Gone
Seventy-Eight
When I stumbled down the stairs half-asleep the next morning I was pleased to see that Josh really had left. Last night was blurry at first but as it came back to me bit by bit, I almost choked on my own tongue right there and then. Josh and I had kissed and there was absolutely no way I could take it back.
I hated dwelling on things but it's just what I did. I was a dweller, and an analyser. I couldn't help it. I tried to think about something else but that's all I could think about. I cringed as it replayed over and over again in my head, driving me crazy. It was like I had no control over it.
“What are you doing up?” Mum croaked from the top of the stairs in her fluffy white and purple dressing gown.
She squinted at me with a confused look on her face, clutching onto the railing for support. What was she on about? It was fifteen past eight which wasn't really that unusual for me
"It's past eight," I replied.
She frowned.
"Oh, my mistake," she said before she wandered back to her room like a zombie.
"Has Dad come home yet?" I yelled after her.
It had been ages since I had seen him and I was beginning to wonder. Her facial expression changed as she stopped, turned around, and nodded.
"He went out again after he got home last night though. I'm sure you'll see him later today,"
I made myself some cornflakes and sprinkled Milo on top, the huge tin my parents attempted to hide but I always seemed to find eventually. There was nothing on TV. Sports and news were on pretty much all the channels. I found neither of them interesting so I just turned it off and stared into space at the black screen, letting myself fade in and out of focus.
I found myself asking the same questions over and over again. What was Josh doing with Amber if not dating her? Was he telling the truth? And was I wrong to have even the tiniest hope that he was actually being honest for once? Even if it didn't change anything, it would be nice to know that he was finally growing emotionally.
Notes
DONE :D
So I gave up on Ghost obvs but I have a new story up now called Bravery which I think you guys might like because it's the same sort of thing but with a refreshing new twist :)
10/22/14