When Nightmares Become Reality

Everything was so black, I was standing in an open black room with nothing around me, it seemed like there were no walls around me and my feet wouldn’t obey me, my body wouldn’t move. I stood there for what felt like hours staring into blackness when two shimmering gold circles appeared in front of me side by side. One was showing Niall sitting at a hospital with is hand holding mine with his head down and the other revealed my mother holding her hand out to me.
“Please Jazz, please just come back to me” Niall lifted is head. I noticed tears threatening to break free and his hair was unbrushed hair.
“It’s alright Niall, I'm right here, I haven't gone anywhere.” I yelled to him but he didn't respond. I looked back to my mother.
“Jazz, baby. You have to make a choice, you can either come into my world and we can live together again or you can go back to that one, just remember; you will only get this choice ones, so think about it carefully.
“Mum?” She looked at me through the glimmering sheet that separated us and smiled at me, she heard me. “Oh my god, mum you can hear me!”
“Yes darling, I can hear you, but you have to hurry up and make your decision, we don’t have forever baby.”
“But mum, there’s so much I want to tell you, so much I have to share! I want to tell you about Niall and my dancing and Tommy!”
A tear slid down her cheek. “I know baby, I’ve been watching, I've been there every day. Right next to you, I haven't left your side” She nodded.
“Why haven't you told me you were there mum?”
She shook her head this time, gently. “You always knew I was there; I will always be there whenever you think about me. I’ll be there” she closed her eyes now. “Quick baby, you have to make a choice.” She raised her hand once more.
“But mum, what about Niall and my dancing and my friends, I know its not the best life but I still think I should try.” I looked over at Niall's window, he was speaking inaudible. “I’m sorry mum, but I can’t leave them, not yet, not like this” Tears were forming in my eyes now, realising it was going to be the very last time I will see her. “I’m so sorry mum, it was my entire fault. Everything was my fault” My chest began to shake.
“Shh” she cooed. “It’s okay baby, you need to let that go. Forgive yourself. But I have to go now, good-bye my Minnie mouse, I love you”
“I love you too, so much mummy” I watched her window slowly fade until there was nothing left. I turned my head to face Niall.
The voices became audible again, I could hear machines beeping, I could hear Niall’s breathing and I could hear commotion coming from the other side of the room. “She should be waking up now; she should be opening her eyes, right?” he looked around.
“I’m coming Niall” I walked towards the window and reached up to touch it, my fingertips made contact and a rush of warmth went through me. I started open my eyes, my vision blurry first but began to become clearer. I looked down at Niall. “Niall, Niall can you hear me?” His head sot back to me and his eyes met mine.
“Holy crap, you’re awake, thank god!” He said hugging my around my neck, pain shot through my whole body but I still hugged him back, and he slowly released me falling back into his chair. I turned my attention to my surrounds, machines connected to my body, a little window in the corner, and finally in the other side of the room, they were all standing there with balloons and flowers.
I smiled at them. “He guys, come over here. I won’t bite you.” Louis laughed walking over to me and hugging me.
“You might now bite us, but your body odour might” He winked at me, and my face flushed red.
“So what exactly happened to me” I looked down at my body that was covered in a blanket, covering my eyes from the real problems that I still have yet to face.
“What do you remember?” Harry asked walking over to put a bunch of flowers in a vase next to my bed. I closed my eyes replaying what happened.
“I remember running along a road; clearing my head and then I remember getting hit and then that’s it. The rest is blank.”
“So no memory of the car that hit you, you don’t remember a description?” Eleanor walked over and placed a stuffed kangaroo on my bed.
“No sorry” I picked up the kangaroo and bounced him around the bed. “He’s so cute, thanks Eleanor and thanks everyone. You really didn't need to do this.” That’s when the door opened and Liam walked in holding about 50 pink and purple sorted balloons. “I am so so sorry I’m late but I couldn’t find the right flowers so I went with the balloons” He let go of the strings and they floated to the top of the roof. He walked over to hug me lightly. “I'm so glad you’re awake, its been the longest week of our lives.”
“A week, I've been asleep for a week?! No wonder Louis says I smell bad.” I looked around and noticed an attached bathroom. “I need a shower.” I pushed the blanket off my body and saw that both my legs were bandaged tight. I swung my legs around the bed and started to push of the bed when Niall stood up in front of me.
“The doctor said you shouldn’t be walking by yourself”
“I’ll help her, I don’t think shell want any of you guys in there while she showers.” Eleanor pushed through the boys.
“I’ll help too.” Danielle pushed out from behind Zayn. They both guided me to the shower and helped me get into my bra and underwear.
“I think I should be right getting out of these” I said as I walked into the shower pulling the curtain closed behind me. After I washed my hair and scrubbed my body twice, Eleanor passed a towel over to me and I exited and they held up a towel and I pulled on a new set of under garments and Danielle helped me get into a singlet and pyjama bottoms. “Thanks girls”
When we walked out of the bathroom the bed was neatly made and my stomach growled. “Harry and I will go and get food for us all and we’ll be back in a little bit”
After 10 minutes passed and nobody had said anything until Louis stood up and said to Eleanor “Come on El, let’s go see wht’s taking them so long with the food. Jazz is hungry and so am I.”
Eleanor nodded and dropped the braid she had just made down my back when it was tied with a band. After Liam and Danielle had left to go for a walk Niall took a loud breath in. “Jazz, I have a question for you.” He reached into his pocket and pulled ot the envelope that was in the pocket when I went running. “What’s this?”

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