Behind the Scenes

India's POV

'Indie, can I talk to you privately?' asked Zayn, as he took my hand and led me while I nodded silently. Why did he want to talk to me alone? Have I done something wrong? I kept thinking as he brought me to the quiet room, it's a room that pupils can go to if they need to talk privately with a teacher or another pupil. I never forgot this room, I spent to many classes in here, too many hours of tears and bad thoughts too many reasons. 'If this what I said their now about Louis and Lily, then I didn't know or mean to. I guess I keep..' he cut me off as I started, 'Indie, it's not about them two love birds, it's about..' 'Love birds? Am I missing something?' I asked loudly just as we walked into the quiet room. 'oh yeah their going steady have been for 2 weeks now, they are perfect for each other! But no it's about us,' 'Us?' I whispered, 'yes, us do you remember anything?' he asked he seemed rather shy and mysterious one of the things I love about him. Wait? LOVE? I guess I thought over this a little bit too much as I was interrupted in my thoughts by him. 'Indie? India!' he clicked, I suddenly came out of my thoughts, 'Sorry about that, I've been doing that a lot lately, it's getting really bad!' I said trying to lighten the mood. 'It's alright Dia, I just want to know if you remembered what happened?' he asked sympathetically. 'Well, I remember about the last day of school, me walking in the rain, you finding me and bringing me back to yours and us talking. Almost kissed' I said the last part quietly and Zayn went a tad red, 'You leaving me home and texting, but the texts aren't there anymore and I definitely didn't delete them, I didn't want to lose our first texting convo' he went quiet.

'Is that all you remember? About anything?' he asked quietly. 'Well no not really, I can remember the rest of summer, about this guy Jamie? I don't really know why I'm with him, I guess I was lonely and upset but..' 'Upset? Why were you upset? Was it me because we never hung out or talked at all?' I couldn't tell him I liked him but if I do tell him he might like me back. But who would like me? I can't remember much from the last 2 months clearly and I'm not even that good looking. No I'm not going to tell him.

Zayn's POV

She can remember that day, the rest of the summer, my broken promise. She was upset because of me and I knew it even if she won't admit it, I could see it in her beautiful, big, blue eyes. She really was a stunner. Why did I think that there now? I can't have these thoughts about her I really can't. 'No, it wasn't because of you, why would it? She said, she looked hurt, I could see the pain I put her through. I hate myself for doing that to her, I can't believe I did that to her, my girl, no she wasn't my girl, Perrie's my girl. Yeah I kind of hooked up with Perrie over the summer, she's great a perfect personality, the boys love her, I love her not India. Did I just put love and India in the same sentence? 'I'm sorry I didn't meant to make you upset, forgive me?' is all I could say, I didn't know what to say. I always feel so nervous around her and happy at the same time. 'wait you said you keep something earlier, what to keep on doing?' I had to ask trying not to make things awkward, 'Umm, oh I keep blurting things out from my memory accidentally not realising what I'm saying until after I said it, so don't take any of it seriously,' she said quickly, I guess she's getting a better memory now if she remembered that so quickly, like she emptied space in her brain for new memories. Huh I've always wanted to do that. 'really? I guess your thinking skills have slowed down then?' I said, but I probably shouldn't have though, I'm such an idiot! 'Yeah, I guess you could say that..' things went quiet for about a minute. 'Can you tell me what happened before I ended up in hospital I haven't really been told Lauren won't tell me anything, and I only know what happened by what the doctor told me and he wasn't even sure what happened' she said quietly but unsure. Was I aloud to tell her? I think it'll be fine right? I'm going to tell her, for her own sanity. 'India, do you want me to tell you what really happened that day?' I asked but not as confident as I normally am, strange. 'Zayn, I would love to know, plus it could bring back some of my memory, hopefully.' she mumbled the last bit, as if she was wishing it would. 'okay, where do I start?' 'Start from the beginning please,' she said anxiously.

India's POV

I was finally going to be told what happened by someone who was there! But it was Zayn who was telling, my Zayn. Awh, wait, no Zayn's not mine! Why do I keep having these thoughts? I have that Jamie guy, right? I still haven't seen him after the accident. Is that bad? But we text all the time! I guess that makes up for it right? 'right, well I don't exactly know what you did in the morning but we didn't exactly talk, erm we hadn't talked since the last day of school really.. and I feel really bad for that, cause I made a promise and I didn't keep it and well I'm sorry for that! I really am..' he started, he was sorry? I didn't expect that, 'Zayn, im guess im sorry to.. it's my fault as well I could have text you first, but I guess I felt that I would have been annoying you, so yeah.. um I'm sorry too' I had to tell him the truth, he needed to know and I needed to get off my chest. Zayn smiled at me and I smiled back, he leaned in for a hug, arms open and immediately I hugged back! It felt so good, I was happy to be in his arms. We sat there for at least 5 minutes just in silence, hugging, enjoying each others company. We finally let go and he said, 'Well when we got to rehearsals, I was standing talking Kody and Mr Dilly, and you walked in. Was it me or did it all go quiet?' he asked, 'No, it was quiet and a little awkward if I say..' I said honestly, we both were telling the truth, so I had to say it.

'yeah, you felt that too?' he paused, I nodded, 'I looked at you straight away and then you spoke and I was about to say something to you but then Mrs Bow walked in with Niall and you started talking to him and I said that he always eats and you snapped at me and then' 'Zayn, calm down you don't need to get worked up about it, it's okay I was just a bit pissed at you, sorry bout that..' he nodded and smiled abit. 'well, after that the fire bell went off and we all headed for the door,' a memory of that came back to me, everything up to the bell going off. 'Indie, you okay?' he asked and I simply nodded and made a suggestion to carry on, so he did. 'okay, if your sure?' I smiled and nodded, 'alright then, well I turned around to see if everyone was coming and I seen you,' he paused..'you just stood there looking straight at me, not moving, frozen in your steps, lifeless and I didn't like the feeling, I backed up and came running towards you and when I was about 6 steps away from you Kody pushed past you causing you to fall and hit your head off the table, I just reached out to grab you before you hit but I wasn't able to catch you' he looked so sad and guilty when he said the last part, 'it's not your fault I hit my head, you do know that...don't worry bout it!' I said, he just looked up at me with tears in his eyes, it was so cute. 'I should have caught you, but I didn't and I'm sorry for that.' he said, 'Once you hit the ground, I completely shattered into a million pieces, I felt so bad! But I got to you and lifted you up and carried you out to the hockey pitch, where everyone else was, I was spotted immediately and Ms. Sung came over and asked what happened so I told her and an ambulance was called for you, once they arrived at school, they took you to the hospital, but I had to fight with them and the school just to come with you. But they finally let me come with you, in the ambulance I never let go off your hand and I felt like I was holding on to your life and I couldn't stop the tears coming' really? Tears for me? Awe I love this boy. Wait, what? 'they brought you into the hospital and wheeled you through the halls with the bright lights on the roof. And I was told to leave, I didn't want to, but I was made to. I hadn't left the waiting room for the whole day and didn't go home until the boys came and forced me home, I ended up falling asleep while Harry carried me out. I was so upset over you and I visited you everyday until you got out, even then I came to your house and your sister I'm guessing? Wouldn't let me in to see you and I tried every single day and that's all I know until you came into school today' whoa, this boy is amazing! He did all this for me! I'm seriously falling for him..is this what that dream was about when I was out? Yeah, I remembered it when he said about the bright lights, and I remembered EVERYTHING! But the dream is a little hazy and blurry. Hopefully it will all make sense someday, someday soon. I remember everything that's happened since the end of summer on wards til today. This is going to be fun!

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