Maddie’s P.O.V
I threw myself on the bed and started crying. I didn’t mean to shout at Gemma like that. I just did. Everything’s going wrong for me at the moment. Nothing can go right. I sighed as there was a knock on the door. I turned to it and Anne walked in.
“Hey,” she sat down on the bed and pulled me in for a hug. “I know you’re having nightmares, but would you care to tell me what’s going on? Harry’s making all sorts of excuses for you down there.”
“I don’t know Anne. I can’t stop thinking about him slapping me. I know I shouldn’t have run off and that just made it worse but I just get so angry. All the anger builds up inside me and I can’t stop it. I’m sorry.” I apologised.
“You don’t need to be sorry. I didn’t raise Harry to slap women but like you said, the anger just built up inside him. He couldn’t stop it. He never wanted to hurt you. He cherishes you. He loves you with all of his heart. The way he cared for you when you were crying into his shoulder showed that. C’mon honey. I know you’re weak inside, but you’ve got to find other ways to control it.” She rubbed my back. “Let’s go back downstairs. The children want their mummy. Or Mommy as Freya would say.”
“She’s American.” I laughed and we stood up. I picked up my glasses from my bag and took my blue contacts out. I put the black, thick-rimmed glasses on and smiled at Anne.
“You look gorgeous honey.” She smiled back. We went downstairs again and I sat down next to Harry.
“Contacts hurting?” He questioned and I nodded resting my head on his arm. He put his arm around my shoulders and kissed my head. “I love you.” He whispered pushing my red hair away from my face.
“I love you too.” I said and he started talking to the children. Our meals came and I ate half of mine.
“You’ve got to eat babe,” Harry said.
“I’m not hungry.” I told him honestly. He nodded and continued eating his food. When we had all finished we paid and went back upstairs. We put the kids to bed and sat watching TV.
“Don’t try and set Calum and Brooke up again babe.” Harry laughed as it went to a break.
“He needs to stop tryna be a bachelor then. It’s not gonna happen.” I laughed back.
“He doesn’t want a girlfriend, just leave him, he’ll find one somehow.”
“Maybe...” I said and got up from the sofa. “Come to bed baby,” I pulled him. He nodded and we got ready for bed and got in.
“Goodnight beautiful,” he kissed me and shut his eyes. I moved closer to him and he put his arms around me. I smiled and we fell asleep.

Waking up, I stared at the amazing human being next to me. He looked so peaceful in his sleep despite being woken up twice last night by my nightmares. They weren’t nearly as bad but they were still scary. I didn’t get killed. I just got hurt. It hurt a lot. It hurt me physically. Harry is honestly so patient to be putting up with this shit. I couldn’t. If one of the kids was having nightmares every night I’d be so annoyed with them but Harry is so tolerant. I wriggled out of his hold and went to my suitcase and got my wetsuit out. I put it on over a bikini and went down to the beach. I grabbed a board and went out into the bright blue sea. The sun was rising making the sky pink and I put my board down and got onto it. I paddled into the waves and then stood up as a big one came towards me. I stayed upright over 5 waves and then crashed down into the sea. I climbed back onto my board and carried on surfing for around half an hour. This is just so exhilarating and relaxing that I could do it for hours but I know that Harry’s going to wake up soon and I want to be there when he does so I can apologise for waking him up during the night. I feel ashamed and embarrassed that I can’t overcome these nightmares myself. It’s just so hard. I’m also hoping that he doesn’t bring up the conversation that we had yesterday. It happened before when I isolated myself in my room. I was getting them all the time, whether I was dying or just being hurt, I was always scared. I never left my room after that. Dad would come in and comfort me. It’s hard having to rely on someone to keep you calm when you can’t do it yourself. You feel useless and pathetic. I unlocked the door to our suite and went straight into the bathroom getting in the shower. I let the cold water run down my body, relaxing all my muscles and then started massaging my body wash in. Once I was covered in soap suds, I washed them off and got out of the shower wrapping the soft white towel around my body. I dried myself and then went to my suitcase. I got my outfit for the day out and put it on. When I turned around I noticed Harry looking at me.
“Morning,” I said, cheerfully.
“Been surfing again I see?” He laughed getting out of bed and walking over to me. He took a pair of boxers out of his suitcase and put them on and then hugged me. “I love you.” He kissed me. I smiled at him and he let go.
“Sorry for waking you up.”
“Don’t be. I’m glad I was able to comfort you.” He said. I nodded and changed my plain contacts to my blue ones. “You don’t have to wear them you know.” He reminded me.
“But I like them.” I stated and began doing my make-up in the dressing table mirror. He nodded and got dressed. Once I had finished with my make-up I looked at myself in the mirror. Why does Harry find me attractive? I’m just boring and plain. I had to dye my hair and wear these contacts to even look pretty to him. Why did he marry someone like me? Why not Kendall Jenner or Cara Delevingne? He had flings with both of them. Or even Taylor Swift. Why did he pick Madeline fucking Anderson? I’m seriously the most messed up girl ever. Maybe he wanted a challenge, to see if he could change me. Well he did, he stopped my depression and disorders but he also got me pregnant at the age of 21. Yes, we got Brooklyn out of it but was it really worth it? All those sleepless nights for me when he was working long hours and I was alone in the apartment or house, was any of it worth it? We always seem to split up now. I ran away for 7 months for god sake. It took my dad 2 for him to trust Harry again. I don’t know if I was ready to be a parent or even proper girlfriend that young. I didn’t do a very good job of it. Brooklyn was kidnapped, Harry got pissed that we weren’t spending anytime with each other, I basically ruined my university course but I still managed to get my business. That internship at Laura Ashley really helped me. I never really explained how I managed to get my business. How Styles Fashion Design started.
“Mads!” Harry broke me out of my thoughts.
“Yeah?” I turned to him. I haven’t seen Greg in ages. I really need to.
“Quit daydreaming. The lads are gonna be here soon.” He said and I nodded and got up going to get the kids up. I woke up Brooklyn and Adam and then Lis. I sat with Lis for a while and she got dressed and we played a game and then we all went downstairs ready for their arrival. We sat in the lobby on couches waiting to see our friends again. It’s been ages since I’ve seen them. Luke came in first with his girlfriend Vicki. He, like Calum, was determined to be a bachelor until Gemma and I broke him out of it and set him up with Vicki. I knew her from modelling ages ago and it just so happened that she was still single, so here they are, 1 year on, the happy couple. Luke went over to Ashton first and greeted him and Gemma and then came over to Harry and I.
“Hey mate,” He hugged Harry in that way that they all do while I hugged Vicki. “Hey gorgeous,” Luke moved to me and Harry greeted Vicki.
“Hiya,” I smiled. All of the 5sos lads call me gorgeous. They’re like brothers to me. I never used to be that close to them but when they would hang out with Harry and the others I’d get to know them. And then Ash and Gemma got married and I really got friendly with the guys. I hugged Luke and then Michael came in with Jess, his wife. I really like her. For a start, she broke him out of that hair dying stage. I wish she could do it to me but obviously not. I just dye my hair all the time. The purple ends was definitely the best one. We greeted them and then Calum came in alone. “Thought anymore about Brooke?” I teased as I hugged him.
“Mads, I told you, I’m not dating your sister!” He laughed.
“Why not?” I pouted.
“Because it would be weird, she’s basically family because she’s Harry’s sister in law and he’s my brother and you’re my sister. It’s just weird. She’s amazing and everything but it just can’t happen. Now stop bugging me.” He poked me and I laughed. We weren’t prepared for what happened next. I jumped up and ran to the door.
“Louis!” I jumped into his arms.
“Hey babe,” he laughed letting go of El.
“What are you doing here?” I questioned.
“We decided to tag along with Luke, Michael and Calum to save you a flight. After you said it was a nightmare flying with the kids we decided to come and visit you.” He put me down. “Now where’s my husband?” He laughed.
“MY husband, is over there.” I pointed at Harry.
“We make up Larry Stylinson. We’re special.” Louis argued and went over to him. I embraced El and we stayed like that for a few minutes.
“I’ve missed you so much.” I said as we pulled away.
“We’ve got a lot of catching up to do. It’s been like 2 months.” She sighed. I nodded and she went to Louis with Kay and Sam. “You might want to get ready to jump again.” She whispered as she walked off and then 6 more people walked in.
“Liam!” I hugged him.
“Zayn!” I moved on.
“Oh my god! What are you all doing here?” I looked at Zayn, Liam, Perrie and Danielle.
“Visiting. What does it look like?” Perrie laughed and I hugged her, Danielle, Leah and George.
“Right, where’s Niall?” I said.
“He’s coming out tomorrow, alone.” Zayn told me as we walked back to Harry. I looked at him questioningly. “Belle and him aren’t on speaking terms right now. She’s also refusing to let him see Drew. It’s really harsh if you ask me but she’s your best friend.” He said.
“Why aren’t they speaking?”
“We don’t know, Niall won’t tell us, we thought you would have known.” Perrie replied. I shrugged and sat down on Harry’s lap.
“Like your surprise?” He asked.
“You knew?”
“Of course I knew. This was all for you baby.” He kissed me and I smiled at him.
“How did I get so lucky?” I questioned.
“You moved to England.” He answered seriously and I laughed. We talked to the guys for a while and I got a text.
From: Annabel Horan
Hey, I need to tell you something x
I sighed and replied.
To: Annabel Horan
That you’re not talking to Niall and refusing to let him see his son? Yeah I know...
After a while I got another text.
From: Annabel Horan
Yeah... How do you know? I’m also filing for divorce and getting custody of Drew x
“What?” I basically shouted and everyone turned to look at me. “Belle is filing for divorce and getting custody of Drew.” I gasped.
“What?” Liam said.
To: Annabel Horan
You’re really that much of a bitch? Zayn told me you weren’t on speaking terms but this? Belle, he’s the best thing that will ever happen to you. Why?
The guys talked about it and I got a reply.
From: Annabel Horan
I’m not a bitch Maddie. Just ask Niall why. I’m not telling you.
I groaned and called Niall.
“Hello?” He answered. He sounded as if he had been crying.
“You alright?” I asked.
“Yeah Mads, apart from my wife leaving me and taking my son with her, I’m fine.”
“Don’t have a go at me Niall.” I lectured and Harry looked ready to take the phone from me. I waved a hand at him and proceeded to ask Niall why Belle left.
“We had an argument because she aborted our baby, how sick is that? She didn’t even tell me about it. She got rid and unless I’d picked up the call from her doctor I would never have known!” He told me and my jaw dropped. I never thought that Belle would do that.
“Why?” I questioned. Damn it Maddie, like he knows why.
“I don’t know, all I know is first she killed one of my children and now she’s taking the other one away from me. Drew is my son too. She can’t just take him away.” He started sobbing.
“Awh Ni. Shit happens... I thought that too but Harry managed it with Brooke. If you tell the court the circumstances then I’m sure they’ll rule in your favour. She should be civil enough to let you see him at least.”
“Exactly, I love you Mads. I’m gonna go.”
“Okay Nialler, love you too.” I said and hung up.
“So...” Louis started.
“She aborted his baby.” I informed them and all of the boys looked at each other shocked, then at Perrie, Eleanor and Danielle. I’m getting the feeling they know something I don’t. “What?” I tried to get them to tell me.
“Urm... It’s nothing babe.” Harry said only to get scolding looks from Gemma and Anne. “I have way too many girls in my life.” Harry laughed, trying to change the subject.
“Tell her Harry or I will,” Gemma gritted her teeth.
“No Gem.” Harry replied and I stood up. Harry reached for me again but I backed away.
“Tell me,” I pushed for an answer.
“No Mads.”
“Then fuck off.” I said and went upstairs. I got to the door of our suite and slid down it.
“Maddie,” Gemma hugged me.
“Why won’t he tell me?” I asked her, knowing she’d give me an honest answer.
“Because he feels like a dick, he doesn’t want to piss you off or upset you.” She sat down next to me.
“Well he did both.”
“Maddie, he wants to tell you but he knows that you’ll stop talking to him, he’s kept this for a long time. He’s just got you back properly. You can’t blame him.”
“You tell me, please.”
“Fine, Niall was the only one of them who hadn’t had a baby aborted or lost. The rest of them have, whether it was previous girlfriends or the one that they’ve got now. You know about Louis and Eleanor losing their baby but the others have too.”
“Even Harry?”
“Even Harry babe, someone aborted his.” She said.
“Why didn’t he tell me?”
“Touchy subject I guess. That’s all I’m telling you. You can find out the rest from them.” She got up and started walking back downstairs. I got up and ran after her. We went down and I went over to Harry.
“Did she tell you?”
“She said that you’ve all lost a baby or had someone abort it. Who?” I asked and he looked at Gemma.
“I couldn’t keep it from her Harry! I basically just saved your fucking marriage but no, all you care about is whether you have to tell her who aborted your baby!” She shouted at him.
“Control your language Gem, there are 10 children here.” Anne scolded.
“He shouldn’t be such an idiot then.” She said and Ashton had to hold her to stop her from getting up. I’m getting impatient now.
“Who Harry? Who aborted your baby?” I asked again and he avoided eye contact with me.
“Tell her for god sake Harry!” Anne shouted this time.

Notes

Day 68

Yay the gang is reunited but is Harry going to tell her? And if so who do you think aborted his baby? Comment!

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