~Luke~

It happened. Someone finally swooped in and took her away from me. And Calum of all people, I just can’t understand that. He knew – knows – exactly how I feel and he still just asked her out, made it look easy and showed me no respect. I think that’s why Ash has been hanging around me more. He’s rather pissed at Cal, always ranting about him and how he ignored the bro code, how I should have made a move years ago, how I was so much better for Lil than Calum. I felt kind of bad. It felt like this was tearing the band in half. Yeah Michael didn’t really care what was going on, he was just too lazy and laid back to get involved and take a side.

I feel even more awkward around Lil now, knowing that my feelings were kind of inappropriate. Gabrielle seemed ecstatic when I told her, I have no idea why though. It really has nothing to do with her. She’s also been a whole lot nicer to both me and Lily which, if I’m honest, scares me. Chantelle is always dragging Ash around to see Lily and Gabrielle always thinks it’s a good idea to go with them so of course I’m always ending up in terrible situations. It’s been three weeks and I still can’t get over it.

We were here again, at Lily’s I mean. And Calum as well I guess, he was living here now, probably sleeping in her bed as well. The thought alone disgusted me and brought on a lot of rage, jealousy and sadness. That plus the smug looks I get sent from Cal don’t put me in a good mood at all.

“You okay baby? What are you thinking about?” Gabrielle cooed to me from her position on my lap, running her fingers through my hair. I was extremely uncomfortable with the whole position and I really wanted to push her away and run far, far away, preferably bringing Lily with me. She had left her position on Calum’s lap a while ago, after the tension in the room had risen too high for her and me to handle she got up and left, probably to the gym. She seems to spend a lot of time there now, burning off steam I presume. It’s not like we’ve had anything close to what I would call an acceptable conversation.

“Doesn’t matter,” I gave her a slight smile and she frowned at me and looked away. “I need to go to the bathroom.” I told everyone before shifting out from under Gabrielle and heading out of the room. The good thing about Lily being famous was that she had installed a video security system after some of her crazier fans broke in once, we have some crazy fans but hers are even wilder and she still loves them all. The screens were showing activity in her house and they were conveniently located in the hallway her bathroom opened up too, allowing me knowledge on her whereabouts and other things in her house, all while getting away from that room and relieving myself.

After I had finished in the bathroom I confirmed the assumption that Lily was in her gym, the screen showing her attacking a punching bag in just gym shorts and a sports bra. I couldn’t pull myself away from the screen, she was too captivating in my opinion for that.

Figuring someone would come look for me soon and the fact that this seemed kind of creepy I decided to keep moving, though when I reached my destination I found myself leaning against one of the walls in her home gym, admiring the way her body moved with each strike of the bag.

She’s so beautiful, why couldn’t I have made her mine.

~Lily~

It’s been three weeks of horrible, awkward gatherings. I hate awkward situations, I just have to remove myself from them. I think it pisses Cal off but I just can’t deal with it and I don’t care, he as my best friend – or boyfriend or whatever – just has to deal with it.

This whole dating thing is really getting too me. He thinks I miss the smug looks he sends towards Luke when I’m sitting on his lap. I honestly don’t get what that’s about but it makes everything more uncomfortable. Chantelle was really happy when she found out about me and Calum but Ash has been acting really weirdly about it all, well when he wasn’t focusing on Telle. I need to talk to him about that, bring out my match making skills, but he is just too strange around me.

I’ve basically been living in my gym, stress relief and an escape is what it’s been. I wish they could just work out their issues with each other instead of everyone shoving themselves in one room and trying to avoid human contact possible in that room.

The punching bag was my friend today, accepting my harsh strikes of frustration. I was so worn out both physically and mentally and I don’t know how much longer I can take-

“You’re hitting it wrong, you’ll get a better strike if you change your stance.” The sound of the voice shocked me enough to make me squeal, grabbing my beating heart and swerving around to face the intruder.

“Fuck Luke, you scared me! What are you doing here? You’re supposed to be with the others!” I exclaimed, turning back and striking the bag, ignoring Luke and his advice on my stance.

“It’s all too weird there, I escaped like you.” I felt a hand grab my leg, lifting it and adjusting it. “That’s what you do isn’t it, you come here when the tension rises to high, when you just can’t take it anymore.” He moved my other leg. “It must be easy for you, we’re in your house, your rules, your safe place, you can go wherever you want whenever you want, there’s no limitations.” He had run his fingers up my body and was now adjusting the position I was facing. “It must be so easy to get whatever you want, your so in control of your emotions and your actions, so confident.” My arm was pulled back, my body flush against his. “Why do you keep it all from me?” My other arm was pulled against my chest, fingers twister around like the other hand to form a fist as he stepped away from me. “There, much better. Try again.”

I have no idea where this new Luke has come from or whether I like it or not but I do think the temperature in this room has gone up. I aimed for the bag, throwing as much force into my hit as I could, while Luke stalked around me and the bag as if we were prey. He was right, unsurprisingly, my hit was even more powerful and the ease in my body movements was amazing. I made eye contact with Luke as I threw my next punch and a kick, watching as he licked his lips.

“That how you want it?” I asked puffing lightly, unsure of whether the cause of it was Luke’s previous touches or my attack on the punching bag. A hum was all I received and I couldn’t decipher whether it was in approval or not. He moved back behind me as I turned my head to look at him.

“Better, yes, but if we just- yeah, that should work the best.” He adjusts my hips slightly and I almost melted into him. Be strong Lily, Calum remember. Our eyes stayed locked and I gulped, the intensity of his stare making me feel vulnerable.

The dong of my inbuilt house call system went off, snapping Luke out of whatever daze he had been in and making him step away from me as I went over to take the call from whoever was trying to contact me.

“Bill, where are you and Luke?” This is the one moment I was glad Cal was a lazy little shit and didn’t go check my monitors.

“We’re in the gym, do you need me or something?”

“No, you’re right, we were just going to watch a movie and we didn’t know where you two were, wouldn’t want you two to miss it now?” There was something in his tone that was off so I grabbed the towel and water bottle I brought with me, telling him that Luke and I would join him soon so not to stress before turning everything off and heading out of the gym.

“Ah, here you are, I thought you died.” Calum joked as I sat on the floor in front of him next to Chantelle who was wiggling her eyebrows at me.

“Why do you look so flustered babe?” she giggle into my ear.

“What movie are we watching?”

“Superman or something,” she shrugged.

“Seen it, you up for a girls night, I can’t take these boys anymore.” She nodded enthusiastically, jumping up and helping me up with her.

“Where are you going?” Ash asked with a pout.

“Girls night, stay away,” I gave them all a look, a playful glare directed especially towards Cal who rolled his eyes, what had gotten up his arse? I noticed that Gabrielle was gone along with Michael and Danielle. Hah, now they can work out their shit. Serves them all right. “Stay the night though. We’ll see you in the morning or something.” I laughed as I dragged Chantelle with me out of the room and towards my room.

“So, how have you been?” Telle asked as she dropped back onto my bed. “Smells like Cal,” she joked and I kindly showed her my middle finger.

“Stressed, this year was supposed to be some sort of a break and it’s just has had a lot of downs in my personal opinion.”

“What’s going on with you and Cal, Ash isn’t happy about it I don’t think but he can suck it up, it’s about you and Cal not him.” I let out a sigh, running a hand through my hair. “What aren’t you telling me Lily Nicola? I expect the truth.” Could I trust Chantelle, she – like Lauren – was the closest thing I have ever had to a sister and I just really need to let it out, there isn’t much to lose.

“It’s fake. With Cal, my feelings are fake. It’s all for Luke. My feelings and the relationship I have with Cal is for Luke. It’s all for Luke and I have no idea why.”

And so the story telling begins.

Notes

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