Starting Over

*Louis’ POV*
What the hell is going on? Samy and Liam just kissed… twice. Liam just told Samy that he would leave Sophia for her and she said no. I’m pretty sure she’s lost her mind. That or I’m hallucinating. I pray that I’m hallucinating. This is what they have both been waiting for for months and months now. They have been trying to find a way to be together again and here it is, the chance to reunite and she turns him down. Something’s up with her.
“Liam, you ok bro?” I ask approaching cautiously.
“No. I’m really not. I just gave her my heart, again, and she crushed it, again. I’m done. I don’t want to be with Sophia but I can’t deal with Samy either. I can’t handle this rejection anymore. We can’t be friends. I can’t see her face knowing that we love each other so deeply but she won’t come back to me. I just need to be single for a while” he says in a truly defeated tone.
He’s truly broken this time. It’s going to take a lifetime to heal all the wounds that this limbo between him and Samy has caused. I just hope that with time, their friendship can be restored but at this point even that seems like a stretch. I turn the corner away from Samy and head towards her room, knocking lightly as I approach the door.
“Not now, Liam, please” she begs from the other side.
“It’s Louis, Samy, I just want to check on you” I say quietly.
“Oh, come in” she says.
I open the door quietly and slip in, making sure to close it quickly behind me. I make my way over to the bed and take a seat beside her. She leans into my side and I put my arm around her, hugging her tightly as she sighs deeply and looks up to meet my eyes.
“I just can’t do it, Lou. I just can’t be with him. I know that it’s all I’ve dreamt about for months now but something deep inside is telling me no. I don’t know what it is. I’ve never had this feeling before. Honestly, I feel like I may be falling for someone else and I want to see where it takes me. I’ll always love Liam but I can’t keep going back to him just to have the same thing happen again. He’s too intense and too rushed” she confides.
“I understand completely” I say, and I do. I’ve had these feelings before with Eleanor. We broke up for a while, though no one even really knows about it apart from the boys. I dated someone else and eventually realized that she is the only one that I could ever want. We’ve never been apart again since.
“So, may I ask whom this new boy interest is?” I say, truly interested.
She gives me a very nervous look. No… it can’t be…
“Samy, is it Harry?” I ask quietly.
She looks at the ground with tears in her eyes
“Yeh” she says almost inaudibly.
“I see. Well, I can’t say that I’m surprised. I’m just not sure how Liam is going to feel about this. Do you mind if I talk to Harry for a few moments?” I ask hesitantly.
“About what?” she asks defensively.
“You, the possibility of you guys as a couple and how to discuss this possibility with Liam” I say rationally.
“If you wish, but I’m not even sure how he feels towards me” she says back.
“One way to find out, love” I say walking out and shutting the door behind me. I need to talk to Harry in private tomorrow.
*The next day*
I pull up in front of Samy and Harry’s house bright and early. We have a recording session later today so I decided to take Harry out to breakfast beforehand. HONK! HONK! I lay on the horn to let Harry know I’m here because I’m too lazy to get out of the car and get him myself. He wanders out a few moments later giving me the finger and glaring at me. Guess he must have fallen back to sleep after I called.
“Really with the horn, Lou?” he glares at me as he climbs in the passenger seat.
“You know me, I love to make a scene!” I joke back. “Diner ok with you?” I ask already driving down the road towards our favorite breakfast spot.
“I don’t care as long as there are pancakes and coffee” he says half asleep.
We get there about 10 minutes later and park. After getting seated in the back so we won’t be spotted as easily and ordering, I decide to just drop the Samy bomb and get it over with.
“Hey Harry, Samy talked to me last night after the whole Liam debacle. I think there’s something you should know” I say, trying to be direct but gentle at the same time.
“Oh yeh? What’s that?” he says, truly curious now.
“She doesn’t want to be back with Liam. She has feelings for you and she wants to see where they go” I decided to just blurt it all out. It’s too early for veiled references and hints; better to just be blunt.
“She does? Really?” he asks like a little kid. “I was kind of hoping she had feelings for me, but we could never be together. Liam would be devastated” he says quietly.
“I’ll help you talk to him if you want, I just think it’s better to tell him that you and Samy both want to explore this instead of hiding it and ignoring your feelings” I explain.
“I suppose you’re right. Thanks, Louis” he says.
After finishing up our food we headed to the studio only to see Samy’s car sitting outside and Samy and Liam sitting on a bench talking with full on animation. Clearly, Liam was unhappy about something. Harry jumped out of the car before I had even had a chance to fully stop it, or him, and ran over to Samy as if to guard her from Liam’s anger. This made Liam even more furious and before I had a chance to process what was unfolding before me, Liam had Harry on the ground and was sitting on him about to punch his lights out. Luckily I got to him before the blow occurred and Harry didn’t get hurt. Samy was crying and yelling at Liam which only seemed to make matters worse. I’ve honestly never seen Liam this worked up. After a moment of glaring at each other I pulled Harry away, much to his protest and allowed Samy to finish her talk with Liam.
*Samy’s POV*
“Liam, I have no idea what the hell is wrong with you, but you need to cut this shit out NOW!” I bark at him. “I didn’t tell you to break up with Sophia. In fact, I specifically remember telling you NOT to break up with her so don’t you dare sit there and act like you ruined your relationship with her for me” I continue. “Furthermore, as much as we may love each other, you don’t own me. Harry and I have gotten very close and I am truly interested in pursuing something with him. ME! He didn’t come after me. I’m going after HIM! So don’t take this out on him either. You had your chance. WE had our chance. It didn’t work. I need to see who else is out there me.”
“Fine. But don’t come crying to me when it ends badly. Harry’s a good guy but we both know that I’m the one you’re meant to be with, I’M the one you’re meant to marry, I’M the one who will make you happy” he states in angry defeat before walking off and slamming the studio door behind me.
I honestly never meant to hurt Liam or anyone else but I can’t stop living my life for the sake of protecting everyone else around me. I can’t keep sacrificing my own potential for success and happiness just to ensure that spare feelings. It’s time I start making myself happy. If someone truly cares for me, they will want me to be happy, regardless of their own opinions and feelings. That’s what true love and friendship is.

Notes

I'm sorry that this chapter is crap! I rewrote it 14 times but I just couldn't figure out a better way to transition the story, so you're stuck with this relatively immature chapter. Again, I apologize if you were waiting for an "earth shattering" revelation of some sort. Bare with me. The story will progress and move quickly from here on out. I'll try my best to update as much as I can this week but I'm leaving Thursday to go home for a few days so I'm running around trying to get stuff done before I leave. I'll try my hardest!

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