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A yawn escaped my lips as I stretched in my bed. It's too early for this. I get out of my bed and walk sluggishly to the bathroom. I turn the water on and splash my face with water. I glared at my reflection in the mirror. Ugly piece of shit. That's why your dad hates you, how could he love a failure like you?

I ignore the voice and got in the shower. When I was done I blow dried my hair and straightened it before wrapping a towel around my body. I leave the bathroom and walk over to my closet and grab the first thing my hand touches and get dressed.

(http://www.polyvore.com/chapter/set?id=134127578) I walk out of my room and decide that I will walk to school because it is such a beautiful day. I grab an apple to eat on the way to school for breakfast, and I grab my ipod to listen to, but let's be honest, when am I not listening to my ipod?

I am about halfway there and I have My Chemical Romance blasting in my ears when a car pulls up beside me and rolls down their window. I am a little creeped out until I look over and see that it's only Kellin. I take my ear buds out of my ears so I can hear him.

"Do you need a ride?" He asks concern laced in his voice. I don't want him to be concerned about me because he doesn't need to be. I am just fine on my own, always have been, always will be. I shake my head at him hoping for him to get the hint that I don't want to talk to him and leave. Luckily, he sighed and drove off. I feel really bad for pushing him away, it's not like I want to.

Kellin is a nice guy and all, and the fact that he wants to be around me is beyond words, but I can't bring myself to be close to anyone just for them to leave me. I wouldn't be able to handle losing someone else. By the time I reach the school, class has already started. I put my things in my locker and grab my math stuff and head off to class.

"Late, yet again Mrs. Mason," Her Royal Bitchy-ness says as I walk through the door. I roll my eyes but otherwise say nothing as I walk to my normal place in the back. I don't even know why I bother showing up for school, I'm failing almost every class, and at this rate I probably won't even graduate. And if it weren't for the fact that I have an asshole for a father I probably wouldn't come to school. The bell rings swapping me out of my thoughts.

"Everyone you ate dismissed, Miss Carter can you see me at my desk for a moment?" Mrs. Bril asks as if I have a choice. I gather my things in my arms and walk up to her desk.

"You wanted to see me?" I may think nasty things about her in my head, but I wouldn't dare say them out loud.

"Yes, it has been brought to my attention that you are failing, not only my class, but others also?"

"Yes," I don't see why this is any if her concern.

"Well, I can't speak for your other teachers, but I would rather not have to teach you again next year, so I have taken it upon myself to have one of my brightest students meet with you everyday after school to help you with your studies in all subjects."

"Your making me get a tutor?!" I raise my voice a little.

"You don't have to get one, I already have one picked out, and don't thing of him as a tutor, think of him as a buddy that will help you do better in school," she plasters on a smile and hand me a sheet of paper, "here is your meeting schedule, you can go to your next class now."

"Who is my tutor?" I ask.

"His name is at the top of the paper, bye." I turn and roll my eyes. Bitch. As I walk to my next class I glance at the top of the paper and see that the name of my tutor was Kellin Quinn. Well shit, so much for not getting close to him. I read the rest of the paper and realize that we meet everyday after school for one hour, starting today.

Even though there may not seem it, there is a good thing about this, I will get an extra hour away from my father. But he will furious when I come home late. The whole day I was distracted worring about tutoring. Does he know who he is tutoring or is it going to be a surprise? Is he happy about tutoring me, or not? By the end of the day I had bit my fingernails down to nubs.

Now I am on my way to meet Kellin where the schedule said that we are supposed to meet, the big apple tree at the front of the school. I take out my homework so he can help me with them. I think that he is running late so I try to start in my homework myself. Keyword 'try'. I'm pretty sure I got all of them wrong.

"Twenty-four," a voice speaks from beside me. I look up and find Kellin looking down at me.

"What?" I ask in confusion.

"Twenty-four, that's the answer to the problem that your trying to do," He sits down beside me on the ground.

"Oh, um... thanks," I mumble looking back at my paper.

We sit in silence for a while before he speaks up, "I know that you never do your homework, so one more day of not doing it isn't really going to kill you. So, unless you feel the sudden urge to listen to me talk about how many protons and neutrons are in a carbon atom, I was thinking that we could take today to talk," He says.

"Talk?"

"Just talk," He confirms.

"Okay... you first, tell me about you," I say.

"My name is Kellin Quinn, I have two brothers, Micheal and Jack. Michael is two years older than me, and Jack is five. My dad left us when I was seven and my mom is always gone on business, so it's just us three most of the time. But on the rare occasion when she are home, she's glued to her phone. My mom is basically a stranger. I know absolutely nothing about her. My favorite color is blue, and my favorite food is spaghetti," He tells me, "now its your turn, tell me all about Carter."

"There's nothing much to say really, I dye my hair, my favorite food is pizza, and my favorite colors are red and black," I shrug there's not much of me that's extraordinary.

"What about your family, any siblings?" He digs.

"Um... so your favorite food is spaghetti, how do you like it prepared?" I cough. He looks at the ground.

"Oh, just noodles and sauce, nothing fancy," He looks up at me, "hey Carter?"

"Yeah?"

"Why are you so closed off?" He asks. I look at the ground, his bluntness making me feel awkward and uncomfortable.

"Hey," He lifts my chin to make me look him in the eyes, "when you're ready to talk about it, I'm here okay?" He smiles.

I nod. This is crazy, a couple of days ago if you told me that I was actually talking to someone from my school, let alone a boy, I would have called you insane. I think this is turning out to be an amazing start to a new year. Too bad nothing good ever lasts.

Notes

So now we know a little about Kellin! Am I doing okay? Is this good? Please let me know!