once Lukes body lies next mine in pure silence. The pillow is gently peeled from me and I make eye contact with him.
"What happened?" He says softly.
"I ran into Michael in the hall." I sigh again.
"And?" Luke presses for me to continue.
"Well and, he didn't say one word, not one damn syllable. he walked away as I called him to come back." I pushed back tears.
"What do you want him to say?" Luke raises an eyebrow at me like Kaitlin had earlier.
"I want him to say he understands! or that its okay! even a simple HI would be good! ugh he's acting like I don't exist. I still wanna be friends" My body begins to shake slightly.
"Oh Carter you just need to give him some time. He'll come around." Luke attempt to assure me.
"I don't know about that.." I pout my lip out, genuinely.
"Please.. He already started to." His voice confident and knowing. I perk up on my elbow and look down at Luke.
"What do you mean?" I ask a bit urgent and curious.
"Carter, he's been hiding from you for two days. By now he has gotten the hang of it. If he didn't want to see you still, he wouldn't have ran into you in the hall." Luke explains.


I stay quiet and think of every word Luke just said.. So Michael planned that?


"Now tell me about your therapy session!" Luke huffs, impatiently.
Yup. here comes another set of questions......

Notes

OMG GUYS! so I hope you all had a Merry Christmas!
im so happy cuz FOR Christmas I got a laptop that I've been wanting for sooooo long. not sure how long this chapter will be cuz its the first one im writing on it.
I hope this chapter is good. Let me know whatcha think and omg how amazing was the 1D TV SPECIAL!!!!!!!!!!