(A/N: I found reading the chapter Beside You helpful before reading this. Just as a refresher!)




“Is this okay?” I sighed, running my hands over my dress for the millionth time.

“Babe, you look fine, I promise!” Harry slinked an arm around me.

“Are you sure you want to come? I won’t be mad if you stay home.” I smiled, looking up at him.

To be honest, I was worried to sit down and watch the video with Harry. Ashton had told me that no one had seen it yet, except their manager. The rest of the guys wanted to wait for the surprise of the video at the premier. Apparently, the manager was insisting this was going to take the band right over the top. It was going to expand their fan base and gain them respect in the industry. He called it ‘sensual and explicit’, not two words I wanted to hear Ashton Irwin say about a video where I’m basically fucking his bandmate while dating someone else.

When I called him, he explained that since Harry was their best mate, my fiancé and in town, he had to come. I didn’t want Harry to come. I’m so nervous. After the whole ‘Luke incident’ yesterday with the paparazzi, I was terrified to have Harry see this video. I knew what we filmed, even though I had never seen it, but Harry wasn’t going to be happy.

“We got to go babe, the car is here.” Harry smiled.

I nodded silently, slipping on my shoes and heading for the door. I didn’t have much time to plan something to wear so I dug out an old dress from our place. I was worried I was going to be underdressed but Harry insisted I’d be okay. Harry had on his typical attire. Skinny black jeans, a crispy white shirt and a blazer thrown over top of it, he looked exactly the same as he did on our first actual date.

I was curious as to why there was even being some form a premier held for the release of the video. Usually, artists just posted online and hoped for the best. Both Ashton and Harry explained it was some sort of publicity stunt for the band right before tour started. I didn’t question it any further. I figured they knew what they were doing and so did their people.

I fidgeted nervously in the elevator as we made our descend. Harry wrapped his fingers around me, giving my hand a squeeze.

“Nervous babe?” he asked.

“Yes, very.” I gave a weak smile. Not for the reasons you think though, I thought to myself.

“I’m sure the video turned out splendid. Trust me; Joe is one of the best directors I know. We’ve worked with him before.”

I’m sure it was nothing like this, I thought again. “Yeah, I know. I’m just worried. I’m not sure what about exactly.”

“It’ll be okay. I’m so proud of you either way. You’re gorgeous and the world loves you. The world loves the guys, so it’s going to be fine. I promise. And if it’s not, you’re still my smoking hot fiancée and we can come home and bang all night.” He winked over at me as the elevator opened.

I chuckled lightly as he walked us towards the building exit. Of course, there was endless amounts of paparazzi. I was growing tired of them, it had only been two days but that was two too many. We pushed our way through, ignoring all the hateful shouts. Harry had received a very unpleasant phone call from management last night stating that he needs to keep calm and not blow up on anymore paps before the tour because they don’t need negativity going into it. He was good to his word and kept this mouth shut and head down before scooting into the car.

“You make quite the pair tonight.” Vick said as he closed the door. I learned Vick was our driver from now on in the city. He was nice; I didn’t mind him at all.

I smiled looking over at Harry; we did make a pretty cute couple, especially dressed up. I snuggled into his side as Vick hopped in the driver’s seat and pulled away. We were going to the Ziegfeld Theatre for the video. It was a little fancy for a music video premier if you asked me, but once again, I wasn’t questioning anything.


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“Alright, see you lot later.” Vick smiled as he helped me out of the car.

We had arrived at the Ziegfeld and were being anxiously awaited by the media and fans lining the red carpet. A red carpet? This was all insane to me, but I was going for it. Any publicity is good publicity, right? Damnit, I needed to get a publicist. Harry had to call and approve of this before he actually could agree to come with his management. Maybe I needed someone to manage my life. Maybe then I’d get into fewer shenanigans. I straightened the wrinkles in my dress before looking out into the crowd of people.

It wasn’t as big as the movie premier I went to with Harry, and it certainly wasn’t as big as the Grammy’s, it was moderately sized though. Fans lined one side of the walkway, media the other. I smiled as I listened to the crowd shout and cheer for whoever was already here. Harry pulled me from my daydream as he laced our fingers together and started towards the crew workers.

After approaching the woman with the clipboard, I zoned out as she droned on and on. I knew I should be listening but Harry would fill me in later. She finally finished her spiel and sent us on our way.

Without even asking Harry began to tell me what she said. I fell in love with this man over the littlest things again and again every day.

“So basically she just said walk at our own pace and enjoy ourselves. Someone will greet us at the other end and show us where to go from there.” He smiled, squeezing my hand.

“I love you.” I smiled up at him.

“I know you’re shit at paying attention when things are most important.” He bopped my nose with his free hand.

“Shut up.” I stuck my tongue out.

We meandered our way onto the carpet and smiled happily. This time around our happiness wasn’t fake or forced. I was genuinely happy. That’s why I was so nervous about this video. Yes, it was a video. Yes, we’re acting. Yes, it’s all fake. Yes, I was told what to do. No, I wasn’t sure Harry would believe any of that. It wasn’t even the fact that I’m basically naked rolling around in bed with Luke that scared me, it was Harry not believing it was all for the shoot. Considering my dodgy past with cheating and even more so recently the whole Luke rumors, I was worried.

I smiled up at Harry, hiding my fear completely. I loved Harry and he loved me, he had to believe me. We continued to walk down the carpet, stopping every now and then to pose for a few pictures or go over and say hi to a fan or two.

“Show it off.” Harry whispered into my ear as we stopped again. “I’m going to walk over to the fans and let you stand alone. Show it off.”

He smiled wide as talked. I knew exactly what he meant. I smiled back; I couldn’t be more excited for this moment. This was our first actual event as an engaged couple. He pecked my lips softly before jogging over to sign a couple autographs. I was in the spotlight now.

I placed my left hand very predominately on my hip, popping it out for good measure. Everyone knew I was engaged but why not clear all the rumors or speculations up for sure. Plus, this gave them a great picture of my ring. Everyone had supposedly been dying to see a quality picture of it. I’m not sure how the other ones from the airport weren’t good enough. I accidently flashed my entire hand in front of a huge crowd. Someone had to have pictures. But whatever, this was the perfect place and night to do it.

I ran my left hand through my straight hair, putting the ring on display even more. I didn’t want to be in your face about it, but I wanted people to look at it. It was the most gorgeous ring I had even seen in my entire life. It was a little too big for my hand, if you asked me, but I wasn’t complaining. I was entirely grateful for everything, Harry, my job, the ring, my new lifestyle, my friends and especially my family.

I decided I had been alone long enough and went over to find Harry. He was chatting it up with a few fans, all who screamed as I walked over. Was I a celebrity now? This is weird.

“Oh my god! You look beautiful! Sign this please?” one girl asked.

“Sure! And thank you!” I took the paper she held, scribbling my signature on it.

“You’re really engaged?” another girl asked.

I shared a big smile with Harry before answering. “Yes, we are.”

“Oh goodness. Can we see the ring?” she asked.

I nodded, holding up my hand for the girls to look at it. Their jaws all dropped and snapped pictures like crazy. I couldn’t help but smile. Harry placed a hand on my waist, leaving a short kiss on my cheek. He earned a collective ‘awwwe’ sending his smile into over drive. He loved letting people know I was his and how much he loved me.

We finished talking to some more fans before making our way down to the rest of the carpet. We had finally reached the end when another crew member approached us.

“Miss McMichael, how are you tonight?” she smiled politely. I recognized her from the shoot.

“Hi, Cindy…” I paused, her face lit up with a huge smile, letting me know I got it right. “I’m great how are you?”

“Doing well. The lads will be here any minute so we’re just letting people know where they need to be seated and by when. I can show you over to your seats whenever you’re ready.” She said.

“This is my fiancé, Harry Styles.” I smiled, introducing the two.


“It’s a pleasure to meet you! I’m surprised our paths haven’t crossed before with all the time I’ve spent with the lads.” Harry shook her hand.

“I know! This is actually the first shoot I’ve worked on with them, but it’s my pleasure.” She smiled.

“We’re ready to go in now, if we’re no longer needed out here.”

“Yes, right this way.” Cindy smiled.

We had been walking with her and were in the building. We walked down a hallway that opened up onto the stage; we took the few steps down to the seats and continued to follow her. She stopped in front of the second row of seats. I took in my surroundings. There was a large balcony filled with screaming fans, a few lower sections filled with roped off fans and a bunch of important looking people filled the middle part of the lower seats. The place was packed. There was a large projector screen on the center of the stage. This was awesome, over kill, but awesome.

“We have you two sitting up here with the band and the other girls in the video.” She pointed to two seats near the end of the row. “Sit where you’d like and the rest will fill in.”

I nodded, noticing the very blonde girl coming towards our row of seats. I eagerly squealed causing a mini scene. The fans finally noticed Harry, Lucy and I were all in the building, and erupted. Most of them were cheering at Harry.

“SPENCER!” Lucy threw herself into my arms.

“Babe, how are you!”

“Good! You?” she smiled.

“I’m doing just fine.” I smirked.

“So I hear, let me fucking see it!” she rolled her eyes. I held up my hand with a giggle. “Damnit, that’s huge.”

“It’s gorgeous.” I couldn’t wipe the smile off my face.

“Well done Harry, it’s perfect.” Lucy smiled, hugging Harry. “Congrats you two!”

“Thanks Luc.” Harry said as they separated.

“Excuse me, the boys are backstage and would love to see you three before they start the show.” Cindy came back over to us. We followed her back up the steps and backstage to see the guys all smiling like idiots.

“HARRY CAME YES!” Ashton fist pumped. I rolled my eyes, receiving my hug from Calum.

“Stunning as always Spencer.” he smirked before shaking Harry’s hand.

Ashton and Mikey engulfed me in double hug, smashing between them leaving me little air. I couldn’t help but laugh. They were too much. I shimmied my way out, laughing.

“You guys suck.” I rolled my eyes.

“No you suuuuck.” Mikey stuck his tongue out.

“Only sometimes.” Harry shrugged, before turning back to whatever him and Calum were talking about. He earned a round of ooohhhhh’s from everyone else, and a nice glare from me. He needed to wipe that stupid grin off his face.

I rolled my eyes again and turned to greet Luke. He smiled down brightly at me. I received his hug, letting it go when he squeezed a little tight.

“Hi Spencer, excited?” he asked happily.

“Nervous but excited.” I chuckled, a bit awkwardly. He pulled me aside and began to talk in a hushed tone.

“Look, I haven’t seen it yet, but I told Ashton not to invite Harry. I remember what filming was like so I know it’ll be something hot. If worse comes to worse, I’ll talk to him. Okay?”

I nodded, hugging Luke again. This was nice. Luke had been short and rude with me the last time we met. It was a healthy change of pace. “Thank you Luke.”

“By the way, congrats.” He smiled, as we walked back over to the group.

“YES! I BELIEVE CONGRATULATION IS IN ORDER!” Ashton said disappearing and returning all within 5 seconds with a bottle of champagne. “To the cutest little damn couple I’ve ever seen. All the best and I better be invited to the wedding.”

He popped the champagne letting it overflow all over the floor. Everyone cheered and clapped excitedly. I loved my friends. Ashton handed the bottle to Harry who took a large swig and passed it to me. I followed my fiancé’s lead and took a huge gulp. I passed it to Lucy who was standing next to me. The bottle went around coming back to me and Harry. There wasn’t much left so we split it. Probably not our finest idea in the current moment, but we’d live.

“Okay, guys on in 5.” Cindy said, removing the empty bottle from Harry’s hands. “I’ll need you lot to head to your seat.”

We did as we were told, scooting into the middle of the row, leaving plenty of room on either side of us. I sat in between Harry and Lucy. I was so excited that Lucy and Calum were working out. They were adorable and it made sense. They were the only couple from the video that needed to happen in real life.

The lights dimmed and the audience went silent. A spotlight flickered on as the boys clumsily walked onto stage. They were lucky they had musical talent, because they were too weird to make it any way else. They all held microphones, indicating it was about to get interesting. They waited for the crowd, mainly the fans, to settle before speaking.

“Hello! Hi! Wow!” Ashton shouted into his mic. “Look at all you lovely faces.”

“Guys, this place is packed!” Calum added. “Hi everyone!”

I realized this was for publicity and someone was probably recording it so they needed to play up the fans.

“Well, as you know, we’re 5 Seconds of Summer. I’m Ashton.”

“I’m Calum!”

“Hello loves, I’m Michael.”

“Hey, Luke!”

I giggled at the way they introduced themselves, so typical.

“We’re so excited to have all of you here with us tonight! We’re so incredibly excited! We can’t wait to debut this ‘Beside You’ video.” Luke smiled.

“We haven’t seen it yet either, so we’re pretty stoked.” Calum added.

“We just want to thank everyone who helped us create this video. Joe Bale for being a kick ass director, the girls we were lucky enough to work with rocked. So thank you Spencer McMichael, Lucy Winterbourne who are both fortunate enough to be here with us tonight. Sadly, Rebecca Henry and Courtney Fields had prior engagements but we want to thank them as well. Cindy Lowry our beautiful set assistant who kicked our ass into gear on set. Hank Lee for this awesome concept, we had so much fun shooting. All the extras that were kind enough to donate time and everyone else who helped put this together. I know I’m missing people, I don’t know why they assign me the job of remembering the people to thank.” Ashton chuckled. “But if I missed you, we love you and thank you!”

“I guess it’s time then.” Michael laughed.

“We really hope you guys enjoy this video, it was a blast to make but was entirely worth it.” Calum smiled.

“We know it took us a long while to get out from filming, but after fixing the technical difficulties with editing, we finally have it!” Michael said.

“Without further ado, here it is! Enjoy!” Luke shouted.

The guys made their way to their seats, Calum sitting next to Lucy, followed by Ashton, Mikey and Luke. I sat in anticipation as some form of ad for the upcoming tour rolled. The guys popped up on the screen next.

“Hi I’m Ashton Irwin.”

“I’m Luke Hemmings.”

“I’m Michael Clifford.”

“I’m Calum Hood.”

“And we’re 5 Seconds of Summer.” They said in unison.

“We hope you enjoy this new video we threw together for you.” Luke said.

“Really, you better like it.” Ashton stuck out his tongue.

“Don’t tell me what to do.” Calum rolled his eyes at Ashton.

“This is the video premier for our new song.” Michael shook his head.

“BESIDE YOU!” they shouted again in unison.

The screen faded to black and a clock ticker popped up. It started at 5 and began to count down. Harry reached over, grabbing my hand between his. He smiled as I looked over at him. I had no idea what emotion I was wearing on my face right now. Honestly, I was scared shitless.

It faded into the video. It started with Ashton and Rebecca, strolling hand in hand laughing and enjoying one another. The words started and it switched over to Lucy running into the ocean with Calum close on her tail. It focused a couple seconds on them playing in the water and splashing each other. Calum picked her up and swung her around as it faded into Luke and me, smiling at each other in the bed. He was propped up leaning over me, running his hand up and down my body, my eyes closed tight. We looked happy, which was good. Harry’s hand squeezed mine, I couldn’t tell if he was happy or not but I couldn’t peel my eyes away from the screen. It went over to Mikey and Courtney playing video games, tossing cheese puffs into one another’s mouths, and arguing over the game.

As the chorus came on it panned out into all of us girls sitting alone looking super sad. It zoomed in on me crying over the picture, then Lucy sitting alone on the beach looking distraught; it changed to Courtney sitting in the room somberly playing video games by herself, then to Rebecca overlooking the valley of the hill they walked up on a bench alone. We all looked sad; we pulled it off very well! I was happy so far.

The next verse started and my heart began to race. I had no idea where the big sexual moments were going to be used. It showed Ashton and Rebecca on top of the hill together on the beach, smiling and laughing. He had his arm wrapped around her tight as he looked down at her. It panned to Mikey and Courtney who had ditched the video games and were cuddling on the couch. They made them look like they were talking and carrying on in a goofy manner. The focus changed to Calum and Lucy. They were glued to each other in the water. She had her legs wrapped around him and they were kissing. At least Luke and I weren’t the only ones. They pulled apart and he said something to her, causing her to throw her head back in laughter.

The next chorus started and similar things to the first chorus happened, except without my parts. The girls were all sitting alone crying looking sad. This time though, they added the boys as well. They were sitting alone, staring into nothing or singing into the camera. They pulled off sad pretty well.

Finally, the chorus ended and it switched to me and Luke. It was us kissing, the part where I flipped him over. It stayed on us as we kissed more and more. We stayed embraced throughout the entire bridge, the camera zooming in little things, like our hands intertwined, his hands on me, my hands on him and then back out to a whole picture.

As the final chorus started, the focus was still on Luke and me making out. His hands were sliding up and down my body and my hands tangled through his hair. It flipped back and forth between us kissing and me crying over the picture. As I dropped the picture, it went back to the other girls. It panned through all of us, showing raw emotions. The guys were thrown in singing and jamming like they were at the concert, just like they filmed. It was a great way to end the video. It made it seem like they were far away performing a show and this is what their ladies were doing without them. Crying, and being sad.

As the video faded off the crowd exploded. If I wasn’t so worried about what Harry was thinking right now, I would have went wild. The video was very good. It captured the words and feelings perfectly. The emotion was there and it made sense. I couldn’t bring myself to even look at Harry though.

The cheering died down as another video clip began to roll. It was behind the scenes footage.

“Shut up!” it was Mikey yelling at Calum. “Cheese puffs are good.”

It showed a couple more outtakes, Calum tripping and falling on the beach, Ashton doing some sort of weird jig up the hill, Lucy crossing her eyes and sticking her tongue out at Calum, Rebecca wiping her forehead like she was sweating even though it was freezing, me and Ashton making faces at one another in the dressing room, Luke laying in the bed like he was a seduction master, and so on and so on.

“We’re on the set of ‘Beside You’ by 5sos right now.” Joe came onto the screen. “It’s been fun so far, but we’ll see how it ends up. The guys are great, big goofballs.”

“Hello. I’m Calum hood and I approve this message.” Ashton popped up on the screen, mocking Calum’s voice. “I like Lucy in a swim suit.” Everyone burst out into laughter at him.

It switched to Mikey looking defeated. “We just played an actual round and she beat me!”

Courtney pitcher her two cents in. “I think he let me win.” She winked.

It went on and on like this for a few minutes. It was really a fun shoot, even if the first day didn’t go so well. I smiled as the lights came back on and the guys made their way back up to the stage.

They rambled on and on about how they loved it and hoped we all did too. They talked about the tour with One Direction, thanks Harry for coming and rambled some more. They were holding a meet and greet and then all of us as a group were going to dinner, they left that part out to the fans.

We stood around talking with a few people as the guys went off to do the meet and greet before dinner. I wasn’t paying much attention to the guy Harry was talking too, as I was engulfed in my own conversation with Lucy. Harry made his way over to me, a frown pressing his lips.

“Babe, I don’t feel so well. Do you mind if we skip dinner?” he sighed.

“Are you okay?” I worried.

“Yeah, I think I just drank too much on an empty stomach and I feel sick.”

“Maybe if we stay for dinner you’ll feel better.” I tried.

“You can stay then, I’ll go.” he said.

I couldn’t read his body language right now. I was worried he was honestly sick. I excused myself from Lucy and joined Harry as we walked towards the exit. He passed the meet and greets room, sneaking in between fans to let the lads know what was going on. They all told Harry to feel better for the tour; they’d see him in a few weeks and told me to hurry onto the tour so we can hang out.

We left the building and called Vick to see where he was since we wanted to leave early. I had no way of knowing what was about to come at me once we got back to the apartment.



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(HARRY POV)

I was really trying not to lose my cool but it wasn’t working all that well. I couldn’t have sat through dinner if I tried. I was mad, not furious but mad. She should have told me this is what the video entailed. I would have at least been prepared! She was rolling around in bed with Luke basically naked! And their kissing? Didn’t seem like it needed much acting tips, that’s for sure.

The car ride back to the flat was silent. I didn’t want to say anything and blow up in front of Vick. We were currently walking down the hall to our door. As she unlocked the door, I felt my temperature rising. Mad. Not furious. Mad.

She set her stuff down and kicked her shoes off walking into the kitchen.

“Baby, do you want tea or something to take?” she called.

“No.” I said, shortly.

I listened as she fiddled with the Keurig, making herself some coffee. I rolled my eyes and went into the bedroom to change. After changing into comfortable sweats and a plain t-shirt I headed for the living room. I posted myself up on the couch and flicked on the telly. I aimlessly searched through the channels before ending up on South Park. It was mindless humor and that’s what I needed.

I didn’t want to blow this video out of proportion. That’s why I was trying to avoid Spencer. I knew I couldn’t avoid her all night, we lived together. I heard her in the kitchen, doing whatever. I got engrossed in the show and didn’t even realize when she joined me in the living room. She had also changed into a pair of soft shorts and tank top. She held her mug with both hands, as if she was cold.

She sat down next to me on the couch, setting her cup on the coffee table next to my propped up feet.

“Are you okay? Do you need anything?” she asked, placing a hand on my forehead to check my temperature. She wasn’t going to find anything, I wasn’t really sick. Mad. Just mad.

“I’m okay. Thanks.” I said, never looking away from the TV.

“Talk to me please.” She sighed. “You’re doing the bottle up thing and waiting until you can’t handle it anymore and you lose it on me, thing.”

“I’m fine.” I lied.

“I know it’s about the video.” I could feel her intense glare on me.

“Just a little upset, that’s all.” I shrugged.

“Why?”

“You just happened to be rolling around in bed with a man that wasn’t me. Almost naked. That’s all.”

“It was acting Harry, I got paid to do it.” she sighed.

“It didn’t look like acting.” I was losing patience.

See it wasn’t even the whole video thing I was mad about; Louis had sort of ruined my day this morning. He had sent me pictures I never ever wanted to see. They were of Spencer and Luke making out in some alley. It looked like it was from the night we all went clubbing before we came back to the states. I wasn’t happy, but I was letting it go. But then when I saw the video, it occurred to me that I was a damn fool. I shouldn’t have proposed at all. She lied about nothing going on with Luke.

“Harry, I’m not going to argue with you over this. It was acting, I don’t like Luke.” She placed a hand on my shoulder, I quickly shrugged it off.

“Then why did I receive pictures of the two of you making out in some alleyway?” I shot back, looking at her for the first time since we came home.

“What?” she looked genuinely confused.

“It’s you and Luke pressed up against the club we went to wall. It doesn’t look like you needed to be acting there.” I shot.

“Harry, I can explain that.”

“Yes, I’d love to hear it.”

“Not that this is ever an excuse but I was hammered out of my mind for starters. Also, I won’t lie we had some sort of weird awkward chemistry going on. It wasn’t right but it happened.”

“You think its okay to make out with people that aren’t me?” I felt my blood boil.

“I never said it was okay!” she shouted. “I was wrong. I gave the idea of me and Luke a chance and I never should have! I’m sorry okay!”

“What do you mean gave it a chance?” I confused.

“Those other pictures are from some sort of mock date we went on.” She sighed, admitting defeat. At least she wasn’t lying, but I certainly didn’t like the truth. She hid this from me for months now.

“Date? You let him take you on some kind of date?” I shouted, jumping to my feet.

“I had some sort of nervous breakdown! I was so in love with you I was scared! I thought maybe I can calm myself down by having someone else prove I’m supposed to be with you or not! I loved you so much I was terrified. That trip to London was the one that made me realize I needed to be with you forever!”

“YOU WENT ON UCKING DATE WITH LUKE HEMMINGS?” I yelled.

“Yes.” She said, softly.

“Spencer Delaney McMichael, I never should have proposed. I’m a fucking idiot.”

“Harry, don’t say that. Let’s talk about this, no yelling just talking.” She begged.

“Talk, okay. Yeah, let’s talk.” I sat back down, venom in my veins.

This hadn’t even begun. If she wanted to talk, she’d get a talk. That’s for damn sure.

Notes

HI GUYS, SO I'M LEAVING FOR MY CRUISE TODAY SO I WON'T POST FOR A WHOLE WEEK. I'M SO SORRY. I KNOW IT'S BEEN TAKING ME LONGER LATELY BUT I'VE BEEN SO BUSY.

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