Promises were meant to be broken.

I slowly made my way down the staircase in a daze, leaning on the wall for support as a fumbled down.
"Breathe, Zayn, breathe." i thought to myself, but thinking something and doing it are two different things. I knew ignoring Sammy was a bad decision but I would of never it was this bad.

"Zayn, sweety are you staying for dinner?" Mrs.Reed asked as she left the kitchen."Zayn?" she was now in front of me, consern clearly on her face as she cupped my face in her hands.

"Why didn't you tell me?" I whispered, pain obviously in my voice.
"Tyler told you, didn't he?" I nodded. " I didn't want you to feel guilty about anything. Honestly I was hoping you would never find out."

"Wh-Wh-ere is h-he b-uried?" I blurted out. She nodded quickly, grabbing a pen & paper, scribbling the address down. I took it from her with my trembling hands and began to head to my car.

" ZAYN, WAIT!" I heard Sammy yell. I turned around. " Let me drive. Please." she begged. I looked down at my shaking body and let out a soft whimper as I nodded, handing her my keys.

We drove in silence as Sammy caressed my hand with hers. I knew she was only doing this to calm my hyperactive breathing but I couldn't help myself to melt to her touch. We soon pulled up to the cemetery and her hand left my as we got out of the car, leaving me even more empty. She guided me to a angel shaped cemetery that read " Forget that I'm not going to be in your future. Forget I'm not in your presence but please don't forget the past moments we shared together. " I fell to my knees in an uncontrollable sob. The tears wouldn't stop and it only got worse as I began to shake and cry louder.

"I'M SO SORRY SAMMY! I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU! I NEVER MEANT FOR THIS TO HAPPEN!" I cried, apologizing in a speech of muttered worthless words. I felt her wrapped her arms around me, and rubbed my arms smoothly. It soon began to rain, but I didn't care because this is my goodbye. My goodbye to my best friend who I couldn't protect. I deserve the pain Im feeling, I deserved the pain of a broken heart but Sammy never deserved any of it. I was going to make it up to her, somehow I was going to make up for breaking her heart, for telling her meaningless promises, for not being there when Johan wasn't.

I was going to make her mine again. Whatever it takes, she will be mine again, and I know Johan would want us to be happy together. Right?

Notes

I'm soooo sorry. This chapter just sucks. Ugh I promise the next one will be better. So again I'm soooo sorry!