It Never Ends

*illianna's POV*

When we arrived back at my house, the first thing we instantly did was lock ourselves in my room. I knew that Zayn when it be coming home, but I just wanted to feel more comfortable with Louis.

My intentions weren't to just have sex with him right away. I also didn't want foreplay. I just wanted him to put me asleep again. The same way he did the night of his party.

"Stop staring at me like that." I said, throwing my sleep shorts at Louis instead of putting them on.

I pulled the blankets back from my bed and rolled in to where I was facing the wall. I had taken a quick shower and was only dressed in a long shirt with a pair of boy short panties.

Louis didn't know that I didn't have a bra on.

"Thanks for letting me shower with you." He smirked, climbing next to me.

I rolled my eyes. "We do not shower together. You hopped after me." I snickered. "And where is your shirt?"

"I don't sleep with shirts on." He laughed. "And you think I'm going to wear a shirt when you aren't wearing any shorts?"

I scooted closer to him and bit back a smile. "I'm not wearing a bra either."

Louis stopped moving and let out a throaty groan. "Are you trying to kill me?" He groaned again. "My goodness illianna."

I never really listen to how he said my name. But this moment drove me crazy.

"I love the way you say my name." I breathed. "Say it again."

Louis turned so that he was facing the wall with me. "illianna."
He said it flawlessly.

I didn't try to hold my breeding back any longer.

He wrapped his left hand over my torso, and in one movement he flipped me over, laid himself flat on the bed, and pulled me on top of him.

I knew where this night was going to lead to.

-

"Lily!" Ariana cheered as I took my seat at our lunch table.
"How are you feeling, sweetie?"

"Great! Today is going to be a good day. I feel it."

"Where have you been? Yesterday and this morning?" She questioned.

I hadn't texted Ariana to let her know that I wasn't showing up to school yesterday. And as for this morning, Louis and I got caught up with each other and Starbucks.

"I've just been with Louis." I shrugged.

Even though Ariana was oblivious to our break up, she was still going to be curious about us. The only thing Ariana thought about was sex, so she will assume that we automatically had it.

We didn't however, which was a surprise. The fact that Louis respected my boundaries made me see a different side of him. He knew that I wasn't ready to have sex, so he didn't pressure me.

"Doing what with Louis?" she wondered, furrowing her eyebrows.

I shrugged my shoulders again. "We went out to eat yesterday."

"And..."

"And he slept over and then..."

"He slept over!" She gasped. "Again?!"

I cringed at her outburst.

"Yeah, I didn't want to be alone. It's what any boyfriend will do." I said, cringing at the word 'boyfriend' again.

"Did you guys have sex this time?" She eagerly asked.

"Can we talk about this later?" I asked above a whisper, seeing that the guys were walking over to the table.

"Absolutely!" She smirks, wanting more detail.

The boys were dressed in their usual soccer attire when it was a game day. The girls, including myself, were dressed in the same thing. We wished that it was a game day for us.

They all gathered around the table with their food. Louis came by my side after walking with Niall, whispering to him. Niall winked at me as he sat down, making me giggle on how cute he is.

We all made conversation regarding tonight's game against Ridgeway. After a while, Louis and I heated things up between ourselves. Even though we weren't a couple, it was fun to act like one.

And it took everything I could from asking him to be my boyfriend in front of everyone.

Louis soon excused himself to the bathroom. Zayn needed to go get his and Liam's history project that was in our car and asked if I could go with him.

I stood up as Niall mentioned something that took everyone off-guard. Something I wasn't expecting.

"Let him, Lily. Let him treat you right. You need him."

I watched as everyone nodded their heads, except Zayn. "I know, Niall." I shuddered.

I bowed my head a bit and let out a sigh. I could feel Zayn shifting beside me. "I'll see you guys at the game tonight."

We said our goodbyes before Zayn and I walked off. I had asked Niall to let Louis know of my whereabouts.

It was nice to let people pretend that Louis and I were in a actual relationship, even if we weren't.

"Niall is right," Zayn finally said as we were nearing the car. "Louis could treat you right. He never really had a girlfriend, and if he did, he wasn't the greatest with them. But with you he's different. I just disagree with one thing Niall said."

"What's that?"

"I think Louis needs you more than you need him."

I just nodded, unsure of what to say. I wanted to question Zayn further, but it needed to be when we were alone in own house.

We walked back into the school as the bell rang.

"I got to get to class, see you Lily. Love you!" He kissed my temple.

I thought long and hard about what he said. I thought about my life. I thought about Nathan. And I thought about Louis.

Zayn said that he could treat me right and I knew it was true. But I am just way too confused about our relationship.

And as much as I am confused, I know that he needs me just as much as I need him.

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