Forever Young
I guess you don't if you don't trust me.
Carly’s POV
I brushed off the kiss and continued to Harry’s room. He was facing away from the door, his breathing was even and he was snoring softly. I smiled and climbed into bed next to him. He snaked his arm around my waist after I turned the light off and got comfortable.
“Carly?” He mumbled from behind me.
“Yes?” My heartbeat sped up.
“I was going to say goodnight but are you okay?” He seemed concerned.
“Yea.” I lied hoping he would drop it.
“You know you can tell me anything right?” He asked sitting up.
“I know…” I pulled the blanket up to cover my shoulder.
“What aren’t you telling me?” I knew he wasn’t buying my lie so I sat up too.
“Can you promise not to be mad?” I asked seeing him nod. “Zayn kissed me just a minute ago; it meant nothing. I’m sure it was an accident, he probably thought I was Perrie.” His expression changed.
“Zayn, your EX, just kissed you and it meant nothing? It may have meant nothing to you but I’m sure it meant something to him.” He clenched his jaw, threw the blankets back and stood up. “I knew he was up to something with those tickets…” He kept ranting but I stopped listening as tears welled in my eyes.
“I’m sorry.” I mumbled when he was finally done talking.
He stopped pacing the room and walked over to sit next to me. I didn’t look at him as I fought the tears.
“No, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t be mad, I said I wouldn’t be mad. It’s just…he’s your ex, there will always be competition with him for me. And you know that I’m protective.” He was rambling as he lightly grabbed my hands. “I just don’t want you to choose him over me again.”
“You actually think there’s part of me that wants to be with him? Well, there isn't, not after everything that’s happened. And why would you think that? I’ve done nothing to make you not trust me but you don’t.” The fact that he didn’t trust me, infuriated me.
“I didn’t mean it like that…I just meant that I know that he’s sweet and not bad looking, I think he’s better looking than me so of course I think of him as a threat. You've picked him over me before..." He seemed upset too but I didn’t care.
“To me, you're way better looking but that’s beside the point. You don’t trust me.” I moved around him and stood up.
“I don’t trust you because you got with him when you knew I wanted you, how do I know you wont do it again?” He stood up and looked at me.
“I guess you don’t if you don’t trust me.” I shrugged grabbing my phone. “Good night Harry.” I walked to the door and walked out.
(The Next Morning)
“You okay?” Haelo asked as I played with my cereal at the table.
“Huh?” I looked at her in pure confusion. “Yea.”
“Are you sure? We heard what happened last night.” Chelsea was never subtle about anything.
“Was I right to tell him? Or should I have lied?” I caved.
“You were right, if you didn’t tell him and he found out he definitely wouldn’t trust you.” Haelo reached over and touched my hand.
“Well, he already doesn’t trust you so I don’t know.” Chelsea shrugged.
“Can you not be an ass right now?” Haelo snapped at her and then looked at me. “You did the right thing.”
I nodded and stood up to take care of my now soggy bowl of cereal. The sink was clear so I decided to just wash the bowl and spoon and put them away. A door opened behind me and my heart raced, with both nervousness and anger.
“Good morning.” A shy voice said as his footsteps entered the kitchen.
“Morning.” They both mumbled.
“Good morning.” I turned around and saw Zayn standing with an All Time Low ‘Boner’ shirt. “Nice shirt.”
“Oh, thanks.” He chuckled and sat next to Chelsea. “I’m Zayn.”
“Chelsea.” She mumbled before giving me a questioning look.
“I’m Haelo.” She smiled politely at him.
“Where is everyone? It’s almost 10:00 and we have guests and plans.” Zayn looked around and then at me.
“Liam, Louis and El went to get everyone coffee, Niall’s asleep and I have no idea about Harry.” I shrugged and leaned my back against the counter.
“Oh…I guess I’ll go wake Niall up and check on Harry.” He stood up awkwardly and headed toward the doorway.
“I’ll go check on Harry.” I added quickly before I followed him out of the kitchen.
“Carly, I’m sorry for kissing you. I don’t know what came over me, I guess I was too asleep to realize that you weren’t Perrie.” He stood in front of me before we got to the hallway.
“It’s fine, I totally understand.” I wasn’t even lying when I said that.
“What happened between you and Harry?” He asked cautiously.
“I went to bed and he asked if I was okay and wouldn’t drop it so I told him. He doesn’t trust me so I left the room and haven't talked to him.” I shrugged looking at my feet.
“I’m sorry…” He sounded genuine.
“It’s okay, it isn't your fault he doesn’t trust me. I’m sorry I told him.” I started to walk around him but he stood in my way.
“I’m still here if you need to talk.” He mumbled before letting me pass him.
I nodded and walked to Harry’s door. Knocking felt so wrong but I did it anyway. Rustling came from the other side of the door.
“Yea, come in.” His voice was raspy like I’d just woken him up.
I opened the door slowly and stepped in. He was lying on his back in the bed with his phone in his hand and had no shirt on.
“It’s almost 11:00 and we’re leaving around 2:00 or 3:00.” I said it quickly as my eyes scanned the room trying to keep my eyes off of him.
“Okay…” He mumbled sitting up. “I’m sorry Carly. I didn’t mean for it to come out like that, I do trust you.”
“I’m not ready to forgive you yet.” I turned back to the door and walked out.
The girls were still at the table and now everyone, besides Harry of course, was sitting with them. They were all laughing and talking when I walked in.
“Good morning gorgeous.” Liam smiled at me and held up a cup of coffee for me.
“Good morning handsome.” I took the coffee and sat down between him and Niall.
“So, babes, I have something to tell you…” I looked at them as everyone’s laughter stopped. “Well, actually I have something to tell everyone besides Zayn. We are going to the last concert of the Spring Fever Tour!”
“Are you serious?!” Haelo almost yelled while Chelsea’s eyes filled with tears and smile covered her face.
“Yea.” I looked at Zayn and watched him nod too.
“What bands?” Louis asked.
“Pierce the Veil, All Time Low, Mayday Parade and You Me At Six.” Zayn listed them off.
“Sweet! I actually really like their music.” Louis cheered.
“Us too.” I smiled.
“So, we need to leave around 3:00.” Zayn looked down at his phone. “Is everyone okay with that?”
“Yup.” Everyone mumbled and went on talking.
I brushed off the kiss and continued to Harry’s room. He was facing away from the door, his breathing was even and he was snoring softly. I smiled and climbed into bed next to him. He snaked his arm around my waist after I turned the light off and got comfortable.
“Carly?” He mumbled from behind me.
“Yes?” My heartbeat sped up.
“I was going to say goodnight but are you okay?” He seemed concerned.
“Yea.” I lied hoping he would drop it.
“You know you can tell me anything right?” He asked sitting up.
“I know…” I pulled the blanket up to cover my shoulder.
“What aren’t you telling me?” I knew he wasn’t buying my lie so I sat up too.
“Can you promise not to be mad?” I asked seeing him nod. “Zayn kissed me just a minute ago; it meant nothing. I’m sure it was an accident, he probably thought I was Perrie.” His expression changed.
“Zayn, your EX, just kissed you and it meant nothing? It may have meant nothing to you but I’m sure it meant something to him.” He clenched his jaw, threw the blankets back and stood up. “I knew he was up to something with those tickets…” He kept ranting but I stopped listening as tears welled in my eyes.
“I’m sorry.” I mumbled when he was finally done talking.
He stopped pacing the room and walked over to sit next to me. I didn’t look at him as I fought the tears.
“No, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t be mad, I said I wouldn’t be mad. It’s just…he’s your ex, there will always be competition with him for me. And you know that I’m protective.” He was rambling as he lightly grabbed my hands. “I just don’t want you to choose him over me again.”
“You actually think there’s part of me that wants to be with him? Well, there isn't, not after everything that’s happened. And why would you think that? I’ve done nothing to make you not trust me but you don’t.” The fact that he didn’t trust me, infuriated me.
“I didn’t mean it like that…I just meant that I know that he’s sweet and not bad looking, I think he’s better looking than me so of course I think of him as a threat. You've picked him over me before..." He seemed upset too but I didn’t care.
“To me, you're way better looking but that’s beside the point. You don’t trust me.” I moved around him and stood up.
“I don’t trust you because you got with him when you knew I wanted you, how do I know you wont do it again?” He stood up and looked at me.
“I guess you don’t if you don’t trust me.” I shrugged grabbing my phone. “Good night Harry.” I walked to the door and walked out.
(The Next Morning)
“You okay?” Haelo asked as I played with my cereal at the table.
“Huh?” I looked at her in pure confusion. “Yea.”
“Are you sure? We heard what happened last night.” Chelsea was never subtle about anything.
“Was I right to tell him? Or should I have lied?” I caved.
“You were right, if you didn’t tell him and he found out he definitely wouldn’t trust you.” Haelo reached over and touched my hand.
“Well, he already doesn’t trust you so I don’t know.” Chelsea shrugged.
“Can you not be an ass right now?” Haelo snapped at her and then looked at me. “You did the right thing.”
I nodded and stood up to take care of my now soggy bowl of cereal. The sink was clear so I decided to just wash the bowl and spoon and put them away. A door opened behind me and my heart raced, with both nervousness and anger.
“Good morning.” A shy voice said as his footsteps entered the kitchen.
“Morning.” They both mumbled.
“Good morning.” I turned around and saw Zayn standing with an All Time Low ‘Boner’ shirt. “Nice shirt.”
“Oh, thanks.” He chuckled and sat next to Chelsea. “I’m Zayn.”
“Chelsea.” She mumbled before giving me a questioning look.
“I’m Haelo.” She smiled politely at him.
“Where is everyone? It’s almost 10:00 and we have guests and plans.” Zayn looked around and then at me.
“Liam, Louis and El went to get everyone coffee, Niall’s asleep and I have no idea about Harry.” I shrugged and leaned my back against the counter.
“Oh…I guess I’ll go wake Niall up and check on Harry.” He stood up awkwardly and headed toward the doorway.
“I’ll go check on Harry.” I added quickly before I followed him out of the kitchen.
“Carly, I’m sorry for kissing you. I don’t know what came over me, I guess I was too asleep to realize that you weren’t Perrie.” He stood in front of me before we got to the hallway.
“It’s fine, I totally understand.” I wasn’t even lying when I said that.
“What happened between you and Harry?” He asked cautiously.
“I went to bed and he asked if I was okay and wouldn’t drop it so I told him. He doesn’t trust me so I left the room and haven't talked to him.” I shrugged looking at my feet.
“I’m sorry…” He sounded genuine.
“It’s okay, it isn't your fault he doesn’t trust me. I’m sorry I told him.” I started to walk around him but he stood in my way.
“I’m still here if you need to talk.” He mumbled before letting me pass him.
I nodded and walked to Harry’s door. Knocking felt so wrong but I did it anyway. Rustling came from the other side of the door.
“Yea, come in.” His voice was raspy like I’d just woken him up.
I opened the door slowly and stepped in. He was lying on his back in the bed with his phone in his hand and had no shirt on.
“It’s almost 11:00 and we’re leaving around 2:00 or 3:00.” I said it quickly as my eyes scanned the room trying to keep my eyes off of him.
“Okay…” He mumbled sitting up. “I’m sorry Carly. I didn’t mean for it to come out like that, I do trust you.”
“I’m not ready to forgive you yet.” I turned back to the door and walked out.
The girls were still at the table and now everyone, besides Harry of course, was sitting with them. They were all laughing and talking when I walked in.
“Good morning gorgeous.” Liam smiled at me and held up a cup of coffee for me.
“Good morning handsome.” I took the coffee and sat down between him and Niall.
“So, babes, I have something to tell you…” I looked at them as everyone’s laughter stopped. “Well, actually I have something to tell everyone besides Zayn. We are going to the last concert of the Spring Fever Tour!”
“Are you serious?!” Haelo almost yelled while Chelsea’s eyes filled with tears and smile covered her face.
“Yea.” I looked at Zayn and watched him nod too.
“What bands?” Louis asked.
“Pierce the Veil, All Time Low, Mayday Parade and You Me At Six.” Zayn listed them off.
“Sweet! I actually really like their music.” Louis cheered.
“Us too.” I smiled.
“So, we need to leave around 3:00.” Zayn looked down at his phone. “Is everyone okay with that?”
“Yup.” Everyone mumbled and went on talking.
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