Friend Zoned

Hey guys, sorry this isn't an update.

We all should know by now, and sorry to be the one to tell you if you don't, but Zayn's has left One Direction completely. I came here for two reasons, firstly to vent to people who actually understand where I'm coming from, and secondly, to ask whether or not you want me to continue writing this story.

I'm quite upset about this whole quitting thing for a number of reasons and my emotions about Zayn at the moment are extremely mixed. I respect Zayn's decision to leave and I'm upset that Zayn was so broken by everything surrounding the band that he paid over 10 million pounds to get out. I don't understand how it could get this far.

But I'm also angry. When I'm upset, I always tend to get angry at well. I'm angry that Zayn left before the end of the tour that millions of girls had paid a shit tonne of money to go and see. Some girls would be going just because of him, because they love him and now they don't even get the opportunity to see him one last time. I'm also angry that I got to see him only just over a month ago, because how in the world is that fair on the rest of you? Like yes they didn't come to Aus on their last tour but they're doing songs from Four this tour.

I'm beyond angry, I'm so angry that I'm crying about what Zayn's done to Harry. Harry has tried so hard to keep the band together, we've heard it time and time again, and Zayn has told Harry that he wouldn't leave or that he would leave on the 30th of Feb or some other stupid, non-existent time. Yes, Zayn was probably my favourite from the band, but personality wise Harry and I are like one person. I'm so angry that Zayn's upset him like this. For Harry to put so much effort in trying to keep the band together and Zayn just leaving it must be so hard on him. He must be blaming it on himself to some extent and that just kills me.

I'll reinforce that I respect Zayn's decision. I don't want any of you hating me for saying this about Zayn because in the end I have no say over his decision. If this is what he wants and if this is going to make him happy and healthy that's all I want for him. That's what we all should want for them all really.

On to my second point, I have a lot of stories but this is probably my favourite, it has helped me get through a lot. I was just curious to see who would actually keep reading this? And if I should even bother with this story anymore seeing as Zayn's not a member of One Direction anymore, which mean's he now technically doesn't belong on this website :(

I'm really sad about this all and I really hope all the boys, including Zayn, are okay, and that we can all stick together and stay strong and encourage the boys to continue making amazing music :)

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