Dark Side (Harry Styles) HOLD

Lux had just finished washing her face free of tears for the second time that night when there was a knock on her door.

She knew instantly that it wasn't Harry because he would have barged right in with no regards for her privacy. She tightened her ponytail as she left the bathroom, dragging herself to the bedroom door and swinging it open.

Zayn.

“Hey...” Her eyebrows shot up in surprise, her head tilting slightly.

“Hi.” He said quietly, not quite meeting her eyes. “Erm.. have you seen Harry?”

Her stomach lurched. Him. “Downstairs is where I left him. Dunno where he is now.”

“Ok.” He whispered, turning to walk away quickly. Lux jutted out her hand and grabbed his arm, tugging him back slowly. He kept his face downward, his eyes strictly on the floor.

“Hey, hey..” She bent slightly and looked up to see his face. “Is everything okay?”

“Umm..” He let out, his voice shaking slightly. “Yeah. Yeah, I'm cool.”

“No.. you aren't. What's going on, Zayn?” She pressed, moving her free hand to grab onto his other arm. She pulled him closer, still trying to get a look into those gorgeous eyes of his.

“Nah, she just..” He shook his head, “cheated on me. My girlfriend, she.. she cheated.”

“Fucking hell.” Lux whispered, clenching her jaw, releasing his arms and leaning against the door frame. He looked up at her then, looking quite like a lost puppy dog with his hair down and flopped over his forehead. It made him look younger almost, sweet and cute. She wanted to cuddle him.

“Who is she? I'll kill her. You want me to punch her for you? I don't mind going to jail, Z. I'll do it, I swear I will. Oh! I could punch her in both of her eyes and when she can't see from the pain, you can kick her!” She offered up, her eyes widening like a kids' in a candy shop.

Zayn's eyes widened as she talked, but a smile grew on his face as well, so wide that his cheeks began to hurt. He looked at the hopeful, excited look on her face as she waited for his answer, and he started to laugh. She was serious! Lux was actually offering to beat up his ex for him, and he knew that if he said yes, she would hunt her down and go through with it! He laughed even harder at the image.

“Oh babe..” He grinned, shaking his head. “Thank you, but no, that won't be necessary.”

“Are you sure? I have a mean right hook.” She said, raising her fist to show him. He grabbed onto her clenched hand softly, lowering it back down as he slowly smiled.

“I'm sure..” He whispered, staring at her with a light in his eyes that she knew too well.

Lux smiled back, looking down at her hand that was still being held down by his.

This was exactly what they both needed, but inviting Zayn into her room.... it would be crossing a line that neither of them should even get close to.

“Do you want to... come in?” She asked slowly, gesturing to her empty room.

“No Sara?” He asked, peeking in and looking around carefully.

“She's with Niall.” Lux wiggled her eyebrows, smirking.

“Atta boy!” He murmured, smiling as well as he nodded. “What about, erm.. Harry?”


“Oh.” She sighed at the sound of his name. “He's downstairs, like I said.”

“No, I meant.. you and him had a thing going last I checked. You're off limits to me..”

Lux shrugged, “Yeah, well.. you don't have to worry about that anymore. Me and....well, it's never going to happen. He told me I was just convenient and that us being together was never a possibility in his mind because he lives in another country. So, there's that.”

His eyebrows pulled together as she spoke, and he looked as if he didn't believe her.

“That doesn't sound like Haz..”

“Really? Because him saying cruel things and trying to take them back is all I've know.”

Zayn watched her for a long moment, saw the pain in her eyes and the way she had her arms folded across her chest, like she was holding herself together. It wasn't until a tear fell from her eye and down onto her shirt that he knew without a doubt that she was telling the truth. She turned away from him and into her room, wiping her cheek quickly and trying to force a smile.

“Sorry.” She mumbled, shaking her head as she sat down on her bed. He stepped inside slowly, kicking the door shut behind him and moving to stand in front of her.

“I didn't ask you to come in here to do anything with you, Zayn. You already told me you weren't interested in risking your friendship with him.. and I respect that. I just thought you might want to talk.”

He nodded slowly, sitting down next to her, keeping a few inches of space between them.

“It's not you that I don't trust.” He mumbled, staring down at his hands.

“I wouldn't let you do anything..” She tried to say, but her voice broke slightly and she laughed nervously in embarrassment.

“Yeah, bullshit.” He grinned over at her and she blushed, knowing that he caught her.

Lux sighed heavily and fell back onto her back, turning to look up at where he was seated on the edge still. She fiddled with the hem of her tank top, and her eyes automatically finding Harry's crumpled purple hoodie on the floor where she threw it.... and then stomped on it.

“Well,” She whispered, looking back up at her ceiling. “people make mistakes. We're fuck-ups.

What kind of life would this be if we didn't fuck-up sometimes?”

“Yeah, but is it okay to fuck-up when you know you're not supposed to? I think its different when you fuck-up accidentally rather than on purpose. Like say, for revenge.” He quirked an eyebrow at her, falling back onto the bed next to her. They both turned their heads slightly to look at one another.

“Z..” She sighed, “I would never kiss you, or do anything else with you, for revenge. Yes, I'm pissed off at.. Harry.. right now, but I've wanted to kiss you a lot longer than I've wanted to kiss him. I don't know why that's so scandalous, why do I have to like only one of you?

Haven't you ever felt something for two girls at once? It's not exactly admirable, but it's not something I control either.”

“Erm, hello... I liked you while I was still with my ex.” He laughed, “I know what you're talking about, Lux, but... you like one of us more than the other. That's the big deal here.”

“Yeah, but he's making it near impossible to like him. It's almost like he doesn't want me to feel anything toward him, so I'm starting to not feel anything for him. If that's how he wants it, then what can I do? I can't talk him into liking me back, and all this time you've been here, liking me no matter what, and it just feels so... easy with you.” She looked over into his eyes, which were staring back. Little pools of hazel, dreamy and soft and shining.

“I'm not asking you for anything, Zayn. You know I wouldn't do that.” Lux shrugged one shoulder, ready to turn away from him once again, but he pressed his palm against her warm cheek, stopping her from moving. He ran his thumb over her lips softly, smiling lightly.

“I know.” He whispered, “That's why...”

His eyelids fell half-closed, his eyes darting down to look at her pursed lips.

“..I'm doing this..”

Zayn's lips were against hers while he whispered the last word, and then it was quiet. He was kissing her, and instead of freaking out, Lux felt soothed and calm. The way his lips touched hers, the way her hand found his, the way their legs entangled - she was right, it was easy.





And it was exactly what they both needed.

Notes

So I think this might be iti for tonight since I still have to clean up my room because well.... it's terrifying. That's it. So goodnight for now and tomorrow I will have another update for you! NIght.xx