Do you know how it feels to hold something in for so long? Like keeping hold of a secret that you are afraid to let go of? Afraid that if you let that secret out that it could not only jeopardize your life but other peoples life other peoples friendships, relationships, and marriages. That this one secret can ruin everything and anything you were working for. You feel like that this one secret is like steering your life into a black hole. That this one secret is the one thing keeping you from the person you love. That this one secret is the one thing determining the rest of your life. You dream in your fantasy land that you say this secret and that everything turns out great. But this isn't a fantasy land this is the one thing keeping you from happiness. This is a thing that you knew was there but pretended wasn't. This is Reality.
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Harry's P.O.V.

Today is the day I am going to do it. I am going to tell my best friend Scarlette that I love her. I have loved Scar since the day we met. It was love at first sight really. We were just 4 year old kids playing at the local neighborhood park when I through sand in her face.

~Flashback~

Me and my mom are going to the park today. She promised me that if I got a green star in my class that I would get to do whatever I wanted for a whole day. We have already been to the Zoo and the ice cream parlor and now we are heading to the park. We don't usually have time for the park but she made time for her only son.

"Okay Harry we arnt going to stay long if you still want to go see that movie later." she said.

"Okay mom I just want to make a sand castle and swing on the swings a little bit." I said. I was a very smart kid for being 4 years old.

I walked over to the sand box and started to build a sand castle. About 10 minutes later I was finished with my sand castle and wanted to swing on the swing. I walked over to the swing and saw some girl was on it. 'Mom said I could do anything I wanted right?' I thought. Well I wanted that swing and it didn't look like she was getting off anytime soon so I need to make her get off. I walked back over to where I had built my sand castle and picked up a bunch of sand in my hands.

I walked back over to the swig to see that the girl was still there. I tried to be nice at first.

"Can I swing?" I asked. She looked at me and slowed down the swing to speak.

"No. I'm not done you can swing after me." she said. But the thing with me was I didn't want to swing after her. I wanted to swing now. So I lifted my hand to show her the sand and threw it at her face. She got hit right in the eyes and in reaction she took her hands off the ropes and fell to the ground.

I climbed over to the swing and sat down while the little girl was crying and calling for her mommy. A women I'm guessing her mother came over and picked her up and my mom came running to me.

"What happened Scarlette?" said her mother. Scarlette turned and pointed to me.

"That meany boy threw sand in my face and then I fell!" she screamed. My mom looked at me and popped me on my hands and bottom, and made me say sorry. I walked over to the girl and her mom looked at me like I was the devil with my mom right behind me.

"I'm sorry for throwing sand in your face and making you fall off the swing." I said with tears brimming in my little eyes.

"It is okay." she said. Then my mom jumped into the situation.

"Why don't we make it up to you. We were about to go to the movies to see that new Scooby Doo(I have no idea if a new Scooby Doo movie came out then) movie in 3-D why don't you come with us our treat.?" said my mom. The little girl looked at her mom and started to beg.

"Please mommy! Please I wanna see Scooby Doo?!?!?" she begged. Her mother sighed and nodded.

We wall went to the theater and took our seats before the movie started.


~Flashback Over~

That is how it all started my little stupid self led me to the girl I love. I am going to call her and ask her to meet up at that same park. I pulled out my cell phone. I dialed the number I remember all so well. It rang and rang and rang and rang, but no one answered. I was just left with her voice mail. I tried to call again thinking maybe she didn't get to it in time but his time I heard the same thing; voicemail. She usually answers on the first ring. I thought. I tried to text her and she didn't answer. I began to get worried. Then I Skype called her and she still didn't answer. Now i am officially worried. So I got my jacket and car keys ready to go when I saw Louis in the living room watching football. He looked up and saw what I was doing.

"Where you going mate?" he asked with his eye brows creased together.

"I just need to check on something. I'll be back later." I said as I made my way to the door.

I walked out to my Range Rover and got in and started to drive to Scarlette's house.

~Skip Car Ride~

20 minutes later I was at Scar's front door and knocked. I waited a few seconds until her father opened the door with a bottle of liquor in his hands. Uh oh.

"Hello Mr. Jones is Scarlette in?" I asked. He took a swig from the bottle and looked me up and down.

"Oh I know you your that Barry kid." he said. Barry?

"Um it's Harry sir. Is Scarlette here?" I asked again getting a little agitated.

"Yeah the little whore is upstairs. Why? Did she call you to get some too?" he spat.

"Whatever floats your boat sir." i said as I pushed my way through him and ran up to Scarlette's room.

"Scar!?!?!?!?" I yelled. No response. I went to her walk in closet.

"Scar?!" I yelled again. Nothing. I ran into her bathroom and what I saw made me drop to my knees in tears. There she was laying there unconscious on her bathroom floor bleeding from her head and sides.

"Oh my god!!" I whispered. I ran up to her and put my head on her chest to see if there was a heart beat. It was there but it was very faint. i decided to take matters into my own hands and picked her up carrying her to my car. I didn't even care that her dad was here. i was taking her to the hospital.

I got to the hospital and carried her in yelling.

"Help me! Help! She is hurt and is unconscious!!" I yelled. Doctors ran up to me and put her on a stretcher and rolled her away. I tried to follow but one of the burses were holding me back saying I had to wait here and that's what I did. I waited. I waited for the love of my life to come back to me. That's all I could do was wait.

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"She thinks that no one loves her from what she has been through"-Harry
"Nobody really understands what she has gone through but she needs to understand that now she has people that care"-Liam
"No matter what she has gone through she needs to know that we wont judge her"-Zayn
"We love her for what she is not what she has been through, we could never blame her for what has happened"-Louis
"I genially think that she doesn't want to let anyone in because she is afraid to love them because she thinks they will leave her"-Niall
"I know they try to help but no one can save me from the past"-Scarlette

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Notes

Redoing the whole fan fic and all my others so yeah enjoy!

<3 Danielle