Can a Person like me ever find love?

Sam-

I got up from the lounge making sure that I didn't wake up Brooke.
The time was 6:32 am, and I had to get out of the apartment because the landlord was coming around today and I didn't want her to be evicted.

I snuck into her room and grabbed and Outfit , tip toeing to the bathroom I slipped on the clothes which were mine since some of her wardrobe was basically my clothes, and I did my make up which was hers.
I walked back and grabbed my duffel bag that she borrowed long ago and put the rest of my clothes in there luckily she had one of my work outfits for the club and that means I didn't have to go back to Ryan's.
I wrote a note and placed it next to her head on the table.

I walked to the door about to open it when knocking echoed through the apartment waking up Brooke and alarming me.

"Brooke open up right now time for check up" he yelled from the other side of the door coughing afterwards.

"See ya Brooke I'm going out the window" I whisper yelled running past her and opening up the window stepping out.

"I'm coming in now" his seedy like voice yelled once more opening up the door making me duck down and laying on my back, making sure I was blind to his eyes.
After a good 7 minutes he stopped walking around and left, I peeked into the apartment slowly to see him walking out the door.

"Bye" she whispered smiling and I waved back climbing down the rest of the fire exit hearing the rusty metal creak every step I took.

I walked down the rest of the stairs onto solid ground finally and started walking to the park.

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I've been here for hours sitting down I front of the lake now watching the sun set, I had to leave soon for the host job I was doing, a lot of the guys their were creepy and asked you to be their girlfriend a lot but the money was very good, and I was lucky because I was a popular host and lots of males asked for me.
I heard my phone ringing so I picked it up to see it was the club.

H work- Sam babe we've put you on VIP mystery women tonight so when you get here walk into the VIP private room and sit and your shift was changed to 20 minutes earlier so please get here now.
I read the message in my head grabbing my bag and walking annoyed that I didn't get to see the sun set but on the positive side being the mystery women and sitting in the VIP room paid a lot more than just regular so I was walking very brisk.

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"The fun has arrived" I sung entering the back room were all the girls made themselves look perfect for the males.

"Heard you're on mystery duty tonight" joules said bumping her hip into mine making me fall the the side.
"You bet just hope it isn't an old geezer" I bumped back into her making everyone laugh at the vanity tables.

"Well I would hurry up and get changed because boss says their here" Lilly said in her Brooklyn accent, making me shut up and scramble ripping of my clothes and placing the Work ones on and fixing up my makeup adding a bit more to make them more smoky.

"Do I look ok" I yelled checking myself out in the mirror and hearing all the yeahs, hotties from the other girls doing their own thing.

"Wish me luck" I walked through the velvet curtains down the dark halls seeing the VIP door with lights flashing around it.

I walked though the curtains sitting down on the red couches looking at the dark woof floor and around the black walls, I raised my arms and put them on top of the sofa and crossed my legs waiting for my client to walk in.

"Right through here" I heard Johnny say from the other side of the curtain only to be met with a shock so great it felt like a punch in the guts.

Standing before me was a very surprised looking Harry,Liam,Niall,Zayn and a smug looking Louis smirking.

"Please sit" Johnny asked guiding them to the seats around me popping open a bottle of champaign the boys did as they were told not knowing to do except Louis that is he sat right in front of me leaning on his knees trying his hardest not to laugh.

"Enjoy" is all Johnny said before walking out doing what ever he does.

I felt a little insecure about my outfit wrapping my coat doing my best to cover my chest.
"Well" Louis dragged on.

"Would of never expected this to happen, can't believe you sell yourself like this" he said it in a nice tone but spat it out like poison.

"I'm not selling myself out, I just drink with costumers and talk to them" I spat back at him.

"Well you look like a hooker, not very elegant if I must say your company site said that they employed classy women sure to give a good time, but all I have so far is a slutty looking girl who talks back" he yelled at me, causing the other boys to yell at him telling him to stop and that he was going to far, but what hurt was that he looked up he tried to search for me and he planned to meet me here he wanted to humiliate me.

"I may look like a slut and I talk to men for money but I'm not like you who try's to track a person to embarrass them, you may not know but I have a damn good reason to be doing what I'm doing" I yelled standing up and staring into his anger filled eyes.

"And what may be so important to be dressing like a hooker and probably fucking them for extra money" he spat at me also standing up being intimidating.

"Why do I need to explain myself to a prick like you, and I don't fuck men for money I will never go that low".

"What would your mother say if she saw you like this" he glared and that out me over the top, I brought my hand and hit him across the face making a nice slap and flinging his head to the side.

"Don't ever, EVER speak about my mother you twat" I said furiously storming out of the room into the back.

Only two girls were there in the back having a smoke making me feel queasy, I sat down at the vanity table holding my head in my hands pushing my hair back trying not to cry.

"Samantha" Harry came up behind me and rested his hand on my shoulder.

"I'm not a slut, I'm not like my mother" I said the last bit quietly trying to convince myself that I'm not like my mother but I was failing miserably.

"Louis was way out of line, earlier he convinced us that we needed time out and suggested this place we all caved in wanting to see what it was like, I'm sorry that he did that to you, all the other boys are angry at him yelling at him for what he's done" he said rubbing small circles on my shoulder.


"I want you to come over" he said and I obliged

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We were sitting in Harry's room drinking and talking about random shit, we were smashed.
"And then the donkey bucked me off and I fell into the muddy puddle, and my mum wouldn't let me back in the car unless I took my clothes off" we both laughed hysterically at the story.

"God that's too funny" I said holding my stomach wiping off some tears from laughing.
It died down with us still laughing time to time breathing loudly.

We both looked at each other Harry staring aT my lips, he leaned forward and I met him halfway connecting our lips together, his lips were so soft and they were the perfect size.

He leaned me down fully on the bed leaning on top of me the kiss getting more heated as he started to run his hands down my sides, getting close to my inner thighs.

*flash back*

I was sleeping in the small room of the motel in the tiny bed with my brother.

I heard rattling of the door and giggling waking me up slowly, I covered my brothers ears hoping he wouldn't wake up from my mothers new 'client'.

"You didn't say you had kids" the man laughed stumbling over to the bed looking at us.

"Yeah, their the useless pricks children" she said unenthusiastically.

"That daughter of yours how old Is she" the man asked while I pretended to be asleep but I could hear the conversation clearly and I had to stop myself from shaking.

"She's 16" she mumbled most likely having a cigarette in her mouth.

"How old is he"

"14" is all she said

"I'll give you 300 bucks if you let me take her" he said greedily making me jump up looking petrified waking up my brother.

"Done" she said snatching the money from the mans hand and grabbing my brother roughly dragging him out of bed while the man stalked towards me.

"MUM, PLEASE, JA-" I tried to yell but he pinned me down covering my mouth the last thing I saw was my brothers confused face crying trying to come back and help me and I looked up to my mothers face if I could even call her that but she had no emotion but I could see guilt in her eyes.

That was the worse night of my life

*present*

I suddenly gasped and shoved Harry off me, scrambling to the other side of the bed bringing my hand to my mouth crying rocking back and forward.

"Sam whats wrong he climbed back on the bed more like scrambling desperately up to me I saw the worry in his eyes but I shrunk away from him telling him not to touch me.

"Sam what happened, what's going on" he pleaded not trying to touch me this time.

"I'm not my mother" is all I could say bawling my eyes out while Harry just sat there in front of me.

"I know you're not your mother but what happened that made you push me out of the bed" he said in a strong voice causing me to stop crying and look up at him.

"I can't tell you" is all I could say looking back down.

"You'd hate me and tell me to never come near" I put my head in my lap.

"Do I seem like the kind of guy to hate someone so easily".

"It's hard for me to tell anyone Harry especially someone I've only known for three days" my eye lids started to get heavy hearing Harry talk to me about something but I couldn't understand because the next thing I knew was blackness.

Notes

This was kind of sad for me to write it wasn't that detailed but it was hard to write something like that