It Never Ends

*illianna’s POV*

I got into the car, making it a point to lace my fingers through Louis’s right hand as he drove with his left hand.

I knew that Louis wouldn’t doubt my feelings for him, and I was certain that he also knew that I was not attracted to girls in that way.

But I just wanted to assure him that I was just as shocked about the kiss as he was.

“Oh man,” I muttered as we approached Niall’s house.

The street was crowded with cars and his front lawn was swarming with a bunch of people – families, mostly.

“I forgot he’s having a family party for his niece or something.” Louis said. “I was actually on my way to go and get you before everything happened.”

“The rest of the boys are here too.” I pointed out to Zayn, Liam, and Harry’s car.

If the boys were here, the girls obviously had to be here.

“It doesn’t matter. They’ll invite us in and probably feed us, too.” Louis said with a slight smile.

We got a few looks from the family as soon as we exited the car. One of the men standing in the grass saw us first.

He had a little boy sitting up on his shoulders while his left hand was holding onto the child’s leg and his right hand was holding a beer.

“You two a friend of Niall’s?” the man asked, a slight accent traceable in his voice.

“Is it that obvious?” Louis chuckled as he looked over us.

We were both dressed in the stereotypical soccer attire. Jerseys and training pants.

“Louis, illianna!” Mrs. Horan’s voice echoed through the neighborhood along with the music that was slightly audible from the backyard.

“To what do I owe this surprise?” she asked, giving us each a small hug as a greeting.

“Sorry for interrupting, we just needed to talk to Niall really quick,” I spoke up, gently placing my hand on her arm as I spoke.

She waved her hand in the air and rolled her eyes. “You’re not interrupting! Come on in, have some food from the backyard while I find Niall for you guys.”

Louis gave me a look as if to tell me, ‘I told you so.’ I gave him a small smile and an eye roll as I lead the way into the backyard.

When I saw the food, my mouth watered and I immediately went to grab a plate.

I headed for the sandwiches, but stopped one Mrs. Horan had already sent Niall our way.

“Hey guys! You made it!” Niall cheered.

He turned back to inform Zayn and the rest of the guys that we were here.

I saw that Elsa and Reyza were here, but there wasn’t any sign of Monse.

Louis and I chuckled a bit, but our light-hearted moods had quickly lifted as we remembered the reason for our visit.

“Niall, I…” I didn’t know what to say.

I knew that Niall had deep feelings for Monse. I was certain that he probably loved her.

Was it the right thing to be here, trying to tell Niall after Monse had just kissed me?

Maybe I needed to talk to her first…

“There’s no easy way to say this, man, but when I went to pick up illianna, Monse was at her house with …and she…” Louis couldn’t say it either.

He looked at me for a moment, begging me to help and so I finally decided to jump in and just say it.

“Niall, Monse kissed me.”

Niall stared at us for a moment, his smile still on his face as if he hadn’t heard us say anything.

“Okay, seriously, why are you guys here?” he asked, staring off with the smile still on his face. His eyes narrowed a bit as if he was growing angry or impatient.

“We’re serious, Niall. Monse kissed her. I went to her house and saw it all. She straight up came onto my girl.”

Hearing Louis call me his girl still managed to give me butterflies, even in the given situation.

Niall scoffed and rolled his eyes. “Yeah, okay,” he said through sarcasm.

“Niall!” Louis shouted.

Everyone around us turned to look at us, their conversations pausing to see why Louis was shouting.

I placed my hand on his arm to calm him down as the guys were starting to approach us with the girls tailing behind.

“We’re being fucking serious, here. We just thought you deserved to know since you’re fucking girlfriend kissed my girlfriend. But whatever man, fuck it. Don’t say we didn’t try to tell you.” Louis snapped.

Louis quickly turned around, but I hesitated for a moment so I could see Niall’s reaction.

His smile fell and embarrassment seemed to wash over him.

“Niall,” I said softly, reaching out to grab his hand.

He pulled it away from me and turned his head, lifting his drink up to his lips.

I turned away with a sigh and quickly caught up to Louis as he made his way through the house full of people.

“We tried,” I murmured as we reached the front door.

We walked across the front yard and approached Louis’s car.

He reached forward to pull the door open for me, but stopped when Niall called his name.

We turned around to see Niall quickly walking towards us.

Zayn, Liam, and Harry followed behind with Elsa and Reyza limping in back of them.

Niall’s fists were balled up in rage and I immediately knew that this was going to go very badly.

“What the fuck makes you think you can come over to my house during a family party and tell me lies like this. What is your fucking motive, man?” he shouted.

“It was my idea to come over here,” I said. “And there is no motive. The motive is to fucking tell you about your girlfriend.”

Niall stared harshly at me.

“No, let me guess,” he said, an amused smile on his lips. “You guys are sick and tired of being the broken couple and you wanted someone else to be miserable, too?”

“Broken couple?” Louis spat. “What the fuck are you talking about? We’re not broken. Yeah, we’ve been through a bunch of shit, but that does not make us broken. Why are you acting like this?”

“Come on,” Niall rolled his eyes. “I know you guys are ganging up on me. You’re lying to me. I don’t know why this is so sudden, but I know that this is all bullshit.”

“Oh yeah? How do you know?” Louis asked, mocking Niall’s tone.

“Who would come on to illianna? Why would Monse pick illianna to be interested in with all of the drama that comes along with her? Monse hates drama and being friends with you is drama enough.”

His words stung, bad, but I was more angry than anything.

I considered Niall to be one of my best friends, a brother, even.

We had really grown close over the last year and having him throw everything back into my face was really upsetting.

I glared at him for a moment, my jaw clenched and my mind cycling through the list of things I wanted to do to hurt him.

“Hey! Take it easy there Niall.” Zayn interfered, running by my side once he saw my anxiety take over.

I stood still in front of Niall looking at him with shame.

His family had come from out of the backyard and stood a distance in back of him.

“illianna being in an abusive relationship, starving herself, the whole Jenna thing, you two not knowing how you guys actually feel about each other, and now this?” Niall reminded us.

I instantly looked over at Zayn.

I had never told Niall about Nathan or my periods without eating.

I knew Zayn must have opened his mouth about it because an apology quickly washed over his face.

Zayn went to comfort me but I immediately pulled away from him.

I just shook my head and turned away, opening the door to the car and climbing inside.

Louis followed soon after, and I was really surprised that Louis didn’t punch him in the jaw like he enjoyed doing when people upset him.

We drove in silence for a few moments, the image of Niall standing on his front lawn with his family gathered behind him, ready to back him up, imprinted on my mind and I couldn’t erase it even after we had driven a few miles away.

Louis drove us across town back to his house.

I didn’t think much of it, though. My mind was far too preoccupied with everything that was going on.

Why couldn’t I just have an ounce of normalcy in my life?

“Alright,” Louis said, breaking the silence of the sitting car. “We’re here.”

He gave me a charming smile before quickly exiting the car and rushing over to my side of the car to open the door for me. He held his hand out for me to take as I exited.

We walked up the stairs back to his room and sprawled across his bed.

We looked deeply into each other’s eyes and I knew I was so grateful to have him.

“I just want to make you smile.” Louis said softly.

“You don’t even have to try and you succeed at that.”

I looked up just in time to see a slight blush creeping onto Louis’s cheeks.

“Don’t look at me, I’m blushing,” he said with an awkward laugh.

Even through all of the shit, Louis still managed to make me nervous and make me feel like I was falling in love over and over again.

And I had a feeling I made him feel the same way.

“I fucking love you,” I said with a laugh.

Louis smiled widely and reached out to hold my hand.

“I fucking love you, too.”

Notes

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