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Surviving

So sick

HARRY'S POV

"Did you say you were thinking of... Toni?" Liam tilted his head.

"Yes, problem?" I felt anger growing in me for no reason. He didn't say it rudely or anything.

"No, just wondering why she's on your mind." He said, putting his hands up in defense.

"You wanna know why? Because she's my best friend since kindergarten and I don't know where she is, or if she's safe. That's why." I rambled.

"Geez, Harry. No need to get defensive." Violet said.

"Well I feel like I should be defensive. My best friend is gone, no one knows her like I do. She's dying without knowing where we are. Not literally, but it hurts her." I mumbled this last part, "She's special to me."

With that, I put on my swim suit and jumped off of the raft into the water, then started pulling.

TONI'S POV

I want to get home. That's it. I want to be home, under my blanket, snuggling with Louis, watching Toy Story with Liam, eating with Niall, playing with Effey and Zayn, and Harry and I catching up on life.

That's all I want.

I've never missed someone as much as I missed them right now.

Im a little surprised that we've survived this long. I've seen Titanic. They didn't even survive a day. We must be fucking wizards.

Paige and I have been sitting on the raft, doing absolutely nothing for the past day. She would occasionally eat a handful of berries, but I haven't eaten since we left.

"Toni, tell me another story. I'm bored." Paige randomly said.

I sighed, the sky was dark, kinda like the sky was when Niall and I went to that drive in movie together. *FLASHBACK*

17 year old Niall and I drove to the drive in, waiting for the drive in sign to come in sight.

"Ugh! We need music." I pouted as I turned on the radio in Niall's car.

He laughed, "Am I not entertaining enough?"

"Nope!" I giggled.

We were going to see a romance movie. I had suckered Niall into it, he was the only won I felt comfortable watching this with. I'm not sure why to be honest though.

We pulled in and got a spot up near the top of the field. Niall liked to be away from people, I did too.

The movie was starting and Niall turned on the station for the sound.

The opening credits had a song playing, I didn't know the song well, but enough that I knew the title. So Sick by Ne-Yo. Apparently, Niall knew it too, because he was singing along to it.

"Gotta change my answering machine

Now that I'm alone

Cause right now it says that we

Can't come to the phone

And I know it makes no sense

Cause you walked out the door

But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore

(it's ridiculous)

It's been months

And for some reason I just

(can't get over us)

And I'm stronger than this

(enough is enough)

No more walking round

With my head down

I'm so over being blue

Crying over you."

That's all that I heard of the song before the movie started and the song faded out.

Niall's singing voice was so sexy for some reason. And it really turned me on, because Niall and I both found ourselves leaning in to kiss. Right after our lips touched, the movie's sounds startled me and I pulled back out.

Niall and I awkwardly laughed and watched the rest of the movie in silence. That was the closest to a kiss I've ever had other than Zayn.

But I really don't know what came over me, I never was attracted to him. His voice just turned me on suddenly.

*FLASHBACK OVER*

"Wait, let me get this straight, you and Niall had a thing?" Paige looked completely shocked.

"No, no, we had nothing going on between us. It was in the moment." I defended.

She nodded, "I get it. Kinda like in the movies."

"Yea." I trailed off, not like in the movies. More like when someone sings and it makes you attracted to them, and then you want to kiss them.

After that, I decided to do some pulling. Couldn't hurt. The water isn't very cold, considering its summer.

I was already in the water, hand on the raft, swim-walking through the water within seconds. I don't know why I got in so fast. Maybe I just missed the boys and I wanted to get home. I couldn't wait to see them. And obviously Harry felt that way too. I started to hear what he was saying:
"Well I feel like I should be defensive. My best friend is gone, no one knows her like I do. She's dying without knowing where we are. Not literally, but it hurts her." Harry mumbled this last part, "She's special to me."

He must've deeply thought over what he was saying as he said it. And the last part, I know that he meant special, as in "We can talk through our minds."

I decided to try and talk to Harry now.

'Harry. I heard what you said.'

It was moments before he responded.

'Heard what? Heard me yelling at Liam? Listen, about that...'

I tried to respond as fast as I could.

'No need to explain. We are special, we can talk through our minds.'

'Yea. Thanks for understanding.'

'Alright. I'm gonna go, ignore any thoughts that go through to you.' I thought.

'Alright. Bye, love.'

Life really sucks right now. My life is on that raft with Harry and Louis, not here with a girl I met less than a month ago.

What's the point of even living anymore? I haven't eaten in days. Actually, I haven't eaten in... 21 days.

I wanna go, I want off of this raft, out of the water. Now. Not in 9 days when I starve to death. Now.

I let go of the raft and pushed myself underwater. I didn't hold my nose like always. Nope, I kept my mouth open and inhaled all the water in.

I felt myself slowly slipping away, I could see the light at the end of the tunnel. It seemed peaceful. I wasn't hungry, I wasn't upset. I was happy.

My self conscious started walking toward the end of the tunnel. It was time for me to go. It was time to see all the people I've seen pass.

Melissa. My father. My grandmother and grandfather. My uncle. And... Harry's mother?

I could see them, I reached the light, and they we're waiting for me.

"Anne? I thought you were still alive. When did you pass?"

"After I heard the plane crashed, and you and Harry were on it, I killed myself. I was kind of happy that you too would be reunited. You're meant to be together. Like peanut butter and jelly." Her voice seemed raspy, kinda like Harry's.

"How do you know that we're meant to be together? And what do you mean?" I asked.

"When I died, there was a kind of slideshow. It showed me memories from the future about our loved ones. You and I were close enough to be considered loved ones I guess, because I saw a vision of you sitting on a couch, with Harry." The shock hit me. "I don't know what it means, but that island reunited you. You were always supposed to stay close. And I thank that plane for getting you back together."

I looked around at all the people there. Melissa, my father, my grandparents, and Harry's mother. Poor Harry doesn't even know.

"Now turn around before the tunnel closes. Please! Harry needs you! If he hears your last thoughts, he'll kill himself too. He doesn't know it, neither of you know it, but you need each other more than you think." My father said.

"Wait, dad, how did you know that Harry can hear my thoughts?"

"Baby girl, we've known since you and Harry we're born. I don't have time to explain." He said.

"But I wanna stay here. It's peaceful."

"It won't be as nice when your best friend is down here. Go!" Melissa said and shooed me out the passage.

"No! Let me stay!" I stopped myself.

'TONI!!! GET YOUR ASS ON THAT RAFT BEFORE I GET TO YOU. BECAUSE WHEN I GET TO YOU, YOU'RE ASS IS MINE.' Harry's thought rang through the area.

"Your soulmate already decided that you're gonna live. Go, before he finds you."

"Haven't you seen? He won't find me, he's on the other side of the ocean. He won't find me!" I tried to stay, but then I thought, "Soulmate?"

"No time to explain!" Anne said.

She pushed me through the tunnel and right before it closed they all said, except for Mel, "We love you, tell Harry we love him too."

Then the tunnel closed with me on the other side. I started running down the dark tunnel. I could see the end was closing. What would happen if I was stuck in between?

As I ran, I heard voices in the tunnel.

"Your soulmate already decided that you're gonna live."

"Baby girl, we've known since you and Harry we're born. I don't have time to explain."

"You were always supposed to stay close. And I thank that plane for getting you back together."

The last thought confused me the most. We were supposed to find each other on that plane. We were supposed to survive that plane crash. Vut we weren't supposed to get separated again.

It was faith. Yet I still don't know what he is to me. It's not love interest. Or like a brother, it's stronger. Stronger than a best friend. Stronger than a brother. Stronger than a Soulmate. But I don't know what's stronger than a soulmate.

I jumped through the end of the tunnel, into the water, right before the tunnel closed and disappeared.

I swam to the surface as fast as I could. My body had sunk while I was in there. I swam as fast as I could, now I had to actually try and not drown. I was so close. Closer. Closer. Inches away from the surface. I jumped up out of the water and leaned on the raft.

"Toni!!!" Paige yelled as she pulled me completely onto the raft.

"P...Paige." I coughed out.

"Oh my god, Toni! Never do that again!!! Please!"

"I won't. I promise." I breathed in quickly and sat up.

Oh god, I gotta talk to Harry.

'Harry!'

He responded and you could hear the relief in his voice.

'Toni... please... never put me through that again. I wouldn't be able to live if you died.'

'That's what my father said. I saw my father, Mel, my grandparents. And your mother said some things too...'

I regretted it right after I said it.

'My mother? She passed away? '

Oh no. I sighed physically, then thought...

'Yea. She commited suicide after she found out that we were on the plane that crashed. But she was happy that the plane reunited us. She said that when she died, she saw future memories and we were in one. We were sitting on a couch together. She said that we were meant to find each other. That we're soulmates. But I asked what she meant, and she said that there was no time to explain.'

Harry was astonished. I could tell.

'So she said that we're soulmates?'

'Yea. And everyone said that they love you. Even my father and grandparents.' 'I'm still hung up on the soulmate thing.' Harry thought.

'She said that it was faith we were both on that plane. God did that for us. Unfortunate way to find each other. On a plane that wrecks four seconds later.'

I said to him.

'Yea. We found each other on unfortunate terms. At least we still have each other. Well you should get rest. You just nearly died.'

'Yea. Night, soulmate.'

'Night, soulmate.'