Gone
Seventy-Seven
I didn't dare to take my eyes off the ground. I shut my eyes, wishing that he wasn't the way he was. I knew that I shouldn't be what-iffing but honestly I couldn't help my mind wandering. I found it disturbingly difficult to imagine him as an actual human being with a conscience.
"You don't understand, me and Amber aren't a thing," he protested.
How could they not be a thing? What did that even mean anyway? So he was just kissing her in front of me to say that he was sorry? I wasn't buying it. I shook my head vigorously.
"Rubbish!" I took a deep breath to calm myself down, "I don't want to hear it, Josh. I'm sick of not being able to trust anything that comes out of your mouth. Just know that you can trust me when I say I'm done,"
I stole one last glance at him before striding up the stairs and slamming my bedroom door behind me. I hoped he would leave soon. Him still being here was quite inconvenient. I was the one who stormed upstairs so if I went back down I would look stupid. I definitely wanted to avoid that. I just wanted it to be over, for him to just leave. Then I could be confused on my own without him there to influence me any further.
What the hell was I supposed to tell Niall? There was no way I could be honest with him. I mean how was I supposed to do that? I couldn't be like 'Oh hey, by the way you should probably know that the guy I used to be in love with just kissed me and finally told me he loved me back. He was forgiving up to a point. Somehow this seemed as though it would be pushing it a little too much.
I finally decided that as long as I didn't mention it, it wouldn't matter if I kept it to myself. But how long would that last though. Josh was now on the loose and had no reason to keep his big mouth shut so my guess was not that long. I was prepared to give him pretty much whatever he wanted in exchange for his silence but was worried what he might ask me to do. If he cared about me at all he wouldn't push it any further than he already had.
Notes
DONEEEE :D
So I gave up on Ghost obvs but I have a new story up now called Bravery which I think you guys might like because it's the same sort of thing but with a refreshing new twist :)
10/22/14