Starting Over

*Samy’s POV*
“Liam, I promise. I’m fine. I can take care of myself. It’s ok. I’ll be ok. But yes, I’ll call you if I need you” Shit. I just lied to Liam. I lied big time. This is not ok with me at all. Mark knows where I live now. I know that he won’t do anything but still the anonymity of living 3500 miles away from that jackass had made life more bearable. Now, however, he knows my address. No more anonymity of mailing stuff to my parents who then mail it to me… no sir! Now he has a direct way to send me whatever bull he wants to. Great. To top it all off, not all the phone calls had been hang ups. One of them had been truly horrifying.
*FLASHBACK*
(phone rings) “hello?” I answer cheerfully, assuming it’s my boss or my parents since they’re the only ones who use my landline to call me
“Is this the bitch that’s screwing Liam? I know it is. You’re all over the internet. Stay away from him. He’ll always be mine. Don’t forget we all know where you live now. He can’t stay by your side every moment.” (hang up). I just sat there shaking. That’s when Liam had called a few moments later. *End flashback*
*Present*
This is what I get for having a world famous celebrity boyfriend. Wait. What am I saying?!? Liam isn’t my boyfriend. I don’t even know what he’s thinking but after this morning, it’s probably somewhere along the lines of “this is why I don’t date”. I can’t blame him if that’s what he’s thinking. Maybe Liam is right though, maybe I should find another place to live.
*The next day*
Even with an unlisted phone number these fans have managed to make my phone ring off the hook all day today and several of them have managed to break into the complex and were sitting outside my door earlier looking for him. It’s starting to freak me out even more. I’m surprised there aren’t more of them outside though. I quickly log onto twitter and see #respectLiamsprivacy and #fthatpap are trending. That makes me smile. At least not all the fans are crazy girls who want me dead. I’m standing at the complex of mailboxes gathering my mail from the past few days when my phone begins to ring, startling me. I look to see El’s number flashing and quickly answer it.
“Hey!” I answer happily.
“How are you holding up, I just saw the news about your address” she says.
“I’m ok.”
“How are you really?” she pushes. Suddenly I feel myself breaking down. I move towards the communal couches in the lobby of the flat complex and break down, telling El everything from the phone calls to the girls outside my door.
“Wow” is the only thing she can muster up after a few moments of silence.
“Yeh, tell me about it” I respond.
“Samy, you really need to tell Liam” she says.
“No way!” I yell. “He’ll blame himself and I can handle it. I’m a big girl. I don’t need my boyfriend, who is 6 years younger than me might I add, to protect me!” I say before realizing the words that are coming out.
“Woah woah woah… boyfriend????” she says excitedly. SHIT! I can’t believe I just said that. “He’s not my boyfriend but I can’t help wondering what it would be like if he was. It’s too soon though” I say back.
“You never know…” is all she says. I can tell she’s hiding something. He must have told Louis something about his feelings towards me. I brush it off though. He’ll tell me when he’s ready. We talk for a while longer finally ending with the decision that things with Liam would work themselves out eventually. We hang up and I set to work on my list of things to get done today.
It was the usual list: clean up my dirty flat, go grocery shopping, get some PR work done for mom, make some phone calls, and start some shopping for birthdays and holidays that were coming up. I was finishing up my heavy duty apartment cleaning when there was a heavy handed knock on the door. I cautiously walked over expecting to see a bunch of Liam obsessed teenage girls at my door. Much to my surprise it was Liam himself. I opened the door quickly and greeted him with a big hug.
“HI!!!!!!” I said a little too enthusiastically.
“Um. Hey yourself” He said back with a small laugh, clearly surprised by my excitement. Surprised or not, there was a massive ear-to-ear smile plastered on his perfect face.
“Sorry, must be all the cleaning fumes” I said, trying to explain my euphoric excitement.
“It’s ok” he chuckled out. “I was wondering if you wanted some company for the rest of the day before our double date with El and Louis tonight” he half asked, half stated. I had completely forgotten about our date tonight.
“Sure” I said. “I was about to run some shopping errands, but if you’re up for getting mobbed, you can come with me” I said half-hoping he would decline.
“Me? Mobbed? Never, love” he said with a smirk as he pulled out a snapback and shades from the front pocket of his hoodie. Right, like no one would recognize him wearing that. He’s Liam fricken Payne. I’m pretty sure people would recognize him with a gorilla mask and Superman cape on.
“Whatever you say my dear” I state grabbing my belongings and heading towards the door.
We get into my car (it’s easier, no one knows what it looks like so fewer people will know we are out together) and head towards the stores. We went gift shopping first. I already knew exactly what I needed to get so this was going to be an easy shop. Liam seemed shocked and impressed at my organized shopping list and also at how quickly I managed to get in and out of stores with each item purchased, wrapped, and labeled. I just smiled. Organization has always been my thing. I love making lists, charts, and labels. I need it. My life has always been so busy. I’m used to working, going to school, and keeping track of not just my schedule but always my now ex-husband’s schedule and my mom’s schedule as well. This was a breeze compared to that. “Why are you buying your holiday presents so early?” he finally asked.
“Oh, well, I’m technically Jewish, though I don’t really follow it and the first night of Chanukah is the night before Thanksgiving this year so I need to get everything now. Also, my dad’s birthday is the 21st of November so that’s coming up too and I have 2 god-children who have their birthday on November 11th and one of my best friend’s birthdays is October 30th” I stated matter-of-factly.
“Oh wow, that’s coming up pretty quickly, so, when’s your birthday?” he said.
“Yep, that’s why I feel so rushed” I laughed through my statement completely ignoring his question about my birthday. I hate my birthday.
“Understandable” he smiled at me “but you didn’t answer my question. When’s your birthday?”
“Um… October 4th” I answer quietly.
“That’s in just a few weeks, were you ever going to mention it? We boys love birthdays. Ask El” he giggled at me with a devious grin.
“It’s not that important and I figured it would come up eventually. Just not a big deal to me” I say calmly.
“I see… well, we can change that” he states matter of factly.
“Hey, Samy, can I ask you something?” Liam said, out of nowhere.
“Sure” I responded with a lump in my throat.
“I was wondering if you have thought at all about what we are. I know that tonight is only our second date and I don’t want to rush anything but I honestly can’t stop thinking about you. We don’t have to be boyfriend and girlfriend but I was wondering if it’s something you would consider in the future. I really do want to take things slow with you. I’ve rushed into too many relationships and been hurt a lot. I just want to make sure it’s something we both want but I can’t help feeling like we could have something.” he rambled nervously.
“Liam, you know that I just got out of a really messed up marriage. I would love to take things slow with you and I agree, there is definitely something between us. I could see myself being with you in the future but for now, let’s just see where life takes us. You’re always on the road with the boys and you may not feel like having the baggage of a long-term relationship. Let’s just see how things go, ok? Now stop being so nervous!” I stated and joked trying to ease his tension.
“You mean it?” He said.
“Of course” I said.
“I agree. Let’s spend the next few months dating and getting to know each other before we decide if we want to make it official and go public. If that’s ok with you. I’ll let you decide when you’re ready for us to be more.” He said clearly still nervous.
“Deal” I said, pulling him into a secluded area of a store and giving him a quick kiss on the cheek. He blushed deeply before pulling me into his lips. He smelled like a strange but addicted combination of mint, cologne, and soap. I never wanted him to let go but of course he did.
*Harry’s POV*
“Anyone seen Liam today?” I asked walking into the living of my flat. Louis, Niall, Zayn, El, and Perrie were all over making plans for the next few days before Perrie leaves for her Little Mix tour again.
“Over at Samy’s” El stated flirtatiously. Samy’s… I wonder why he’s over there. I mean I know she’s probably upset about the whole address thing but I doubt she needs one on one consoling about it. Liam sure does seem to be throwing himself at her. She better not hurt him or I’ll go after her personally. No one hurts my brother. He was so hurt after everything that went down with Danielle that I think having to face another heartbreak would be too much for him to handle. He acts so tough but deep down he’s a puffy marshmallow.
“What’s the deal with them anyway?” I ask trying to playing it cool.
“They went out a few nights ago and they talk a lot but other than that I’m not quite sure. I know Samy’s quite taken by him though” El says smiling. She’s always been the hopeless romantic but then again she has Louis. She and Louis are made for each other. They put 10% effort into their relationship and get perfection out of it. It’s sickening but adorable to watch. Kind of frustrates the rest of us while still giving us hope for our own love lives I suppose.
“If you ask me, Liam is quite smitten with her” Louis announces “I think he’s going to ask her to be his girl soon.”
“What? They just met!” I say a little too aggressively.
“Do we sense a little jealously mate?” asks Niall.
“No, just don’t want to see him hurt again, that’s all” I state bluntly.
“Harry, you know he’s going to do what he wants to do. He’s a big boy, he can handle it” Zayn finally steps in with his opinion on the matter.
“I suppose” I say still cautious to agree.
“Don’t worry, Samy’s been hurt worse than Liam has. If anyone is going to hurt the other, Liam will do it to her” El pronounces in a rather aggressive tone.
“What do you mean?” I inquire.
“It’s not for me to tell, but you know she’s been married before, yeh?” El proceeds with caution.
We all shake our heads to say “no” while giving each other looks.
“Well she was and let’s just say, it didn’t end well. He turned out to not be a good person and that’s why she’s here. He’s not dangerous but he’s not someone that anyone should have been married to either” she says “and that’s all I’m saying about it.” Wow, never would have pegged Samy for a divorced person. She seems too nice to have ended up with an ass like her ex-husband sounds like he was. Regardless, even nice people break hearts.

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