Royals

(31)

Tying up the white laces to my sneakers, I'm in a rush to get outside. When I opened that text I could feel my heart stop in fear. And a number of negative questions start to run through my mind.

What if this was some kind of joke?

What if this was finally when he drop kicks me?

But then my heart starts to pound. And the positive thoughts start to fumble their way inside.

What if he spills his feelings for me?

What if he kisses me again?

What if.. what if....what if...

STOP..

Anna breath and clam down.

My heart slows to a steady beat and my steps follow suit when I spot the play ground. I'm still a block away but it was only a quick glance before I spotted the blonde headed boy sitting on the bench in front of the structure for little kids. His head was bowed and rested on his hands which made his elbows rest on his knees.

"Hey, Stranger." I pondered with the words due to the fact that he had been practically ignoring me all week. I sit beside him and set my hands in my lap and cross my ankle elegantly.

"Hi." he breaths out the word like he was anxious about the situation.

The air is cold, giving our cheeks a pink glow. We sit in silent for a few moments, no words being exchanged. I was freaking out. So many things running through my mind in just the matter of the few seconds of sitting down ad the silent exchange.

What if he rejects me?

What is there to reject, dumb ass?

Well there is the fact of friendship.. or even the fact that you have a bit of feeling left and him squashing that little bit might kill you..

Shut UP!

My inner self was having a battle. I could only just imagine the faces that I was probably making while having the unspoken argument in my head. I shift my gaze up to from the ground to Niall and I catch his own falling on me.

"What are you thinking?" Niall's voice held something of security but the blanket isn't close enough for me to reach just yet. I feel my foot slip off of my other one and I have a moment of unbalance, as I do often. I steady myself and breath in a sigh.

I giggle to myself lightly, thinking about how much of a klutz I was. I hadn't even noticed that Niall was waiting for me to answer. I was so caught up in my own world of confusion and loserness that I completely forgot he was even there.

"Anyone there?" He asks while clearing his voice.

"Huh?" I shoot my gaze up to his with wide eyes and scrunched brows.

"You're so cute.." He lets out a small chuckle to himself, making my chest tighten. "What were you thinking about?"

I make a face of thought and turn to look in front of me. "You," I tell him honestly.

"Me?"

"Yes..you."

"Why were you thinking about me?" He says again. I was stilled facing in front of me so I couldn't see his facial expressions. Though I wish I could have seen the face he made when I told him I was thinking of him. I don't know how I would handle looking at him at the moment though. So I keep my eyes trained on the structure in front of us.

"Why you called me here.. Why you haven't been at school... Why you hate me.. Why we kissed twice.. Why I feel the way I do.." I could feel my heart pounding in anticipation of his response.

"Oh." He finally says after what feels like an eternity.

"Oh? That's it?" I scoff, feeling more bold than I did jut moments ago.

"Yeah. Oh. I mean... I was thinking the same thing.."

"And?" I urged.

"And... what?"

"And... what do we do now?" I say slowly with a heavy exaggerated sigh.

"And.. I don't know."

"How bout we start with why you have been avoiding me all day and what the sudden urge to talk to e was all about?" I say trying to make sense of this whole situation. I was being very blunt.

When did this start?

Maybe when you got frustrated because he didn't react to what you said to him..

Shut up.

"I don't know. After the whole kiss thing I - and then I realized that I - I don't know."

"What?" Slightly confused by his words. I hated when I didn't understand people. It was my only
strength, and when I had trouble with that it just made things harder then they already are.

"I'm not good with my words.. I don't know..." he hangs his head with his cheeks pushed the palms of his hands, leaning his elbows onto his knees.

"Wow.. I'm good with my words, and you aren't. What a pair we are, huh?" I hiccuped on my last words making me laugh harder then intentioned. Beside me a laugh erupted from Niall making me smile harder.

We calmed down for a moment and then there was silence. No words exchanged, just a comfortable silence.

"So what now?" he spoke into the cold night air.

I shrugged beside him and turned to face him seeing his face was turned to face me as well. I could see a sparkle twinkle in his eye, giving me goose bumps that were thankfully hidden buy my red coat.

"I-" He started but stopped. "Anna.. I- I really like you and I'm scared."

I felt my breath hitch in my throat but managed to spit out the words,"me too."

We stared at each other, our eyes both glinting in the thought of one another. Or at least I hope we were both thinking the same thing. Well not the same thing because we have different body parts but..

Shhh.

Niall slowly started to minimize the space between us and I could feel my heart beat slow to an unsteady beat. My breathing faltered and it was hot and heavy. "Can I kiss you?" He whispered once our faces were inches apart.

And before I knew it we were in a slow motion movie and I could feel every ounce of well being washing away as my shoulders shrugged and our lips collided.

(AAAAAAAWWWWW)

Notes

OMG! ok so I love this chapter.. a lot longer than the last one... last one was a diary entry. I'm sorry i was boring need to skip a little bit. I felt like day by day was getting kind of annoying.. no? idk. Anways I have only edited up to chapter 3 so... still lots left. I'm not sure when I will next update because exams start next week and then I leave on the 25th for camp so I will see.
I'm not sure just how im going to end this but I might be in the 40's maybe? im not sure.. ill let ya'll know tho..
peace.