*Louis' POV*

It's been three days. Three days of sobbing. Three days of heart break. Three days of no clues. What is that supposed to mean?! I mean, how do you expect me to know what "It's part of her job, and part of her as well. She has it in her room, and it's somewhere around the walls" means? I have no clue! I sighed, and tossed around in my messed up, tissue covered bed. My eyes are probably red and swollen. I haven't taken a shower in three days. Barely leave my bed room, either. I only leave to get food, or to search Crystal's room-- again. I had no idea.

Knock Knock

I groaned, and turned in my bed again, facing the door of my dark bedroom.

Knock Knock

"What.." I grumbled just loud enough for whoever was knocking to hear.

I peeked my eyes open to see the door opening a crack, the stream of light hitting my eyes. I turned around when I saw it was Harry, and I faintly heard the door close. I felt a weight on the side of my bed behind me telling me Harry sat down on the bed.

"Louis, you've got to get up. We have to find the note. Think about what could happen to her. We all miss Crystal like crazy. You have to help us." Harry pleaded to me, his words sincere.

I sighed, and sat myself up in my room. I glanced at the clock, seeing it was 3:34 PM. I looked at Harry, and he sadly smiled at me. He stood up, patting me back as he did so and walked out of my room, closing the door behind him. I sighed, and swung my legs over the edge of my bed. I stood up on my legs, and shuffled over to the closet. I picked out some normal jeans and a gray shirt that Crystal used as a sleep shirt. It fit me, so that's why she slept in it. Yeah, it's from her internet friend, Adam or Nanners, but I wear it sometimes. I went to the bathroom, and saw something that wasn't who I used to be. My skin was paler then it used to be, and my hair was everywhere. My cheeks were tear stained, and my eyes and nose were red. I smelled my breath, and scrunched up my nose in disgust. I quickly combed my hair a bit into Crystal's favorite hairstyle. I sighed, and washed my face as well. Once I was finished, I sprayed some cologne on myself, and walked back out into the room. I walked out of my small room and into Crystal's room. she had gotten it renovated when she first started YouTube and it looked like that now. I started mindlessly walking around he room, looking at her various pictures and things on her walls and shelves.

I picked up a few picture frames of her and Darcy, and a few from other times of life that I don't know. I was looking through all her shelves and stuff, and spotted something I hadn't seen before. I pushed a picture frame out of the way of something behind it, and it revealed a customized controller. I never knew she had this. It was very unique. And it had her name on it. I smiled, and picked it up. I admired the front, and realized that Crystal must've used this a lot. She had dents in her thumb sticks. Probably from her nails scratching away at it. I smiled at the thought of her surprisingly sharp nails in my hands. I played with the thumb sticks, and turned over her controller.

A piece of paper

I was shocked at first, but then quickly picked up the piece of paper and threw her controller onto her bed. I unfolded the tiny scrap, and read what was on the paper.

Well, well, well.

You found it. How long did it take you to find it, eh? A few days? HOw am I to know. Well, I guess its time for your next clue. You ready?

Its the place you took her when you found her. Dying, dying, slowly in a white room, with cords everywhere. The secret numbers are 214. Good luck
-JJ


I ran a hand through my hair in frustration. What?! What does this mean? Secret numbers? Dying? I don't get this.. but it's still one step closer to finding Crystal.


*Crystal's POV*

My eyes fluttered open, only to be slammed shut once again. The brightness of the sun above me was blinding. I raised my arm in front of my eyes, and opened them again. I squinted, the brightness still startling me. I sat up, realizing I was in a field filled with Delilahs.

How did I get here? Shouldn't I be back in the... dungeon... where I died..

Realization hit me like a slap to the face. I'm... dead. No.. No. I can't be dead! I can't!! I looked down at my clothes, and saw a white sun dress on my body, bare feet, and my hair was done up in a messy ponytail. I looked around for a sign of someone, but I was all alone. I stood up on shaky legs, warm, satly tears rolling down my cheeks, blurring my vision by the slightest.

"IS ANYBODY THERE?!" I yelled out into the air.

I got no reply. I felt more tears slide down my cheeks at a faster pace then before.

I'm.. dead. I'm gone. I'm not alive. I never went to Pax. I never got a second date. I never made another video. I never did 'it'. I never got to get married. I never raised children. I never had a career. Oh my god. There.. there were so many things I wanted to do... but never got to. So many things.. I can't just.. no! I can't die!! I have to live! I have to be alive!! I have to be there! I have to be there for Louis! For the lads! For Darcy! For my friends! For my fans! No!! It was all because of Jake. JAKE!! He killed me! I.. I just want to live! I want to be there! I want to feel loved! I want to feel wanted! I want to feel... alive. I don't want to live in a meadow for the rest of eternity! I don't want to watch Louis and the others live happy lives while I'm in some meadow all alone with nobody to comfort me! I want to comfort Louis! I want to be there! I want to LIVE!!

Sadness and grief were tearing me apart inside. Who knows what's going on with the boys?

I looked around the meadow, and spotted a lake. Without thinking, my legs carried me to the edge of the lake. I looked inside it, and.. I saw him. I saw Louis. He was analyzing my specially made controller I got when I first started my YouTube channel. I smiled sorrowfully as I saw him rub the indents in the thumb sticks from my nails. I saw tears making small ripples in the water as I watched Louis. He turned over my controller, and I saw him take off a piece of paper and read it. I didn't know what it said, because I was too far away to see, and the water wouldn't give me a clear view. I saw him run out of my room, and down stairs, and then the view faded. I let out a heart wrenching sob, and lay back down on the soft grass. There's no more hope. I can't go home. I'm forever stuck, all alone, in this meadow. I'll have to watch Louis grow old with a different woman while I'm up here, crying to myself. I don't want that to happen. I want to grow old with him, raising kids. I want to be there for him. I love him. I love him too much to let go. But I have to.

I sobbed and sobbed in the empty place, the sun slowly sinking into the sky turning it different shades of purple, orange, and pink. I smiled, thinking of how nice our first date was when we were watching the sun set. I still can't believe it. Is this what it's like to die? Are you all alone for the rest of eternity? I heard that you watch them, but you slowly start to fade away over time, only the memory of you in living people's brains keeping you just barely translucent. Once your forgotten from everybody, you fade away entirely. Is this what it's like? Lonelieness forever, watching the ones you love and care for move on? Forget about you? Is this what true sadness is like? True emptiness? True... death?

"I JUST WANT TO GO HOME!!" I screamed into the darkening sky, slamming my fists into the ground beside me.

I let out sobs as loud as can be, almost positive that Louis can hear me, even when I'm dead.

"I.. I just w-want to go home.." I said, tears staining my cheeks.

I have no more home. I'm forever alone. I don't want this. What did I ever do to deserve this? I wiped away the next stream of tears falling down my face, and sat up. I looked down at the lake again, an image of Louis in my bed only in his boxers appeared. He was clutching the blankets to his chest, almost as if he were to sleep in my bed, I would appear beside him in the morning. I hesitantly took a step into the lake, and surprised myself when I fell through it into my room. I smiled, but it disappeared when I realized that I'm a ghost now. I looked above me, and saw a portal back to my meadow, but I didn't go back. I want to be with Louis. I want to be with him, even if he can't see, feel, or hear me. I want him beside me. I crawled onto my bed, not disturbing a thing due to my ghostness. I noticed my hands were translucent. You could make out objects behind me, but you could still see me. I crawled in, and put myself against Louis's chest. I knew he couldn't feel me, but it felt nice to know he was here. I lay there, his arms slightly going through me and the bed sheets undisturbed from my presence.

If only...

If only I wasn't dead... I could be there to hold him, love him, and be with him.

"I love you, Louis." I mumbled to his sleeping figure.

I stroked his hair, surprising myself when his hair actually moved. I smiled, and walked over to my desk. I saw mynecklace there. Picking it up, using as much energy as I could, I lifted it into my palms, and walked over to Louis' sleeping body. Feeling a ghostly tear fall down my cheeks and onto the bed, I sighed. I opened one of his palms, and placed the necklace into his hands. Already have used all the energy I could, I fell back down onto my bed, and fell asleep, silently wishing that this was all a dream, and that I will get to go to my first date again.


"I love you. Don't ever forget me." I mumbled.

I then fell into a deep sleep, letting the darkness consume me.

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