Have A Little Mercy...

I smiled as my eyes flicked open.
The sound of my mum clattering around downstairs, listening to Billy Idol-White Wedding i took in the lyrics:
'Its a nice day to start again'
And you know what? It is.


It is. Indeed it is. I texted Mercedes yesterday night asking her to meet me outside my mums at 7.00am this morning, before school and to bring Shay and Jesse along with her. At first she was confused and then she agreed and so did they, i assume.

The smell of bacon and coffee, and the shouting of my name. the signal the day has begun.

I Jump up out of bed and get in to my dreary school uniform, i had a note for my trainers. A real one today, not forged! Lucky me! I run downstairs, my mum makes sure i eat, seeing me chew and swallow every last bit of it. i only recovered from bulimia last month, i wasnt meant to return to school yet, but i am, and the doctors can't stop me now!

Just i swallow the last drop of coffee the door bell rings and i know what i have too do...

I reach in my bag and make sure all three of them are still in my bag. Yep. They are.

I run past my mum down to the bottom of my block, knowing who was going to be stood at the bottom.

"Hey Shay, Yo Jesse, 'Sup Mercedes" I call from the second floor still running down the stairs.

They all sigh and chorus "what do you want then, Mercy?"

I Threw them the three carefully wrapped parcels in my bag.

"Look, i know you probably dont want to forgive me, but please hear me out and accept my tokens of apoligeticness"

"You have until the bus stop to explain everything" Gnarls Shay

"Right, July last year was the worst time of my life, as you three are probably aware... me and Kash broke up and thats' how it all began, i started having panic attacks cos i thought everyone hated me, then that brought on the self harm which led to purging and bulimia. Im sorry i pushed you guys out i realise you were only trying to help me out, and ive spent the last two years of my life feeling like im a prison ccell cos i lost my worlld cos i lost you,,," i drown off in my own words as they all stare at me in shock horror as i told them the harsh reality of what my life had become since they'd been gone.

They loved there presents, not because they were expensive, but because they were our memories.
i got them each a locket with a picture of all of us on the front :

and it reads this on the back;

Your friendship is a gift Oh so precious and so rare
Sometimes I take it for granted
Sometimes I do despair

Some days I say I love you
Some days I treat you bad
I say things I understand but
I truly do love you.

I cant believe they forgave me, im on top of the world right no baby. nothing can stop me getting my life back on track right now, nothing WOOHOO!

Notes

Okay don't hate me, i know 1D haven't made an appearance yet, but they will soon, but forgive me this is my 4th attempt writing this. and its 5.30am, luckily i don't go school at the moment, so maybe i'll update tomorrow :P
Bye <3
-Nemo