Tearing Me Apart *On Hold*

Kaitlynn’s POV

Zayn has been really clinging onto me ever since we met up, barely giving me any space when Justin and I were talking. I don’t know what’s wrong with him, but it needs to stop. Whatever it is.


“Can we talk in private?” I asked Zayn. Feeling the need to get this out of my chest and find out why he’s being so clingy.


“Sure.” He said, grabbing my hand and leading me somewhere more private, which left Perrie and Justin on their own. Gosh, I hope nothing happened between two. He slowed down and came to a halt right near the bathrooms. “What’s up?”


I stared into his deep hazel eyes. How could I tell him without sounding too obvious that I wanted him to back off some?




I sighed. “Zayn, why are you being extremely clingy?”


He chuckled. “Me? Being clingy? Never.”


I gave him that “tell me the truth” look. He just smiled down at me and played with my braid. I moved all my weight on to one leg.


“Zayn, I’m not playing. Tell me.” I yelled.


He sighed and pushed me up against a wall. “I want you. I don’t like seeing you with Justin. Do you remember who your first was?”


I gulped. He wanted me? But he has Perrie. His last sentence stuck on to me like a bird. Why does he want me to remember who my first time was with?


I nodded, still not understanding what he was getting at.


“Tell me who your first was. First, middle, and last name.” He growled in my ear. My hands started sweating and my head started pounding. My heart rate rising from being so close to him. “Tell me now.”


“Zayn Javadd Malik.” I whimpered. My hands tried pushing him off, but he put himself onto me more.


“Describe it.” He demanded.


Why was he doing this to me? I never did anything to him, and I never saw this side of him. Fuck, now I have to relive that day I had with him. It wasn’t bad, but I didn’t want to ever bring it up again.


“You pushed me onto your king size bed and started kissing my neck, occasionally biting. I was a moaning mess, while I moved my hands down to your crotch. I rubbed it a little and you became hard on the spot. You moaned into my neck and removed my pants and underwear. Your finger found it’s way to my area and started rubbing my clit, going in circles. You repeatedly did this until you pushed your fingers inside of me, which made me squeal.” I pause to catch my breath. “You stretched me out, then started pumping your fingers inside of me. It felt so good. Next, you pulled out. Brought your member to my face and told me to suck.”



I stopped and looked at him. His eyes closed and his hands rubbing me through my leggings. Oh gosh, he allowed himself to get in the mood.


“Keep going.” He urged for me to go on, but why should I?


“Zayn, I think it’s best if we just go back. We don’t want them to get suspicious. And I don’t want Perrie getting mad at me, thinking we are actually doing it.” I said, pushing him off of me.


He nodded and led me back to where Justin and Perrie were. Perrie gave me a dirty look and walked up to Zayn. Justin came up to me. His lips grazed over mine.

“I missed you.” He mumbled into the kiss. I smiled, knowing I was safe in his arms, safe from that talk I just had with Zayn. “Don’t ever leave me with that bitch again. She’s so damn annoying complaining about your friendship with Zayn. You guys have an innocent friendship.”

I laughed. He hates her too, which is a good thing. And that discussion between me and Zayn is never to be spoken of again.


Questions and Answers
Kaitlynn Lindberg
Q: How did you react when you found out Zayn was with Perrie?
A: Tbh, I supported them because my feelings for Zayn didn’t kick in until later in life, but you will learn more about that later.

Q: How did you react when Zayn and perrie were engaged?
A: I was kind of devastated, but happy at the same time. I was happy for him and her, but I knew she hated me.


Zayn Malik
Q:What's up with your feelings?
A: I can’t tell you. I really don't know.

Q:Who do u like/love more?
A: I really don’t know at the moment.

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