Being Carter Hood (5SOS)

"Do you think he'll remember last night?" I anxiously ask Stella while pulling back my curled hair into a ponytail. "Honestly I don't think so.." She pouts. I'm expecting him not to remember.. I mean common sense he drank ALOT which makes people black out. "So what's your plan?" Stella asks as she walks from the bed to the bathroom where I'm standing. "Well, we leave in an hour, but before then I'm going to go to his hotel room right now and just see what happens.." I'm such a liar. I thought about my plan all night I have it mapped out word from word.., but usually people do that and end up forgetting it when they are in the situation. Which will probably be me.
"Sure.." Stella roles her eyes playfully and I smile embarrassed. I look back at the mirror and apply my mascara quickly. My makeup today is very natural looking with calm colors and my outfit is burgundy jeggings, jack Daniels sleeveless shirt, with my grey jacket, and white converse. I take a deep breath and walk out the bathroom. "Don't worry I'll make sure your bags are in tour bus when we leave." Stella smiles while handing me my cell phone that was sitting on the dresser. Oh yeah.. I forgot we were able to find a tour bus for the rest of the trip. "Thanks. Wish me luck!" I say nervously before walking out our hotel room door.
This could be the moment where Michael and I finally be together. To just forget everything that has happened and start fresh as a couple. I've been so stubborn and I am so done with being that way. Its to stressful, I just want jump into Michael arms and have him take all the stress away. I can't fight my feelings. Its time I just go with what I really want.
My hand knocked against Michael's and Luke's hotel room before I had a chance to rethink. I'm shaking with nerves as my stomach does flips. I look up from the ground when the door opens. "Carter!" Instantly, I'm wrapped in bear hug by Luke. I relax with relief. He rests his chin on my shoulder and sighs. "Its so nice to be able to hug you, now that paparazzi isn't here" Luke whispers, thinking the same as me. I nod my head as we pull away. "Um, is Michael here?" I ask while peeking my head around Luke's shoulder but seeing no one. "His hung over ass is still sleeping.... Wait why do you want to know?." Luke smirks and crosses his arms. I let out a chuckle. "You know why."
"Your right I do. Since I was listening through the bathroom door last night." He states proudly. I shake my head while smiling. "That doesn't suprise me." I walking into the hotel room. Luke grabs his luggage and leaves to the tour bus so we can be alone.
My heart is beating quickly as I turn the corner into the room, yet a smile spreads onto my lips as Michael comes into view. He's sleeping on his back with one arm sprawled out and the other laying next to his head. His hair is perfectly messy. The sunshine coming from the window hits his face beautifully making his thick eyelashes lighter. Though he's still dressed in last nights outfit some buttons on his shirt are loose, showing a bit of his chest. He looks so.. Perfect.
Crap. What do I do? How do I approach this situation? Ugh okay. Calm down. I tell myself. My first instinct is to kiss the hell out of him but that's way too forward..
Quietly, I walk to the side of the bed Michael is laying on and hesitantly sit down near his stomach and waist. I wait to see If this wakes him up but he doesn't even flinch.
Dang he must be a heavy sleeper.

I place my hand on his lower stomach. "Michael.. You need to get up." I say sweetly while shaking him slightly, but no luck.
I stair at my hand laying against him. Its like my hand took control.. I moved it up against his chest, then his shoulder, and stopped at the side of his neck. "Michael. Its almost time to leave." I say a bit louder. He shifts his arms and soon his eyes begin to flutter open.

~ Michael's P.O.V ~

My head is throbbing as my eyes try to adjust. At first I definitely thought I'm just seeing things when the blurry image who woke me appears to be Carter. No way its her. She hates me at this point.
More than ever.
I flinch as my head pounds and squeeze my eyes shut. Man, I thought drinking alot last night would save me a couple hours of not remember of what a horrible person I am, but now.. I think I rather choose the guilt. Wait. How the hell did I get in this bed. Damn.. What happened last night?

"Hey are you okay?"

Her voice. That beautiful voice. I must be still drunk. "Your not really there." I mumble to myself and open my eyes once again to see the now non blurry image of Carter. Her plump lips curve into a smile and releases a small giggle. "Michael, I'm right here." She states like its the most obvious thing. My eyes widen slightly at her words. Her hand. Its been laying on my neck and I haven't even noticed. I slowly reach up and place my hand on top of hers and sigh in relief when she doesn't pulls away. I lean into her touch. I have no idea why she's here and being so sweet. But I'm not going to push her away. There is no way in hell.

"Carter.. What are you doing? What happened last night?" I ask curiously. Her smile remains and looks at me like she's carrying a secret, but not hers.. Like its my secret and she doesn't want to embarrass me. ".. It doesn't matter. What matters is what is happening right now." Her smile remains but so does my confusion. She notices my expression and her smile fades away as she pulls her hand away and stands up " Oh god. It shouldn't be just my choice. It should be yours too. I'm sorry for coming on like this." Carter expresses and I instantly miss her touch. The way she is frazzled is adorable but it also makes me sad that she thinks her actions were dumb of her, they definitely weren't.

I sit up quickly. Too quickly that it makes my head take a beating inside. I release a groan and hold my head with both hands. I feel Carter place her hands on my arms. "Oh no.. im so sorry, I shouldn't have come. Do you need me to get you some water?" She asks frantically with an expression of guilt. "Hey.." I take her hands in mine once the throbbing passes. She looks up at me with a frown. "Stop apologizing. You didn't do anything wrong. Okay?" I tell her with a smile she nods her head. "Okay?" I ask again wanting a verbal response as my smile remains and I chuckle. "Okay." She laughs showing that breath taking smile of hers. "I'm just confused thats all, but this.." I gesture down to our hands. "Is amazing." I tell her and she stares into my eyes listening to every word. "Now. I'm going to get showered and we'll talk on the bus. I promise." I say and take a risk by leaning in and give her a longing kiss to her cheek. I mentally do a dance when her response was to lean into it making her cheeks flush.

My eyes are hurting. My head is throbbing, my stomach is burning, and this was the best moment i've had on ths tour so far.

Notes

All I can say is that School has been crazy. Xx love you all.