His Bandmate

I hear the nagging ringtone of my phone as I get pulled from deep sleep. I reach over to my phone on the nightstand and turn it off. I turn back and cuddle into the warm body beside me. This feels nice. I could wake up like this all the time. Louis arm squeezes me tighter against his body. He groan in sleepiness.

“It's too early.” His voice is low and raspy with sleep. I smile, remembering that voice from those few mornings in Philadelphia when I used to sneak into his room.

“It's not that early.” I say and move my head into the crack of his neck, enjoying the smell of him. I don't want to leave this bed, it's so cosy and wonderful. I feel like we've been in our own little bubble for the last day and I don't want to burst the bubble.

“It's before noon, that's too early.” He complains. I snicker a little and run my hand aimlessly over his chest. He smells so good. A bottle of Louis wouldn't be too bad.

“Well, you don't actually have to go to work.” I say and sigh. I should get up. Louis moves his body so we are front to front and nestle his head in my neck. His mouth starts to give me small kisses down my throat. It feels so nice. When I feel his tongue run over my skin, I moan.

“Please don't.” I plead.

“Why?” He asks, his lips still against my skin.

“Because I will never get out of this bed if you do.” I confess and hate myself for saying it, because I really don't want him to stop. My body is burning with desire. He groans before pulling back and laying his head down on the pillow, looking very disappointed. He's pouting and is looking very cute. I smile and give him a peck in the lips before I get out of bed, just in time before he could take hold of me. How wonderful isn't this in the morning? I'd like to have this lightly banter every morning please. He looks at me with narrow eyes as I walk over to the drawer and pull a pair of panties out and a bra.

I need to shower after last night, or afternoon rather. I smile as I walk into the bathroom. I can't believe this is happening, I feel like skipping into the bathroom instead of just walking.

“Can I join?” Louis shouts just as I'm about to close the door.

“No!” I shout back, knowing that I will never leave the shower if he does, not in time anyway. I hear his chuckles as I close the door. The smile on my face will definitely hurt my cheeks soon.

I feel butterflies in my stomach and I feel like I can breath for the first time in forever. Isn't that weird? I didn't realize how much I missed this, having someone to cuddle with, someone to banter with and someone to tell your inner most secrets to. Yesterdays revelation is still in the pile to think about, because I haven't had time to process it yet. He confessed something huge for me and I feel like we hit a milestone of some sort by that, I just don't know what. I'm really grateful and honored that he felt like he could trust me with it and it makes me conscious of the fact that he's hurt and very vulnerable. I feel like I have to be careful when it comes to him, not push too much.

This is probably good, us getting to know each other without everyone else butting in. We need to figure out what we are and what we're doing. It's feels right.

I step out of the shower, quickly drying and putting my underwear on, realizing that I didn't bring any clothes in the bathroom with me. I dry my hair off and brush it before going out of the bathroom and in to the bedroom again. I see the bed empty and frown, looking around the room but it's empty. For a second my heart sinks to the floor, but then I hear some rattling in the kitchen and I sigh. Wow, this is going to get some getting used to. I pick out a pair of grey jeans and a white t-shirt with a black stroke from one shoulder down to the hip.

I follow the noise to the kitchen and stop in the doorway when I see Louis by the stove. I smile when he hops back and yelp as he gets frying splashed onto his bare stomach. I start to snicker and he looks up shocked at me.

“Eh, hi.” He say, looking a little shy. So damn cute. “I found some pancake mix in your cabinet and mixed it with water. I don't know how it's going to taste, but I thought I'd try. Maybe it's good.” He ramble, clearly unsure of himself. I don't know why and have never seen this side of him, but it's very sweet and reminds me of when he came over with food when I thought I'd might be pregnant.

I walk over and wrap my arms around his torso from behind, resting my cheek against his shoulder blade. I feel him relax a little.

“It's probably awesome.” I say and kiss his shoulder before pulling away and setting the table. I sit down when I'm done and soon he brings the pancakes over. They look basically the same as if they had been made with milk. I smile as Louis sits down. This it pretty neat. Having him here in the morning, making me pancakes. I think I'll keep him. I bite my lip as that thought comes through my head, to keep from snickering.

“What?” Louis ask, looking at me with a light frown, though he's smiling.

“This is nice.” I say and take a bite of the pancakes. They taste mostly the same, not as rich in flavor as they usually are, but good enough. Louis smiles and take a big bite himself, nodding in agreement.

“So how long do you work today?” He ask and I almost snicker at the thought about us sitting at the breakfast table having such a normal conversation. It's crazy and if you'd asked me a month ago or even a week ago, I would have laughed in your face, never thinking we would be sitting like this.

“I end at five.” I take a sip of the water we're drinking to the pancakes, I really should go to the store. “What are you doing today?” I wonder and put my fork down as I've taken the last peace of pancake.

“I think we're doing some studio stuff.” He say and fill his mouth with a big bite.

“Sounds fun.”

When he's finished I pick up our plates and put them in the sink. I look at the time and realize that I have to go soon, it's almost nine thirty. We walk into the bedroom and Louis picks up his t-shirt and put it on while I put on socks and a sweater. It's a bit quiet and I can't tell if it's a weird silence or not. I'm not sure of what I should say.

We walk out of the bedroom and into the hall still in silence. I'm starting to questioning everything. Was this just a one time thing? Do he regret it now? Now that a new day has come, maybe he realize that this isn't what he wants. The thought make me nervous and I frown, digging my teeth into my lip as I pull my sneakers on.

When I straighten up Louis is standing right in front of me, I've been too inside my head to notice him coming up. He pulls my lip with his thumb as his hand caresses my cheek. His eyes searches my eyes before he leans forward and presses his lips to mine and I once again melt. I stand frozen for a second before my hands finds hold of his shirt and take a great grasp of the material and pull him closer. He always tastes so good, his lips so soft yet hard with want.

I pull away, already breathless. We stay standing inches away from each other as we catch our breaths, just looking into each others eyes.

“Don't you need to go?” Louis whisper, the air coming from his mouth fanning over my face. I nod, my eyes never leaving his. “Well, I'll see you tonight?” He ask, raising his eyebrows in question, giving me a hopeful smile.

“Yeah?” I smile back. “You can buy food.” I say and lightly push him away and get my jacket down from the hanger, the smile permanent on my face by now.

“Sure.” He chuckles and before we walk out of the apartment he gives me another kiss, making my cheeks heat.

Me and Louis split outside of my apartment and I walked down the street to The Bakery. I thought a lot about what I should do. We said that we would keep this, whatever we are, to ourself. I'm not sure if I should, or could, do that to Lea. She already knows so much about Louis and me, which no other knows. I guess I should keep this from her since Louis can't tell anyone of his best friends, that's only fair.

Though as I step inside the bakery I realize that that's impossible, seeing that Lea's eyes open big when she sees the smile that I can't wipe of my face. I wish I could be a better actress, but I'm not and right now I feel too good to fake that I don't.

“Well, hello there.” Lea greets as I step behind the counter.

“Hi.” I say, diving into the back, putting away my jacket and getting a apron. I sigh before going back out to Lea, preparing for interrogation.

“What's with the huge smile?” Lea ask, her eyebrows raised to the roof.

“What, I can't smile now?” I ask, turning my face towards the clean dishes, putting it out in the counter. Making sure that I have something to do. I need my hands to work if I'm going to stand all her questions.

“Of course, I just know that there has to be a reason and I wanna know it.” She narrows her eyes at me and I roll mine. I love her, but she's very nosy.

“Maybe there is.” I say, very secretive. I know I'm going to tell her everything, but I need to have some fun seeing her dragging it out of me.

“Aww, come on!” She whine. I smile even wider, but give in. I feel like I'm going to burst if I don't tell her.

“Okay, fine. So, when I got home yesterday, only a couple of minutes after, Louis came over.” I say and she raises her eyebrows, apparently not expecting that.

“Oh?” She presses me to continue.

“Yeah, so we didn't talk.” I say opening my eyes, telling her without using words and she gets it. “And then we did talk and I guess we're doing it. You know of course we're doing it, but I mean we're...eh...not in a relationship, but we're ganging out?” I say, feeling stupid for not knowing what to call it. “But we're not really telling anyone, so you don't know about it.” I say and point at her. She looks a little shocked.

“Wow! So, your kind of in a secret relationship with him?” She asks, looking stunned. I shrug.

“We just want to make sure this is real and what we want before we drag everyone else into it. I think it might hurt a person or two.” I say and look a little sad at her. I really don't want to hurt Harry, god! She nods.

“I get it. But shit, your like dating Louis Tomlinson!” She say a little too loud.

“Shh!” I shush her and look around us but no one seems to have reacted to her statement. “You're not suppose to know anything about it.” I remind her and she holds her hands up.

“Okay, sorry! I won't tell anyone.” She say and I believe her. “But, you're happy?” She asks and I smile big.

“Yeah, kinda can't keep this from my face.” I say pointing at my smile and she snickers.

“I love seeing you like this, it makes me so happy.” She say and hug me. We get interrupted by a customer and Lea goes over to help the lady out as I continues with the dishes. I sigh in relief, it feels good to tell Lea. Mostly because it feels real now that I've said it out loud.

The day drags of way to slow and I know that it's only because I'm suppose to see Louis later. I can't wait. Hope it isn't weird or anything. A part of me is scared that he will change his mind and go back to being an ass. I really, really hope not.

When I get home it doesn't take long before my phone beeps with a message. I look at the phone and smiles wide when I see that it's from Louis.

From Louis
Hi! Sorry, but the guys want to hang out tonight and I didn't have a good enough excuse to use to not hang out. But I think their going to invite you? So at least I'll see you. Even though it's going to be with the others...

I feel my chest fall a little from the message. I'm not going to see him. Well, I might if Harry calls and if I decide to go. This will be so weird though.

I don't get to think about it too long before my phone vibrates and I see Harry's name flash on the phone.

“Hi Robin.” I answer.

“Robin?” He sounds confused, making me snicker a little.

“Yeah, I wanna be batman!” I say and sit down on my couch. That makes him chuckle.

“No way! I'm batman.” He say and I pout.

“Then I'm gonna be spiderman.” I say and smack my lips. He laughs loud.

“Sure thing. Hey, what are you doing? Sitting on the ceiling?” He asks and I snicker.

“No, I made a little spiderweb nest that I'm laying on.” I say and is more amused by this conversation than I should be.

“Haha, sounds nice. Wanna come over? We're hanging out at Liam's.” Harry ask and I smile, the thought that he instantly wants so ask me to come is adorable. Should I go though? It will most definitely be awkward with Louis. Though isn't this what we agreed on?

“Sure. I just have to change clothes.” I agree. I'm not going to stop being with friends just because me and Louis have complicated things. We'll find some strange way to get through this. And beside, I really want to see him, even if it's just across the room.

“Okay. I'll pick you up.” Harry says and I frown.

“When will you stop this nonsense? You don't have to pick me up. I can get there myself.” I say a little irritated. I know he does it from kindness, but it's insane of him to do it since we're going to be in the same house as he is.

“When I die. So shut up!” He say, sounding too cocky. “I'll see you soon.” He hangs up the phone and I groan and shake my head. He's insane. Utterly insane.

I only get time to change clothes and freshen up before he texts me that he's outside. I throw my jacket on before going out into the cold air and jump into the black car waiting outside.

“Hi idiot.” I say as I close the door, reaching for the seatbelt.

“Why I'm I an idiot?” He ask, looking too hurt, making me feel a little guilty.

“Because you won't let me get the bus to your place.” I say and smile at him, cushioning the punch. He rolls his eyes and pull the car out on the street.

“Well, in that case I'm gonna be an idiot if it keeps you safe.” He states and I shake my head at this irrational man.

“So, was it fun today?” I ask and look out the window.

“What are you referring to?” He asks and when I look over at him he has a frown on his face. I remember that I'm not suppose to know what he has done today, because I didn't talk to him yesterday. Shit! I feel my cheeks flush and I look out my window.

“Whatever you were doing.” I say, my voice a little lower but I try to sound unchanged. He chuckles and I relax.

“Well, yeah. We actually had fun, we were in the studio. We've recorded as really good song. I like it really much.” He say and I breath in relief.

“That sounds good. So when can I hear this masterpiece?” I ask, trying to shake the close call off.

“You'll hear it soon, I promise.” He say and we drive through the gate to their parking garage. I feel my pulse rise a little. Will Louis already be there? How will we act towards each other? Oh I should have called him and asked.

We step into the apartment of Liam and I breath a little relief when I don't see Louis inside, it's only Liam and Niall.

“Hey Juli. How are you?” Liam ask and kiss me on the cheek.

“I'm good, how are you?” I smile at him before going over to Niall.

“Very good.” Liam say before sitting down on one of the couches.

“Hi.” I say to Niall and he hugs me tight before kissing my cheek.

“Hello lovely.” He say and we sit down on the couch closes to us. “What have you've been doing?” He ask, smiling sweetly at me.

“Well, not recorded the next hit song that's for sure!” I say and smile at them. “Are you guys happy about it?” I ask and that makes them go all in with the story about how they came up with the song. I can't keep from smiling as they look so cheerful when they talk about it.

Only a couple of minutes later do I hear Louis voice as he comes through the door with Zayn.

“No way, that did not happen!” I hear Zayn say in the doorway. I feel my heart start to beat faster in my chest and I swallow hard. I try acting normal, like I can breath like I normally would. It's hard though since my heart is trying to break through my chest.

“I promise you, he just flew out.” Louis says to Zayn as they come into view, everyone looks their way, seeing Zayn shake his head and I feel frozen in place.

“Hey.” Zayn says, looking around at everyone.

“Where the hell have you've been? Thought you were just going to change and then come back?” Liam ask them and Zayn shrugs.

“Zayn had to fix his hair.” Louis exclaim and chuckles. Zayn just rolls his eyes and comes towards me. I stand up to kiss cheeks with him before he goes over to sit down in one of the chairs. I haven't permitted myself to get eye contact with Louis yet, I've been discarding my eyes everywhere else. Though now I can't ignore it since he's walking over. He gives me a knowing look, but I can see that he's trying to not show too much emotion. He stops in front of me, puts one hand on my hip as he slowly kisses my cheek while his hand squeezes tight. I feel my cheek flush from the contact and look down as he lets go.

“Well, okay?” Harry exclaim, his eyes big and eyebrows raised. I can see the shock on his face. Usually Louis and I ignore each other when everyone else says hello, that's been normal for us I guess, or said a simple hello from across the room. I feel everyones eyes on us so I sit down again, feeling my knees a little weak.

“What? You wanted me to be nicer. This is not good enough for you?” Louis says, sounding exasperated.

“Okay. Chill!” Harry says trowing his hands up in the air. “God!” He frown at Louis and gives me an apologetic smile. I smile back and try to slow my breathing. This is all so weird. Louis walks over to sit on the couch beside Harry, opposite me. He locks eyes with me for a second before turning away and I can see the small smile tugging on his lips.

I take a deep breath. This feels like it's going to be a long night. I feel my phone vibrate in my pocket and pick it up.

From Louis
You smell so good.

I try to keep the smile inside, but it slips up and when I look up, he's smiling too.

Notes

Goood, I've missed writing about love! I get so happy and honestly fall in love a little when I write it. Do you like it? I'm in looove.

I'm going out of the country for a week, so I won't be able to update in a while. BUT I'm going to no other place than LONDON!! so I'm totally gonna come back with so much inspiration, I promise you! Too bad the guys aren't there now :(

Well...please leave me a lot of comments to read when I get back and I will be forever greatful.

Lots of love!!
xx.