Blooming
Stuck
~Lily~
The first concert of the tour had approached rapidly and here I was waiting in the boys change rooms for them to go on. Unfortunately Gabrielle was still here and management has come up with a great idea to let us hang out all the time. Yay, I cannot wait at all. This is going to be fun, fun, fun!
Calum has also been acting really strangely since Gabrielle arrived, maybe it has to do with the conversation he had with Ashton that day. I’m not really sure but whatever it is, he hasn’t told me. Considering everything, the only people who have been relatively normal around me are Michael – who I have grown even closer to, Chantelle – but she seems to be spending most of her time with Ashton, honeymoon period I suppose, and Luke – but management was always shipping him off places with Gabrielle. I was ridiculously envious of her and seeing them together made me see red – she is so wrong for him and she always will be.
To control my temper and reduce the pain of seeing Gabrielle and Luke together I’ve been spending most of my time with Harry – much to Calum’s distaste after my comment about ‘cheating’ on him with Harry. Something is up that boys pants and for him not to tell me – I’m getting increasingly worried as to what it is.
“You’re on in ten.” One of the stage managers poked her head through the door to inform the boys. They all mumbled some kind of acknowledgement and went back to their phones – they really are a social bunch tonight. I took a deep breath and stood up causing Calum to shoot me a look as if to ask where I was going. I shook my head dismissing him and heading out of their dressing room and to the door leading outside – pushing it open and escaping into the chilly, fresh air. I slumped to the floor beside the door and let out a massive sigh, running my fingers through my hair and slightly tugging on the ends of it out of stress. I’m not sure how much longer I can carry on with the boys acting like this – I have a breaking point too. I can’t stay strong and carry on like nothing is wrong forever.
I went to call my sister on my phone, only to realise that it wasn’t in my pocket where it originally had been. Dammit, I must have left it on the table in the dressing room. I wanted to scream or cry or something – I just wasn’t sure which one. Calum’s whole plan to make Luke jealous obviously wasn’t working but yet here I am, still his ‘girlfriend’. Harry’s right, I need to choose between the two and get myself out of this hole I’ve dug for myself.
I pulled myself off the floor, trying not to consider the disgusting things I could have sat on, and reached to open the back door I had exited through only to find that it was self-locking and that I could only open it from the inside. This time I let out a scream, cursed and kicked the wall before sinking back down to the floor and sobbing into my hands. I’m the stupidest person alive – why do I always have to find myself in these situations? There’s only a gate and some garbage bins out here, I’m pretty much trapped. With no phone. Real smart Lily.
I sat for a few minutes weighing up my options: a) I could try and jump the gate – that would probably end in disaster though or b) I could wait for someone to find me. I’m really fucked.
I jumped when the door swung open beside me.
“Lil? What in the world are you doing out here?” Harry’s slow and raspy voice question, confusion emanating through his tone. I turned to look at him and his expression changed from confused to worry. “Crap Billy, what’s wrong?” he asked coming out the door and letting it slam shut before I could warn him. Fucking fantastic – tonight’s going so well.
I cursed about the dumb door. “Please tell me you have your phone or I’m really going to hurt you.” I told him but my voice wasn’t as venomous as I would have appreciated. It sounded more broken then anything.
“Why?” he asked cautiously as he moved to sit beside me.
“The door doesn’t open from the outside.” He cursed – well thanks a lot Harry. You are so useful.
“What are we supposed to do? I have a concert in less than an hour.” I shrugged, wiping away the tears that had sprung up again from my frustration.
“I was waiting for someone to find me but we know how well that turned out.” I really wish I would stop crying. “Fucking piece of crap.” I mumbled unsure of whether I was talking about the door or myself – I think it was meant for both.
“Hey, we’ll figure something out, you don’t need to cry about it, we’ll get out.”
“That’s what they all say, that’s what everyone’s been telling me Harry. No I won’t get out of this friggin mess, it’s me Harold.”
“This is about more than the door isn’t it?” he asked, pulling me into him so I could lay my head in his lap as I nodded, letting the tears run. “Shhh,” he cooed. “You don’t need to worry about it Lily, you just need to take a deep breath. I know how strong you are and I know you can get through everything that comes your way.” I knew he was referring to the whole ‘love-triangle’ situation – as he puts it. He had gotten me drunk unsurprisingly, and I had revealed every little detail to him, minus the whole ‘first time’ incident.
“Why can’t you see that this won’t be okay? You have a concert that you need to be getting prepared for yet we are stuck here. Everyone will be worried that you’ve disappeared.”
“Yeah and your two lovers plus everyone else will be worried about your whereabouts too.” I rolled my eyes at him. “Don’t even try and deny it.”
“I need to get out of here.” I told him after a few moments of silence.
“Don’t we all?” He asked like it was the most obvious thing in the world.
“Well, yes, we do need to get out of here but that’s not what I’m talking about.” He furrowed his eye brows in confusion before it dawned on him. “And don’t you dare tell me I’m running away from my problems.” I warned him menacingly.
“Okay, alright, I won’t. Why do you need to go and where would you go?” He asked.
“My sister doesn’t live far from here, I can go there for the few days we are here and then decide whether I’ll be joining you back on tour or not. I need my time away from them Harry, and I need call a break between Calum and I before I leave as well.”
“So Luke it is then?” he asked with a smirk and I whacked him on the arm. “Sorry, that’s not important at the moment is it? I don’t want you to just quit the tour though Billy, I like having you here. You’re like my annoying little sister.”
“Thanks for the compliment Hazza. And I’m not quitting, I just need some time away, to think for myself. You can call me whenever though, you know that. Now do you want to try and get back inside or not?” he nodded and stood up, banging on the door in hopes of gaining someone’s attention.
“What the heck?” I heard someone mumbled as the door was swung open, revealing Luke who looked shocked to see us on the other side. He bit his lip, playing with his piercing. I wonder what that would feel like pressed against my lips? “What the heck are you two doing out there?” he asked eyeing us suspiciously – I hope he doesn’t think anything was going on between us as well.
“Talking, but we got stuck out there, it only opens from the inside.” Harry told him before walking away, winking at me and waving.
“Oh.” Luke nodded, rubbing the back of his neck nervously as he turned to look at me again. “Are you alright?” he asked in a concerned tone as he observed my tear streaked face. I nodded and brushed some hair away from my ear. “Are you su-”
“Luke, get in position now. Go, go, go!” another stage manager instructed, shoving Luke’s guitar into his hands and pushing him away from me. He looked back at me one last time and smiled sadly and waved before running off to wherever he was meant to be.
I set off for their change room again and began writing them a note, informing them about everything and also detailing to Calum how I needed to take a break. I also gave my sister a call and she said it was fine. I sealed the note and left it under one of their phones, grabbed my phone and few other belongings and got a car back to our hotel, packing my things together and getting the car to take me to my sisters.
“Lily, it’s been forever.” Sarah exclaimed as she wrapped her arms around me causing me to drop my bags and copy her actions. “Now tell me what’s going on. What in the world is wrong and why are you upset?” she asked after pulling me away from her fiancé, Craig, who I had greeted after her, and into a more private area of their house.
I took a deep breath but I couldn’t do it, I broke down in her comforting embrace and told her everything as well. So much for keeping it a secret, Calum.
The first concert of the tour had approached rapidly and here I was waiting in the boys change rooms for them to go on. Unfortunately Gabrielle was still here and management has come up with a great idea to let us hang out all the time. Yay, I cannot wait at all. This is going to be fun, fun, fun!
Calum has also been acting really strangely since Gabrielle arrived, maybe it has to do with the conversation he had with Ashton that day. I’m not really sure but whatever it is, he hasn’t told me. Considering everything, the only people who have been relatively normal around me are Michael – who I have grown even closer to, Chantelle – but she seems to be spending most of her time with Ashton, honeymoon period I suppose, and Luke – but management was always shipping him off places with Gabrielle. I was ridiculously envious of her and seeing them together made me see red – she is so wrong for him and she always will be.
To control my temper and reduce the pain of seeing Gabrielle and Luke together I’ve been spending most of my time with Harry – much to Calum’s distaste after my comment about ‘cheating’ on him with Harry. Something is up that boys pants and for him not to tell me – I’m getting increasingly worried as to what it is.
“You’re on in ten.” One of the stage managers poked her head through the door to inform the boys. They all mumbled some kind of acknowledgement and went back to their phones – they really are a social bunch tonight. I took a deep breath and stood up causing Calum to shoot me a look as if to ask where I was going. I shook my head dismissing him and heading out of their dressing room and to the door leading outside – pushing it open and escaping into the chilly, fresh air. I slumped to the floor beside the door and let out a massive sigh, running my fingers through my hair and slightly tugging on the ends of it out of stress. I’m not sure how much longer I can carry on with the boys acting like this – I have a breaking point too. I can’t stay strong and carry on like nothing is wrong forever.
I went to call my sister on my phone, only to realise that it wasn’t in my pocket where it originally had been. Dammit, I must have left it on the table in the dressing room. I wanted to scream or cry or something – I just wasn’t sure which one. Calum’s whole plan to make Luke jealous obviously wasn’t working but yet here I am, still his ‘girlfriend’. Harry’s right, I need to choose between the two and get myself out of this hole I’ve dug for myself.
I pulled myself off the floor, trying not to consider the disgusting things I could have sat on, and reached to open the back door I had exited through only to find that it was self-locking and that I could only open it from the inside. This time I let out a scream, cursed and kicked the wall before sinking back down to the floor and sobbing into my hands. I’m the stupidest person alive – why do I always have to find myself in these situations? There’s only a gate and some garbage bins out here, I’m pretty much trapped. With no phone. Real smart Lily.
I sat for a few minutes weighing up my options: a) I could try and jump the gate – that would probably end in disaster though or b) I could wait for someone to find me. I’m really fucked.
I jumped when the door swung open beside me.
“Lil? What in the world are you doing out here?” Harry’s slow and raspy voice question, confusion emanating through his tone. I turned to look at him and his expression changed from confused to worry. “Crap Billy, what’s wrong?” he asked coming out the door and letting it slam shut before I could warn him. Fucking fantastic – tonight’s going so well.
I cursed about the dumb door. “Please tell me you have your phone or I’m really going to hurt you.” I told him but my voice wasn’t as venomous as I would have appreciated. It sounded more broken then anything.
“Why?” he asked cautiously as he moved to sit beside me.
“The door doesn’t open from the outside.” He cursed – well thanks a lot Harry. You are so useful.
“What are we supposed to do? I have a concert in less than an hour.” I shrugged, wiping away the tears that had sprung up again from my frustration.
“I was waiting for someone to find me but we know how well that turned out.” I really wish I would stop crying. “Fucking piece of crap.” I mumbled unsure of whether I was talking about the door or myself – I think it was meant for both.
“Hey, we’ll figure something out, you don’t need to cry about it, we’ll get out.”
“That’s what they all say, that’s what everyone’s been telling me Harry. No I won’t get out of this friggin mess, it’s me Harold.”
“This is about more than the door isn’t it?” he asked, pulling me into him so I could lay my head in his lap as I nodded, letting the tears run. “Shhh,” he cooed. “You don’t need to worry about it Lily, you just need to take a deep breath. I know how strong you are and I know you can get through everything that comes your way.” I knew he was referring to the whole ‘love-triangle’ situation – as he puts it. He had gotten me drunk unsurprisingly, and I had revealed every little detail to him, minus the whole ‘first time’ incident.
“Why can’t you see that this won’t be okay? You have a concert that you need to be getting prepared for yet we are stuck here. Everyone will be worried that you’ve disappeared.”
“Yeah and your two lovers plus everyone else will be worried about your whereabouts too.” I rolled my eyes at him. “Don’t even try and deny it.”
“I need to get out of here.” I told him after a few moments of silence.
“Don’t we all?” He asked like it was the most obvious thing in the world.
“Well, yes, we do need to get out of here but that’s not what I’m talking about.” He furrowed his eye brows in confusion before it dawned on him. “And don’t you dare tell me I’m running away from my problems.” I warned him menacingly.
“Okay, alright, I won’t. Why do you need to go and where would you go?” He asked.
“My sister doesn’t live far from here, I can go there for the few days we are here and then decide whether I’ll be joining you back on tour or not. I need my time away from them Harry, and I need call a break between Calum and I before I leave as well.”
“So Luke it is then?” he asked with a smirk and I whacked him on the arm. “Sorry, that’s not important at the moment is it? I don’t want you to just quit the tour though Billy, I like having you here. You’re like my annoying little sister.”
“Thanks for the compliment Hazza. And I’m not quitting, I just need some time away, to think for myself. You can call me whenever though, you know that. Now do you want to try and get back inside or not?” he nodded and stood up, banging on the door in hopes of gaining someone’s attention.
“What the heck?” I heard someone mumbled as the door was swung open, revealing Luke who looked shocked to see us on the other side. He bit his lip, playing with his piercing. I wonder what that would feel like pressed against my lips? “What the heck are you two doing out there?” he asked eyeing us suspiciously – I hope he doesn’t think anything was going on between us as well.
“Talking, but we got stuck out there, it only opens from the inside.” Harry told him before walking away, winking at me and waving.
“Oh.” Luke nodded, rubbing the back of his neck nervously as he turned to look at me again. “Are you alright?” he asked in a concerned tone as he observed my tear streaked face. I nodded and brushed some hair away from my ear. “Are you su-”
“Luke, get in position now. Go, go, go!” another stage manager instructed, shoving Luke’s guitar into his hands and pushing him away from me. He looked back at me one last time and smiled sadly and waved before running off to wherever he was meant to be.
I set off for their change room again and began writing them a note, informing them about everything and also detailing to Calum how I needed to take a break. I also gave my sister a call and she said it was fine. I sealed the note and left it under one of their phones, grabbed my phone and few other belongings and got a car back to our hotel, packing my things together and getting the car to take me to my sisters.
“Lily, it’s been forever.” Sarah exclaimed as she wrapped her arms around me causing me to drop my bags and copy her actions. “Now tell me what’s going on. What in the world is wrong and why are you upset?” she asked after pulling me away from her fiancé, Craig, who I had greeted after her, and into a more private area of their house.
I took a deep breath but I couldn’t do it, I broke down in her comforting embrace and told her everything as well. So much for keeping it a secret, Calum.
Notes
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