“You guys do this all the time?” I yawned dragging a hand down my face.

“Fuck that, never this early.” Calum looked at me.

“You have a bad mouth Calum Hood.” I looked back.

“Comes in handy more times than not.” He winked.

“Gross!” I threw the nearest object to me, which happened to be the pillow from the couch, at him.

“What? You don’t want a piece of me?” Cal joked, not able to hold back his laughter.

“You’re sick.” I rolled my eyes, laughing along with him.

“Nah, I understand. I don’t have the whole lip ring thing going on.” He smirked over at me as he got up from the couch we were sharing. That’s all he said. I stared blankly at the back of him as he left the room. What the hell does that mean?

“Coffee?” Ashton asked, scaring the shit out of me.

“Jesus.”

“No, Ashton.” He chuckled sitting down.

“I’ll take it.” I smiled, taking the cup from his hands. I didn’t even care what was in it. I needed a pick me up.

“So are you ready for today?” he smiled.

“Should be interesting.” I shrugged.

“Yeah, no doubt.” He looked over at me, completely changing his playful attitude. “What did Harry, erm, say about the whole situation?”

“I didn’t have the balls to tell him.” I sighed. “I just told him that we’d figure out roles out today.”

“Yeah, I don’t really think it’ll be that bad. Although, have you seen what you’re meant to wear?” he raised an eyebrow.

“Not yet, I was going to head over there soon and check it out. They said they’re going to film Mikey’s scene first, then all of the band parts then me and Luke, then you and Cal once it warms up a bit.”

“Well, don’t get mad at me for asking you to do this.” he said.

“Why?” he didn’t answer. “Ashton.”

“May or may not just be a bra and undies.” He looked down. “Luke may or may not be in just boxers.”

“What?! I thought I would at least be in more than that!” I huffed.

“Us too, Cals girl has on a skimpy little bathing suit too.” Ashton tried to make the situation seem better.

“Yes, but they’re on a beach! It’s supposed to be like that.” I slumped all the way back into the couch. Seriously? Could this get any worse? It was bad enough I had to pretend like I was enjoying my last moments in bed with Luke, now I’m in lingerie? Perfect. Harry better never see this video. Who am I kidding though? He’s best friends with these guys, of course he’ll see it!

“Don’t sweat it, okay?” Ashton placed a reassuring hand on my shoulder. “It’s going to be a great shoot. We see the chemistry between you and Luke and while yes, sometimes it’s a little alarming how well you two blend, it’s going to make for a perfect scene. You’ll really sell the video and that’s what we want. Plus you’re like the hottest growing celebrity right now, we couldn’t have gone wrong with you. Beautiful, amazing, flawless, and friendly. We really owe you.”

“You don’t owe me anything, Ash.” I smiled. “But thank you.”

“Ms. McMichael…” a younger woman came into the room. “We need to take a few pictures with you and Luke before we shoot the scene. Could you follow me?”

“That’s my cue to go get ready anyways.” Ashton said. He noticed the worried look on my face as we both stood up. He stopped me from walking with the woman. He placed a hand on each of my shoulders and gave me a serious stare. “Trust me, you’ll be fine.”

I offered a weak smile and exited the room the way the woman went. I caught up to her just as we entered into wardrobe.

“Okay, we need you to change into this here…” she pointed to some clothes on the rack. I nodded and went over to change. “There’s a screen here you can go behind. Let me know when you’re ready.”

I took the clothes down and went around the screen she had showed me. The outfit was honestly really cute. It was a black Nirvana band tank, clear that the sleeves had been cut off, a pair of leather type legging and they paired it up with a ratty old pair of combat boots. I looked like I would really be dating Luke. That’s the type of girl he would go for. I smiled as I slipped the last boot on and headed around the screen to find the lady that lead me here. She told me to follow her and I did as I was told. We ended up in a room that was set up for a concert. She told me that this is where the guys would shoot the band rocking out scenes for the video. It was filled with extras to make it appear as if they were performing a real show. I spotted Luke out of the corner of my eye, sitting in a chair having his make-up touched up. I had already had mine done with I got there so I was ready to go. The lady said something to him and he nodded getting up, coming over to me.

“Hey.” He said. This was going to be so awkward today. “You rock the band tee.”

“Thanks, it’s a little bit different from my usual attire.” I smiled. “I may have to get one.”

“You can always take on of ours; me and the guys have a million. Just don’t take Cal’s Green Day one, he’ll kill you.” he laughed. Maybe it wouldn’t be so bad. We were getting along like friends do. I know I had only been standing with him for about a minute but I didn’t feel one ounce of sexual tension between us. I guess maybe there would be enough of that later when we were rolling around in bed.

“So what are we here for?” I asked, looking around taking in the situation.

“No idea, they just said they needed to get a Polaroid of us together.” He shrugged.

“I wonder why.” He wasn’t really sure either. We fell into a comfortable silence, waiting for someone to come over and tell us what to do.

“Okay! There they are!” Joe came into the room, way too excited at this hour. “So we need to get a picture of you two together for a later scene. As you can see we’re in the ‘concert’ room, so what we’re going to do is, we’re going to get some people up on stage like they’re performing just incase they make it into the picture. We have all these extras here to jam out for when the guys are really performing for the video. Now we’re going to dim the lights and make it seem like a real show. We need to grab a picture of you guys together because later in the video, Spencer, you’re going to be sitting on the bed crying over the picture because you just miss Luke so much. Since you don’t have any pictures together that we could just use, we’re creating it. This is like you two are at a show together and someone snaps a candid picture of you both. We want you Luke, to wrap an arm around Spencer pulling her in close but remember we need to see your faces so don’t pull her in completely. We want you Spencer, you be looking up at Luke with the biggest smile on your face, like no one else exists in the world. Luke, be smiling back down at her. You guys are in love, you are going to be together forever. Remember that.” Joe looked between us. “We’ve noticed the great chemistry between you two, so I’m really glad you’ve been paired together. You two are the main focus of this video. We really need you to sell the love. Can you guys handle that?”

“Yeah, we’ll be okay.” I nodded.

“Yeah, shouldn’t be hard to fake.” Luke shrugged.

“Alright, Cindy!” Joe shouted. The lady who had me change and brought me here quickly came over with a Polaroid camera in hand. “Cindy is going to take the picture, we’ll shake it and see what it looks like and see if we need another, okay?”

We both nodded. This wasn’t so bad so far. It was simple to look like you were just happy to be with someone. Luke was a good kid, he was fun to be around, I didn’t think this was going to be hard at all. At least not this part. It was the simple part. If only the rest of the video was just smiling for a picture.

The lights dimmed and Luke and I looked at each other. A gentle strum of a guitar started to play behind us and lights began to flash. It really was set up for the boys to rock out. Luke threw an arm around my waist and pulled me in so we were almost touching.

“Closer!” we heard Joe shout.

Luke did as he was told and pulled me in close. You could still see us clearly, but we certainly looked close enough to be together. Laugh Spencer, you’re supposed to be looking at him smiling and laughing. Why was this so hard? I did it with Harry all the time. That’s why. It was with Harry, nothing was ever forced with Harry.

“You really look beautiful today.” Luke whispered into my ear.

I felt a small blush spread across my cheeks. “Thanks.”

“At least I didn’t use some cheeky pick up line like Ashton would have.” He smiled, exposing dimples I didn’t know he had.

“You have dimples?” I asked, smiling up at him.

“Yes, I hear you like those.” He smirked.

I couldn’t stop the smile that spread across my face. I gently slapped his chest, letting my hand rest there. He grabbed it with his free hand, braiding our fingers together.

“Am I wrong though?” he smiled again.

“No, I like a dimple or two.” I said, looking into his eyes. “Lip rings don’t hurt either.”

“CUT!” Joe said. “Cindy, did you get it?”

“I got a few.” She smiled. “You’re right Joe, the chemistry is there. This is going to be an easy shoot for this pair.”

I watched as she shook out the pictures she had in her hand. I hadn’t even noticed the flash go off once, let alone four times. I was hoping at least one of these pictures was good enough for them, I didn’t want to get into that situation again. I noticed the pictures starting to come in clear. Cindy looked through them, smiling at one. She handed it to Joe.

“Perfect.” He smirked. “Alright, Spencer, we’re going to shoot the concert scene. You and the other girls can home hang out in the back and watch if you want.”

I nodded and headed out of the room without another word to Luke. I let that go too far. I never should have said what I did. I quickly found the bathroom. I leaned onto the sink counter, staring at myself in the mirror. What was I doing? A little harmless flirting wasn’t bad, but I was taking it past that. Admitting I liked his dimples? And the lip ring comment! Come on Spencer. I mentally face palmed at myself. At least Harry wouldn’t know what went into the behind the scenes. He’d only see the finished product. I could surely just say we did what we had to and that was that.

I calmed myself and headed out the door. I slammed into a body. “Shit, sorry.”

“No! We were just looking for you!” Rebecca, one of the other girls, said. “We’re going to go watch them film!”

“Sweet!” I smiled, getting into step with the other girls. They all seemed really nice. I was glad they weren’t stuck up.

We entered the ‘concert’ room and took a place along the back wall. We watched in silence for a few minutes before Lucy spoke.

“So what’s it like to be able to do this with your boyfriend?” Lucy smiled over at me.

“What do you mean?”

“Luke, you guys are together, right?” Rebecca added.

I couldn’t stop my laughter from escaping. “No!”

“You’re joking, right? We don’t care if you are.” Lucy said.

“Ladies, no! I’m not with Luke. We aren’t even talking or anything.” I smiled, I couldn’t help but laugh. I don’t get why everyone thought we were together. We didn’t even seem like we were!

“You could have fooled us.” Lucy smiled. “Last night we all shared a cab after the meeting and we just thought you guys really had something going on. The way you both smiled when your name was the only one left…”

I interrupted. “I didn’t smile.”

“Oh honey, but you really did.” Courtney looked over at me.

“Then the way he made sure you were okay with the bed scene. We figured it was because you were together and you’d have to take your real life moments to the screen.” Lucy added.

“Yeah plus we see the way you guys looks at each from across the room. We totally thought you guy were dating, or at least hooking up!” Rebecca smiled. “I wouldn’t blame you, I mean look at him.”

“I’m in a relationship so it’s never going to happen no matter what I think.” I sighed.

“Oh? With who?” Lucy smiled.

Did they really not know? I was so relieved everyone didn’t know every detail about me. “Harry Styles.”

“From One Direction? Oh my I knew you looked familiar.” Rebecca snickered. “This is going to be awkward.”

“You’re telling me! I couldn’t even tell Harry what we were going to be doing last night.” I ran a hand through my pin straight hair.

“Don’t worry about it.” Lucy shrugged. “It’s all acting.”

“I know, but they still have to tour with each other and Harry can be a bit jealous over irrational things.” I rolled my eyes.

“So tell us though, we haaaave to know…” Lucy started. “If Harry wasn’t in the picture, what would the down low with Luke be?”

“Well if Harry wasn’t around I wouldn’t know Luke.” I smiled, hoping I had avoided the question.

“Okay, pretend it didn’t matter. You and Luke know each other, you act like you do now. What would happen?” Rebecca pressed.

“I guess I’d give it a try.” I shrugged.

“Knew it!” Lucy high fived me. “Girl, you are living every girls dream.”

“Oh what I wouldn’t do to really get my hands all over Mikey.” Courtney smirked.

“It’s really not as glamourous as it seems, dating a celebrity.” I groaned.

“Really? It seems like it’d be amazing.” Rebecca smiled.

“Well it was for the first couple months, but then he left for tour and we hardly saw each other for 7 months. It was really rough.”

“Oh, I never thought about the touring. You have a job I assume so you can’t go with him.” Lucy added.

“Yeah, I work for Igor Boris in New York City.” I nodded.

“Damn girl! You really are every girls hero!” Lucy smiled.

I shrugged. “I’m an average girl living an above average life.”

“I like the sound of that.” Lucy looked over at me. Lucy and I were going to stay friends after this, I could just tell. She was tall and beautiful but completely down to earth.

“Courtney!” Cindy came over to our small huddle. “We’re ready for you. They’ve got most of the take they need for this and Joe wants to move right into you and Mikey. Spencer you’re on deck. Follow me, Courtney.”

“Wish me luck.” Courtney blew us a kiss as she walked away.

On deck. Great. Just what I needed to calm my nerves.



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“We need Spencer now.” I heard someone say from the hallway. I had been sitting in the waiting area, fidgeting for almost 2 hours now. I was nervous. I was freaking out. They had me change about a half hour ago so I was also in barely anything. They had given me a robe to wear over top of my skimpy outfit but it still wasn’t enough. I felt naked. They had redone my makeup for a more natural look and gave my hair a few natural looking curls. They wanted it to look like we’ve been ‘making vigorous love all night’ or so Joe said. I don’t want to make vigorous love with anyone but Harold Edward Styles. Not even pretend.

“Spencer, ready?” Cindy came into the room. I nodded silently, following her into a different room.

As we entered the room I noticed all 4 guys were in there. The other girls were nowhere to be found. Oh okay, that doesn’t make me twice as nervous. I couldn’t do this. Was it too late to back out? I shyly entered the room, trying not to be seen. But that wasn’t possible. I was the main focus of this video. Great.

“Spencer!” Ashton shouted, coming over to me. “You ready?”

“You look like you’re about to puke.” Mikey added.

“I’m fine.” I muttered out.

“Okay, Luke, Spencer, we’re ready.” Joe said flying into the room. I nodded at no one in particular.

“Spencer?” Calum snapped his fingers in front of my face. “You there?”

“Yes, zoned out.” I looked over at Luke, he had a slight grin on his face, but I had no clue why. Joe called us both over and began to talk excitedly.

“Okay! So this is important. We need to make this feel real. We want to start out by having you both get into the bed, Spencer we want you on your back and Luke we want you leaning on one elbow next her. With your free hand we want you to be pushing hair out of her face, trailing it up and down her side, at some point maybe interlock your fingers. Spencer, feel free to do whatever you want, feed off of him and make it believable! We’ll start with that okay?” Joe smiled, way too happy.

“Robes!” Cindy said. Luke shrugged his off quickly, leaving him in a pair of red and black plaid boxers. Typical Luke. “Spencer.” Cindy turned to me. I reluctantly untied my perfect bow and slipped the fabric off of my shoulders.

“Holy fuck.” I whipped my head around, facing the voice. “What?” Cal smiled cheekily at me.

“You look fit! Why are you so worried?” Ashton added.

“Yes.” Mikey just laughed.

I turned my attention back to Luke. His eyes looked like they were ready to pop out of his head. I smiled slightly, walking over to the bed. I crawled into bed, slipping my feet under the cover. I watched as Luke walked over to the other guys, murmuring something I couldn’t hear.

“Yeah, good luck with that.” I heard Cal laugh as Luke made his way over to me. He was laughing slightly, shaking his head.

“What?” I raised an eyebrow.

“You look fantastic.” He smiled, getting in next to me, facing the camera.

“Lucky you.” I winked. If I needed to pretend to be completely madly in love with this kid, I needed to get into character. If I was his girlfriend, I’d flirt right?

“Annnnnd action!” Joe said.

The music for our part of the song began to play. I smiled up at Luke as he brought a hand to my face. He brushed his thumb over my cheek, running his hands straight into my hair. He shifted his weight slightly as he let his hand play with my hair. He tangled his leg over mine, never breaking eye contact. I couldn’t help but smile. We were good at this acting thing. I bet we looked so in love.

He moved his hand from my hair, down onto my side. The pads of his fingers dragging across my bare skin gave me goose bumps. I closed my eyes at the feeling of his hands wandering my sides. He leaned in closer to my face, causing my eyes to snap open. A slight smirk tugged at the corner of his mouth. I reached my hand up to his face, stroking his cheek softly. His hand that was on my side, came to match mine. He took his fingers and laced them threw mine, resting them back on the mattress.

“CUT! BUT DON’T MOVE!” Joe shouted.

“Okay now we need you two to kiss. But none of that half assed ‘fake movie kiss’ shit. I want a real kiss. Start the kiss soft then let it grow intense. Spencer, when it feels right, flip him over and get on top of him. Let your legs rest on either side of his waist. However, we want you guys to be eye level, so Luke when she flips you, stay sitting up. We want you to make it look natural, we’ll shoot it as many times as we have too until the flip is smooth and coherent.” He paused, walking over to the bed. The entire time he had been talking, Luke and I hadn’t looked away from each other. This was going to be a good video, I feel like it seemed that our love was authentic. Joe flipped the covers back, leaving us completely exposed. “That’ll help you flip easier. Ready?”

“Yeah.” Luke said in a whisper. “You okay?”

I nodded without a word. I really didn’t feel like this moment need words. Was I okay? No, not really. I was practically naked in bed with a man that wasn’t my boyfriend. Sure, it was fake but still. And now I had to make out with him. What. No.

“And action!” the music started again and I saw a camera move closer to us.

Luke’s grip on my hand tightened a little and I noticed him swallow hard. At least he was nervous too.

He slowly brought his head down to mine, gently placing his lips on to mine. The kiss started out slow and meaningless. I didn’t feel a damn thing. It was hard to get into it when there was nothing there. He took his hand out of mine and slid it down my body and that’s when I felt it. Something inside of me lit up. My hands found his hair and the kiss picked up. His hand went down and gripped my hip tight. That was my cue. I lifted my leg slightly, tangling it with his as I turned us around. We flipped flawlessly, me landing on top of him. Our kiss never broke. He was sitting up like they wanted. More than one take? Yeah right, we’re pros. His hands roamed around my back and mine found the back of his head. I tugged at the ends of his hair. He let out a small moan into my mouth. He finally rested his hands on the bottom of my bum. I let my hands drag across his chest and back up around his neck. The kiss had to look real. It felt real. No. Spencer, the kiss did not feel real. This is acting. They had to cut soon, right? I rested my body on his, no space between our chests. His lips detached from mine, leaving traces down my neck. I leaned my head back enjoying the feel of his lips on my skin. Every now and then I’d feel the little scrap of his lip ring against me. Maybe Harry should get one of those. I felt my skin rise with more goose bumps as he made his way back to my lips. His fingers traced the top of the barely there lace boy shorts I had on and that’s when I finally heard it.

“CUT CUT CUT!” but it wasn’t Joe. I whipped my head around to see a very pissed off looking Ashton. He was Harry’s best friend. Fuck. But this was all acting so what did it matter?

“Are you guys fucking deaf?” He looked at us, the rest of the guys standing behind him looking speechless.

“What?” I asked, out of breathe.

“Joe called cut when Luke broke the kiss to assassinate your neck.” He rolled his eyes.

“I didn’t want to call it again because you guys faked the passion so well. It’s exactly what we were going for. We continued to film until Ashton cut in.” Joe smiled.

“Please don’t get up.” Luke whispered into my ear.

I knew exactly what he meant. After stopping and remembering what was going on and where we were, I felt it. That certainly wasn’t supposed to happen when you were acting. I looked at him. What was happening?

“Sorry man, we never heard him and we just wanted to make sure it looked real.” Luke shrugged.

“Guys, that was brilliant.” Joe smiled. “We don’t need any more takes of that. We got the shot. We just have a couple things to shoot with Spencer alone and you guys will be good to go for your part. Then we’ll move outside tomorrow and see if we can finish the video in record time.”

“Spencer, get up.” Ashton looked at me sternly. He was always the friendly, lovable one. Right now, he was the farthest thing from that.

“Can we have our robes?” Luke asked, still underneath me.

“Yeah, I bet you need yours dude.” Calum laughed, nudging Mikey in the side. The two cracked up way harder than they should have. “I would.” Cal shrugged.

We received our robes and I quickly threw it on and sat on the end of the bed. Luke tugged his on, stood up and quickly left the room. Cal came over to me, throwing an arm around my shoulder.

“Acting huh?” he smirked before following Luke.

Michael came over and sat down next to me. “So do you want to tell me what was going on in the hotel the other day?”

“Really was nothing, I promise.” I looked over at him. “We are just really good at making it look real.”

“Spencer, I’m not Ashton, I’m not going to run off and call Harry and tell him everything you say. Just be smart about it okay? If something is going on, just be honest with yourself. Tell Harry, don’t drag it out. I’m not trying to be an ass but we do have to tour with the lads for over a year. Things could be bad if you and Luke let it spiral out of control.”

I nodded at his words. He was right. I had to talk to Luke when I was done and set things straight. Nothing was happening, nothing was going to happen. Harry and I were happy.

“Thanks Michael.” I smiled. He pulled me into a side hug before leaving the same way as the rest of the guys.

“Everything okay?” Joe came over.

“Yeah, things are fine.” I smiled, standing up.

“Ready to move on?” I nodded. “Okay, this is where the picture comes into play. We’re going to put you into a satin robe over what you have on now for this. We want you to be sitting on the edge of the bed, looking at the picture. We need sad, very very very very sad. Cry even if you can. Just be so put out and distraught that your love is gone and he won’t be back for a very long time.” I nodded. “At some point when you feel like you’ve been sad enough, drop the picture onto the bed and cry into your hands.”

“Okay, I can do that.” I smiled.

“Alright, we’re going to have makeup come in and change your look to something more smoky, maybe we can get a bit of makeup running, really get into it. Hair is going to add a lot more curls too. We want it to remind the viewer of the sexual scene but we need you to look like you haven’t been with him. Got it?”

I nodded for the millionth time today. “Got it.”

Hair and makeup came in, touching me up and getting me all ready to go. Another lady came in with a new robe to change into. I felt powerful with all these people making me look perfect. It was like the time I went to the movie premier with Harry and Penny made me beautiful. I really could get used to that. After a few more minutes, I was ready to go.

Cindy handed me the picture of Luke and I from earlier. I took a good look at it. We looked like a real couple. We looked in love. That a lot tugged at my heart. I wasn’t supposed to be good at acting, I wasn’t an actress. But this, this looked scary real.

“Annnd action.” Joe said, music slowly fading in.

I held the picture tight in both hands. I couldn’t tear my eyes away from it. If it was so easy for me to fake this love with Luke for 8 hours of shooting a video, then what was stopping me from believing that I was faking my love for Harry. Maybe I wasn’t in love with Harry. Maybe I was in love with the idea of Harry. He had done everything a girl could only dream of from the beginning. He had proposed twice and I said no both times. If I loved him like I thought I did, would I really say no? I felt the first tear begin to fall. I saw the camera come up beside me, getting me from a lower angle. I cried for a couple more seconds, letting a tear literally fall onto the picture. Was I meant to do more than fake love with Luke? Why did I feel the way I did if I loved Harry?

I let the picture fall from my hands. I rested my elbows on my knees, dropping my head into my hands. I sobbed. This wasn’t acting though. This was real. This was me questioning things I didn’t have answers too. I ran a hand through my hair taking a huge breath. I looked towards the door as if Harry or Luke would walk through it and make all of my decisions for me. That just seeing one of them would be the answer to every question that was running through my mind.

“And cut.” Joe brought me from my daydream. “Spencer you are a complete natural at this. I could recast you over and over again. Have you ever thought about acting?”

“No, I think I’ll stick to the behind the scenes and design the clothes for it.” I laughed, wiping a stray tear.

“Well every take we took of you today was right on. Only needing one take is a huge deal and saves us a lot of time and money.”

“I’m glad I could help.” I laughed as someone handed me my robe. I stood up, unsure of what to do now.

“We’re all finished here so feel free to do whatever.” Joe smiled.

I pulled my robe tight around me and headed towards the wardrobe room. I quickly changed back into the clothes I had worn here this morning. I checked my phone and noticed I had a few missed calls from Harry and one from Emily. I had a couple stray texts. I couldn’t deal with anyone right now. I went back into the refreshment area and grabbed a bottle of water, plopping down on the couch. I had barely been sitting for a minute when someone called my name. I looked up making eye contact with Luke.

“Can we talk?” he cleared his throat awkwardly. I nodded, following him out of the room. We wandered down a few hallways until no one was in site. He opened a door for me and I followed him inside. He closed the door, locking it.

“Spencer,” he started.

“Look Luke, I don’t know what that was but it can’t ever happen again. I think we both just got caught up in the whole ‘being in love for the video’ thing. We acted it out really well and it was nice but that’s what it was, acting. Nothing more.”

“Spencer, you can’t stand there and tell me you don’t feel it too! All the time, not just filming.” He threw his hands into the air.

“IT WAS FAKE.” I shouted.

“No, it wasn’t at least not for me. I wouldn’t have gotten so fucking hard if it was fake. I would have just kissed you and called it a shoot. It’s so much more than that.” He took a step closer to me.

“It’s not my fault you can’t control your dick!” I looked at him.

“And if it was fake, you never would have let me take it to the extent I did. What if Ashton wouldn’t have yelled at us? How much longer would you have let me kiss you, touch you, feel you?” another step closer.

“I’m getting paid to act like I’m in love with you.” was all I said. “Besides, I’m happily taken.”

“Happily taken, huh?” he took his final step towards me. We were so close I could barely breathe.

“Yes, I’m happy.”

“Are you though? Do you really love Harry like you say you do?” he brought a hand to my cheek.

“Yes.” I closed my eyes at his touch. “How could you do this to one of your best friends?”

“Best friends? Harry and I never got off. We don’t hate each other, we’re just not great friends. We’re more so acquaintances. We do what we need to do together and that’s that. I don’t have a friendship with him like Ashton does. If anyone of those lads is my best friends, it’d be Niall.” He said.

“Of course it’s Niall.” I rolled my eyes.

“What?”

“Nothing, never mind. Luke it doesn’t matter. I’m with Harry and that’s that.” I said, attempting to take a step back but he matched it.

This was all starting to feel like déjà vu. This was Niall outside of the club after the movie premier. Maybe I didn’t want to get used to having people make me look pretty. It always ended up with someone other than Harry admitting their feelings for me.

“And if Harry didn’t exist?” that was twice today someone asked me that, it was getting out of control.

“He does and I refuse to pretend he doesn’t.” I looked up into Luke’s eyes. Fuck. Bad move Spencer.

“Spencer, if you are meant to be with Harry, you’ll stop me right now.” He leaned down to my height, I closed my eyes frozen. I felt his lips brush over mine. His hands slid around my waist and pulled me close. I stood without moving at first, I couldn’t believe he actually kissed me. I melted into his lips. I kissed back. What was I doing? I loved Harry. I couldn’t kiss Luke, but part of me secretly wanted too. No! I pulled away quickly. I didn’t say a word. I walked past Luke and straight out of the room. I didn’t stop there. I headed straight for the rest of my stuff. I gathered everything up, letting the first tear fall. I had cried too much today. This wasn’t right. Why was I so confused? Why did Harry have to know Luke? Why did anything that was happening have to happen! I was in such a daze I barely felt the collision with a sturdy body. My eyes met Michaels, his instantly going wide.

“Spencer, what’s wrong?” he asked concerned. I just shook my head quickly, looking back over my shoulder. Luke had exited the room and was coming down the hall towards me. Michael eyed the situation. I quickly turned back around and bolted for the steps. I wasn’t about to wait for the elevator.

I ran into the stairwell, legs sprinting as fast as they would let me. I wasn’t going to make many of these flights. I really needed to get back into shape. I heard the door in which I came through fly open.

“SPENCER WAIT.”I heard Luke yell. He ran after me. Harry never ran after me when we had a fight.

STOP! STOP COMPARING THE TWO. HARRY WAS THE ONE. I silently yelled at myself. I needed to get it together. I heard the footsteps getting closer to mine. That’s what I get for wearing heels and being a short girl. He finally caught up to me.

“Spencer stop.”

“No Luke, you stop.” I cried. “I can’t do this! I can’t cheat on my boyfriend.”

“Then break up with him because I know you feel it too!” he yelled. “And don’t try to lie to me again!”

“It doesn’t matter Luke! I met Harry first, I’m supposed to be with him.”

“If you truly loved Harry you wouldn’t even have to question how you feel! It’s not about who you meet first! It’s about who makes you feel the right way, who loves you best.”

“It doesn’t matter!” I cried more.

“Your heart matters!” he ran a frustrated hand through his hair. “My heart matters.” He almost whispered.

“Luke.” A sob caught in my throat.

He wrapped his arms around me, tightly. He looked down slamming his lips onto mine without hesitation. In no time I had dropped my belongings and was pressed up against the wall. It was hot and it was passionate. I hadn’t felt so alive in weeks. He pulled away, resting his forehead on mine. I caught my breath before shimmying out of his grip. I gathered up the stuff I had dropped and continued down the stairs.

“Spencer, don’t run again.” He said, breathless.

“I’ll call you.” I said without turning around.

“Spencer.”

“I’ll call you.” I repeated, exiting the stairwell all together.





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(Harry POV)

“Can we just snuggle, drink wine and watch a movie?” Spencer asked.

She had come home from the shoot a few hours and had been weirdly quiet. When I tried to ask about how it went I got short answers. She insisted everything was okay but I wasn’t buying it. I just wanted her to open up but I realized that wasn’t about to happen anytime tonight.

“Yes.” I smiled, walking into the kitchen, filling two glasses with a lot of wine.

“You pick the movie.” She mumbled taking the glass from me, chugging almost half of it. “And get the rest of the bottle.”

I nodded. Something was definitely wrong, I wasn’t an idiot when it came to my girlfriend. I set the rest of the bottle on the coffee table and went through our movie stack. I popped in John Tucker Must Die. I was in the mood for a funny movie and this one always got me laughing. Poor bastard deserved what he gets.

“Is this the only movie you want to watch?” Spencer asked as I sat down next to her.

“Is it not okay?”

“No it’s fine.”

“What’s wrong?” I couldn’t stop myself from asking again.

“I told you Harry, I’m fine.” She rolled her eyes.

“You’re not, but I’ll let this go.” I said.

“Thank you.”

We snuggled into the couch, she threw her legs over top of mine. I sighed, pressing play on the remote.

We sat in silence for the entire movie. I realized that she had fallen asleep after 3 glasses of wine. She had downed them so fast I couldn’t believe it. I carried her gently to our bed, I was starting to get worried. She wouldn’t talk to me. What happened today? I set her down gently, taking her into bed.

I got out my phone and opened a new message to Ashton.

To Ashton: Dude, why is Spencer all weird? Did something happen?

I waited a few minutes on the edge of the bed. I was racking my brain for something, anything that could have happened. I was scared to death.

From Ashton: Man, I don’t know. Ask her.

That wasn’t the response I was hoping for. Maybe she was just tired from shooting all day. She had never done that before. I know from experience how exhausting it can really be. I crawled into bed next to her. I’d let her sleep whatever it is off and try again in the morning, what else could I do?

Notes

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh bye.

what's going to happen next? what will she finally decide?!

don't hate me please. i swear it will all be okay. always remember, i am making a sequel...just saying :p

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