Broken Record.

I felt useless, I knew I was being silly moping around but my body was on autopilot; lift cup, place cup down, put tea bag in cup-
"Rina?" I hear a voice from behind me.
"Yeah?" I say without looking up. "Pagen!" I squeal when I see my cousin standing in the doorway, blankie in hand.
"Shall we um... have a movie night?" She asks, a tear escapes her big eyes and I walk over and just hug her, there is nothing I can say to reassure her, when I need reassurance myself.
"Yeah, come on" I tug her upstairs.
"Rina I-I'm a bit.. alot... I'm so scared." She whispers and falls onto my shoulder. "H-hes only 16 he cant..."
"Pagen... Niall is older than Harry... I think he's like 20..." I look down at her puzzled face.
"Wait...what."
"I dont know the whole story but I know that he's not 16. None of them are!" We both laugh and continue up the stairs.
"Whos room?" She asks.
"Mine." I say back and we walk to Harry's and I room, I turn on the lamp and climb into his side of the bed, it smells like him and I smile as I snuggle into the sheets. Pagen stands their looking like she's seen a ghost.
"What is it? Whats wrong." I ask.
"Rina... is that Harry's gym bag?" She asks pointing over towards a large rucksak type thing. I don't understand why she is so confused until I see it, it was hard to see in the dim light. The red lace. We share a look and both move towards the bag, me scrambling on the bed. I lift the contents slowly out and my stomach drops, it is infact a red thong. Angered I pull the bag up and take it to the bed, pouring out everything inside onto the sheets:
Thong.
Trainers.
Basketball shorts.
Socks. EUGH.
Bandanna.
Tank top.
Phone? Pagen and I reach for it at the same time, it's not like a disposable phone I was told they use alot to contact eachother so it really confuses me.
I switch it on. Various texts pop onto the phone.
Laura:3
Harryyy! Where are youu! Its been to long and I miss you... ;) xxx
Where shall I meet you on wednesday?xxx
Hellooooo?
I decide to click the earlier messages button.
Hello xxx Laura had put. Whats the date? Two weeks ago.
Hey xxx Was the response. Harry's response. I decide I should put the phone down as Pagen tells me shes just going to check her phone.
How are you doinggg xxx
Fine thanks babe you?xxx
Yeahh not bad thank you! Wuu2 xxx
Good good, not much really just killing time, you?xxx
Getting ready to come and kill time with you..;) xxx
See you soon then, the keys under the matt, I will be waiting ;) xxx I actually felt sick, there were no further messages from Laura. Whilst on the messages list I notice some other names. Joanna, Keelie, Cara. Cara?! Click.
Hello Mr.Styles xox
Hello Cara xx
Where are you?xox
At work. You up for? I can swing by later?xx
My mums in, shall I come to yours? I want to feel you.... on me... in me xox
Cara! I just spat coffee over Niall :D I will be there ASAP. Be ready. xx

The messages go from the day I join school to three days ago, the same thing really, no response from Harry though. That makes me happy. I find myself getting... jealous? He has a fuck phone. And a fucking thong. In his bag. All of his contacts are girls I find.
"Rina, what was on it" Pagen asks as she walks back in, phone in hand. Instead of speaking I throw the phone to her, she catches it and reads. She looks up later and shes biting her lip. "Now.. it doesn't really mean he's cheating it's just..."
"Yeah I know." I say back. She just comes over and wraps her arms around my shoulders as I stiffle a sob. I will not cry. We lay back and I switch the large flat screen on. We decide on none other than The notebook. Halfway through a romantic kiss the fuck-phone buzzes and I look down.
Cara:1
Hey, did I leave my thong at the gym yesterday? Do you have it? You know it's my favourite, so I need it back Styles!xox
That's it. I am fucking done. I give the phone to Pagen and continue watching the film. Hes cheating on me. I shouldn't jump to conclusions but he had been working out yesterday or so I thought and suddenly her thong appears in his gym bag and he knows its her favourite. I watch the movie without thinking of Harry. I want to go home but I still need to know they all got back okay. So I wait... and wait.... both of us end up in tears because of the ending and we hold eachother to prevent the sobs.








I hear noises from downstairs and Pagen and I jump out of the bed, we run down and see a limping Louis, Zayn and my dad. I scream and jump into their arms as Pagen holds my dad tight.
"See princess, told you we'd be back" Louis said holding me tight. Zayn then scoops me up and swings me around as the door flies open, almost hitting us. I don't even have to see Harry to know he's there. Zayn props me on my feet as Perrie flies down the stairs, Eleanour in tow, they jump and I watch as their boyfriends catch them with a smile on my face I turn to my dad.
"Daddy!" I jump and hug him.
"Hello angel, you good?" He asks.
"Yeah I am now, is everyone okay?" I ask.
"Yeah, yeah no one got killed, couple injured but only minorly."
"That's great. I'm proud of you all..." I say and turn to the steps, I dodge past Pagen who is running at Niall who is grinning broadly at her, and grin up at Liam.
"Well done tonight!" I say and walk briskly past. I keep replaying the fucking text in my head with every step or so I leap up. I slam the door to Harry's bedroom and lay down, switching the lamp off. For about thirty seconds I'm alone until the door flies open and the lamp is switched on.
"Don't I get a hello?" Harry asks.
"Hello." I say back, sarcasm dripping in my voice.
"What's the matter-"
"Why don't you ask Laura, or in that fact Cara, she by the way needs her favourite thong back." I laugh and sit up, ripping off the oversized shirt of Harry's I had on, my hairband lays in between his pillow and he looks at me. His face reddening with what I presume is anger but I dont care.
"Who the fuck was in the bed." He growls.
"Okay so it's fine for you to cheat but you know I can't be in bed with anyone else no?" I lay back down, hairband on my wrist and he flips me over. "Get off" I stand up and move back. Him still on the other side of the bed.
"Tell me who the fuck was in my bed." He says slower, calmer.
"His name was..." I begin watching as Harry's face contorts. "It was oh yeah, Pagen, you paranoid fucking bastard. It was Pagen." I say and walk to my bag to grab my clothes, I can go home now.
"I just fucking wanted to know who was in my bed!" He roars. Game on psycho.
"WHY DO YOU NEED TO BE SO FUCKING PARANOID. ITS NOT LIKE I AM THE ONE WITH A FUCK-PHONE OR ANYTHING." I shout and he is clearly taken aback, I turn in my jeans and my bra and watch him clench and un-clench his fists.
"You. Are. Mine." He says taking a step towards me.
"Did you say that to Cara to, before or after you fucked her? Was it good Harry? Was it worth losing this" I motion between us and he looks... hurt?
"You think I cheated on you. Really Marina?" He says
"No not at all, girls thongs can just appear at random for sure. I'm sure if it was some guys boxers it would be a whole differen-"
"Are you jealous?" He cuts me off.
"What no.." I say back. liar.
"So you don't want to know then how she works her mouth around me, her body on mine." He whispers and I choke on a sob. "Which by the way stopped the first time we fucking kissed" He added in. "She goes to the same gym and changed her clothes, I saw that she had left it there and decided I would just give it back to her." He shrugs. "You don't ever need to be jealous baby" He whispers and sits on the bed. He puts his elbows on his knees and looks up at me "I cant believe you dont trust me."
"Harry its been like a week. Of course I dont think you dont desire her anymore, you just admitted how good she was-" I dont realise I'm walking forward until I stand in front of him.
"You are better. You are the best." He whispers and tugs me forward by putting his hands in the front of my jeans and pulling, he grabs my hips and stands. "Let me show you. Let me show you can trust me... let me show you how much I love you. And that I will never be so attracted to any woman other than the beautiful one standing infront of me." He looks down and kisses my nose. "MOVIE NIGHT!" He shouts and in come Niall and Pagen.

Notes

Okay so tomorrow I am going to London for the first time ever, my cousin and sister are going and I will be in the same city as One direction for the day.... okay calm, so i wont be updating! Sorry guys, love you all! xxx