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A life of Payne

Chapter 20

Katie's POV
*The next morning*

"@Katie_Payne: My brain still thinks it's in New Zealand! it's 2 in the morning and I can't sleep. At least this bed is super comfy!"

Once the tweet was sent I scrolled my news feed for a while and noticed a tweet from Niall.

"@NiallOffical: After being around the four lads and little miss @Katie_Payne it feels weird to be home alone!"

I found myself laughing at Niall's silliness before scrolling once again. After looking at my mentions for a bit I came across a profile titled @KatiePayneUpdates. Being the curious person I am I opened the profile.

It had countless different pictures of me from my old Facebook page that was deleted around the same time I made my twitter. Even though it was a private profile I didn't feel comfortable knowing any of my so called friends back home could use the information off there to make me look horrible so I got rid of it.

I continued to look at the twitter page and finding more pictures and posts about things such as my favourite colour and what my old family was like and many other things.

It made since to me that this person must of known me in back in New Zealand because there was no other way for them to know all this stuff about me already. I mean for god sake I've only posted on twitter three times!

I started to get quite angry at this profile and before I knew it there was tears sliding down my cheeks.

I got out of my bed and shivered when my feet touched the cold wood floor. I was only wearing sweatpants and a singlet so I put on large knitted jumper before walking out of my room and towards the kitchen.

It took me a while but I finally found the glasses and poured myself some water.

Once I had finished my water I looked around the overly large kitchen and sighed. This was my life now, how could I not be excited?

I gripped onto the edge of the counter top with my small hands to stop me from falling to the floor and trying to cry my problems away again, because it didn't work last night so why would now be any different?

"Do you want me to make you some tea?" Liams' voice was heard from behind me making me jump and turn around to face him.

"Sorry I didn't mean to scare you." Liam slowly said while walking over to me. I ignored his second statement and just answered his question.

"Why is it that when people are from England they think about tea constantly?" I asked Liam making him chuckle.

"You better start getting use to it or are you more of a coffee girl?" He asked.

I just laughed at his strangeness.

"Not at this time of the morning." I said before it fell into a uncomfortable silence.

I stood there for a while before a thought accrued to me.

"I'm sorry I woke you, I didn't mean to make noise." I said looking down at the floor in case he was angry at me.

"I didn't go to sleep. I was in the lounge room." I looked up at him to see him shrugging his shoulders and looking directly at me.

"What? Why didn't you go to sleep?" I'm curious. sue me.

"I heard you crying after the boys left last night. You actually cried yourself to sleep. I went in your room to see if you had calmed down and you were asleep with tears still running down your face. How do you except me to sleep when every time I close my eyes all I see is those nail marks that are on your cheeks that were caused by one of my fans and the tears running down your cheeks which were caused by me." He talked very low and serious while walking closer towards me.

I stood there frozen. Not really sure of what to say or do. The only person who has ever cared about me this much was Ashley. I guess when one person who cares about you leaves, another one enters. But until now I never realized how much Liam really cared for me. I honestly thought I was just a annoying younger sister to him.

"I-I am s-sorry." I managed to say even though I felt like there was literally no air in my lungs.

"Don't apologies for your pain Katie. You didn't cause it." He said while walking closer to me once again and hugging me. I cried into his arms again but this time I let it all out.

And I mean everything.

Leaving my family.

Leaving my best friend.

Having to live with someone I've only known for a week.

Getting my face scratched by some girl.

I just let it all out.

Liam pulled away from me and became serious again.

"Katie look at me." I stared into his eyes. All I saw was love, he is a better brother then I ever excepted him to be and all I do is cry because of him.

"You have every reason to hate me Katie, I took you away from your family and your friends. Because of me you had an asthma attack on the planes take off because I made you move to London. I left you alone when that fan attacked you. I honestly don't see how you could apologies for any of this because it was all my fault."

I just stayed quiet. I had no words to say so Liam continued his rant.

"But you know what? I don't see any of this as a bad thing because if going through all this means that I'm left with the most awesome and loveable little sister at the end then so be it."

A small whimper left my mouth as I hugged Liam even tighter than before.

"Please don't give up on me Liam. I want to be happy all the time again not just sometimes but all the time." I whispered to him.

"I will never give up on you and I promise you that once everything settles down and starts to become normal, you will be happier then ever before."


*6 hours later*

"@Katie_Payne: Heart to heart last night really helped. This having a brother thing isn't so bad."

I mindlessly typed down what I was thinking onto twitter while I drank my tea. That's right people! I'm drinking tea, I got to give this stuff a shot I guess since I'm living in London now. I can't even imagine the amount of times people are going to ask me if I want tea so I'm just preparing.

After my little moment with Liam last night we went into his movie room, not sure why his one instead of mine but yeah. We watched the first toy story movie, well he watched it and I fell asleep. When I woke up Liam was asleep so I went and had a shower and got dressed and made myself some tea, now here I am.

I feel quite refreshed today which is a good sign.

Liam walked into the kitchen yawning and stretching his arms at the same time like little kids do which made me laugh.

"Morning." I smiled as I greeted him.

"Woah! hold up. Was that a real smile I saw on your face?" Liam said while grabbing a wooden spatula and waving it in front of him.

"Who are you and what have you done with my sister?" He asked me which just caused me to giggle.

Liam dropped his spatula or weapon I guess and gave me a big hug before grabbing my mug and drinking some of my tea.

"Hey! Make your own tea!" I slapped his arms playfully and grabbed my mug back from him.

"You know for someone who doesn't drink tea very often, you sure do make good tea"

I slid off the chair I was sitting at by the island in the middle of the kitchen before answering him.

"Thank you." I bowed like I had just won an Oscar.

I started to walk away from the kitchen when I heard Liam start talking again.

"Where are you going?"

"To explore! You haven't shown me the whole house so I'm going exploring!" I said with a happy tone which made Liam laugh and shake his head at me.


I have officially seen the whole apartment now!

While exploring I found a gym, a few spare rooms (No where near as cool as mine), a recording room, a office and an indoor pool! Plus the rooms I've already seen. The place is a lot bigger than I thought and it took me forever to find my way around but eventually I got back into the kitchen.

I was scrolling down my twitter feed that I've grown attached to when I heard someone scream my name in front of me.

"KATIE!" I jumped back to see the other four boys were here again and all laughing at me for getting such a fright.

"Hey guys! Where's Liam gone?" I asked noticing he wasn't in the kitchen.

"Well hello to you too. Easy to see who your favourite is." Louis said while crossing his arms.

I shrugged at him.

"What do you except? He's my brother."

They all laughed before Niall finally came over and hugged me.

"Well at least your warming up to the idea of having a brother. And he's on the phone, he will be back in a minute."

Niall kept his arm around my shoulders which I have to admit gave me butterflies.

"So Katie? How was your first night here?" Zayn asked looking like he probably already knew the answer.

I kept my eyes glued to my phone while I answered him.

"Good." I said shrugging again while trying to keep my phone away from Niall who kept trying to see what I was doing.

"Are you sure Katie?" He asked again pushing more on the subject.

I looked up to see that Louis and Harry were staring at me too. They must already know what happened last night.

"I survived." I said trying to shut down the topic.

Just then Liam walked back into the kitchen while ending his phone call.

"Katie there you are! I was starting to think you got lost." Liam said and ended up laughing at his own joke.

"I did but I figured out my around eventually." I told him truthfully which made all the boys laugh at me. I could have been lost for days and they would still be laughing about it!

I shrugged Nialls' arm off of my shoulders causing him to pout. I made my way over to the dinning table where the boys were sitting and sat down leaving a spot for Niall. I looked behind me to find Niall still pouting and standing where I left him. I laughed while patting the chair next to me for him, he perked up and skipped over to the chair.

The boys started playing a game of poker but I don't know how to play and even though they offered to teach me how, I decided to just watch and clap whenever someone won a game.

"So Liam? Who was on the phone?" I asked him while they were in between games.

"No on important at the moment." He smiled before standing to grab a glass of water, of course making sure to ruffle my hair as he walked past me.


Today has gone by pretty fast.

The boys played some poker and we all laughed at Harrys horrible jokes, we ate kind of food that I had never tried before and it was amazing! And everyone just had a good time.

After awhile Louis got all prissy because he kept losing so he ran off and came back with a water gun and started to shot us all with really freezing water.

As of now were all out on Liam's balcony shooting each other with water guns, it's actually a lot more fun then I thought it would be.

Everything was going great when all of the sudden a very pretty and very tall looking girl walked out onto the balcony with her arms crossed. I could recognize from all the blogs and crap I use to read about one direction that she is the one and only Sophia Smith. Wow she does not look happy.

None of the boys had noticed her yet so they continued to spray water at each other.

"Katie! Save me!" Liam yelled at me before hiding behind me which makes no sense because I'm so little.

Liam laughed at how I didn't try and save his ass.

He wrapped his arms around my waist and spun me around in a circle until I was giggling like an idiot.

Once he put me down I sprayed him with my water gun which made him do the same back. I had almost forgot that Sophia was standing in the door way, Almost.

She cleared her throat to get everyone's attention.

The other four boys retreated inside but when I tried to follow them Liam grabbed my arm to make me stay outside. Great. I really don't want to be involved in this, she looks so pissed.

"So when we were on the phone this morning and you said you were to busy to hang out with me, what you really meant was I would rather hang out with the boys and a kid I've only known for a week?" Sophia spoke to Liam like she was about to explode and the fact that she emphasized the word 'kid' really hurt me. I turn 18 in like five days!

"She's not just a kid. She's my sister Sophia! and she only got here yesterday so excuse me if I didn't want to leave her alone. This isn't easy for her you know!" Liam yelled back at her making me flinch at how angry his voice was.

The fact that they are both talking about me like I'm not here is so hurtful.

"You could of left it with the other boys!" She said, wait a second! Did she call me 'it'?

"She's not a it! she's a person! Urgh god I'm going to get a water." Liam stormed off probably so he wouldn't do anything stupid.

Once he was out of sight, Sophia turned to me and smirked before walking towards me. Shit.

I tried to back away from her but she grabbed my wrist and dug her nails into my skin so I couldn't move away.

"You think you can just come here and make everyone fall in love with you because your so innocent and cute? Well I don't like you! understand me?" She shouted in my face while digging her nails deeper into my skin. I could almost hear the blood oozing out of my arm because of her.

"Your going to stay in the background and let me and Liam be happy in the spotlight. Got it?" She shouted at me again.

I nodded not wanting to talk in case it just made things worse.

She smirked again but before she had a chance to let go of my arm and act like nothing happened, Liam and Niall came out onto the balcony again carrying some water bottles.

"SOPHIA!!" Liam yelled dropping the water onto the ground and running over.

As soon as Sophia let go of my arm I made a run for it. I didn't want to be around that witch any longer.

I ran into the lounge room while holding my wrist to my chest trying hide all the blood, I really didn't care that my shirt was now ruined.

I frantically looked around the room. My head was spinning so fast that I couldn't even remember what way my room was.

Niall came running into the lounge after me and before I had a chance to ran away from him he grabbed my other arm and spun me around to face him.

I jerked away from his touch not wanting to be near any of these people at the moment. Whenever I'm around them I get hurt.

I looked into his eyes to see them starting to water at the sight of my blood running down my shirt.

He walked up to me and wrapped his arms around me and sat us down on the couch, making sure to sit me on his lap so he could rock me back and forth like you do for a small child.

I felt the tears start pricking at my eyes and before I knew it I was crying once again.

I'm so pathetic. All I do is cry when things get to hard. No wonder Sophia doesn't like me.

I could hear Sophia and Liam yelling at each other outside which made me cry more thinking that Liam will me mad at me for coming between him and Sophia.

I carried on crying when I heard the front door open and close. I could hear Zayn, Louis and Harry all laughing at something but then their laughter came to an abrupt stop when they noticed me and Niall on the couch.

"Katie sweetie are you okay? can you please show me your arm?" Niall said while still hugging me.

I kept my head buried in his chest and shook my head no.

"What happened?" I heard Louis ask Niall but he whispered it to them so I couldn't hear what he had said over Sophia and Liams' shouting.

Next thing I know Louis is kneeled down in front of me and is rubbing my back at the same time as Niall was hugging me. I felt so helpless.

"Kiddo you need to show us your arm so we know how bad it is." Louis said in a small and soft tone.

I shook my head again making sure to keep my arm close to my chest.

Louis sighed and grabbed my arm and softly yet still forcefully he pulled it away from my blood stained shirt.

"Oh kiddo." Louis sighed again and helped me to my feet.

I tried to pull away from him and go back to Niall but he wouldn't let me. I didn't want to move I just wanted to lay down in my bed and stay there until the pain went away.

"Don't move." Louis commanded me once he got me into the bathroom that was connected to my bedroom.

I whimpered at the coldness of the room.

The closest thing to comfort was from either Louis or Niall but yet neither of them made me feel better right now.

Louis began to clean my arm and once all blood was gone it was easy to see how deep the nail marks were. They would take weeks to go away if they went away at all.

My arm was still bleeding so Louis wrapped my arm in a bandage.

He sighed again and ran his fingers through his hair.

I couldn't stand any longer and fell to the ground and continued crying.

I'm so pathetic.

Louis sat down next to me and brought me into his chest.

The only thing going through my mind right now was that there is no way I can stay in this place.

I'm leaving.


Well now Sophia is in the picture! I'm sorry if this chapter is a bit all over the place but the first half wasn't originally going to be there but I felt like Liam needed to know that Katie was crying after the boys left.

Hope you like it and all that stuff! xoxo


Thank you xo

Kass_april Kass_april

This is really good!

Louis_bae Louis_bae

Thank you sweetheart! xx

Kass_april Kass_april

I only really come on this site to see if you updated. You have the best fanfictions ever

Kendra_Horan Kendra_Horan

Thanks darling ♡ I'm really not okay with it but I can't put my life on hold forever so I think I'm ready to get the last few chapters done then onto the sequel! (:

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