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Dear diary,
It's be hectic lately. I mean I have so much to tell you. Last thing I said to you was a quote about confusion because I was confused about Niall and I's kiss. Well I have more to tell you. Just this weeks was nuts.

Last Friday I was with Niall in his car, and he was grumpy an then told me it was because he was thinking about the kiss. And then we talked and then we kissed again. Thing is, it wasn't like a fairy tale kiss. Our lips touched and our teeth clanked. We both hurt ourselves and it wasn't nice at all. I wanted to cry cause it was only my second kiss, and it happened to be horrible.

So after all of that we just stared at each other like we had seen the other grow a second head.
We didn't say anything and he didn't speak when I turned and left. If I'm being completely honey with you I was hoping that he would yell my name when ugly to my door, get out of his car and come chasing after me and we would share anther more magical kiss but nothing came as I opened the wooden piece if crap.

And that's not all.

So I spent my entire weekend without a stupid witty text from Niall and when I did get a text it was of him telling me he was outside waiting for me. You would think he would have talked to me once but he acted as if I want there. And it hurt.

It was like I wasn't around but I was. Like a ghost in another detention, or a shadow nobody wants around. And of course this stayed the same way the entire day. Even when he brought me home, he waited for me in the parking lot and dropped me off at home without so much as a full sentence.

On Monday..... Niall wasn't there. Or Tuesday...or Wednesday....or Thursday. I was alone. I didn't even see the other guys. Of right I forgot tot tell you. Niall had gotten some of his friends to take turns walking me to class and waggling over me like a hawk. It seemed like they abandoned me.

Since Niall nor the other guys weren't there you could imagine that Ashley and Zayn found me.
The power couple teamed up to hurt me in a brutally inhuman way. I'm probably over exaggerating, but it I'm sure you would like having this done to you:

On Tuesday, Ashley found me in the change room when I was getting ready for gym and she dumped my clothes into the toilet. So I had to wear my gym clothes that reeked of sweat all day.

Then on Wednesday, I was walking through the cafeteria I saw Zayn whisper Ashley something. Well not something as I knew what he told her. She came directly towards me and pushed me down to the ground. Then she poured all the ketchup from its container she found on the table next to me, and it went all over my head and clothing.

I went home early that day.

On Thursday, I was mostly ignored. I was quite surprised when I didn't get stopped by Ashley wanting to hurt me, or Zayn to blow smoke in my face. Of course, the loneliness of the day didn't last very long. When I got outside of the school and started walking through the parking lot to get to the side walk and walk home, I was stopped. The worlds evillest couple decided to take my bag and threw it onto the the fence and let it hang, then pushed me over and I struggled to keep them off but it didn't work. Zayn's hands were all over me,

I hated it so much.

I hate that I couldn't do anything.

I hated that it was cold outside.

I hated that Ashley helped him to do it.

I hated that Niall wasn't there to save me.

Most importantly, I hated that I will never be able to forget it.

Niall was back on Friday. He saw the bruises on my wrists. For a boy who didn't care to speak to me, he sure did mind when someone hurt me. He went to the principals office and I'm just guessing that he told them everything because I was called in at the end of the day and Mr.Anderson tried to get me to talk about my problems but I couldn't speak. It was like I had swallowed my tongue. He told me that he would call my parents and would scheduled in a time on Monday to speak to them with me.

I don't know how I feel about that though.

I would tell you a play by play of what happened on the way home and how I walked to Niall's car, and he drove me home in more silence, with no goodbye or anything when I got out, but I have just gotten a text. Its from Niall. He wants me to meet him at the park in five. It's the first time he has said anything other than and order to get me outside, and it's to ask me to meet him at the park at 11:00 at night.

Wish me luck?

Notes

:) I realized I missed chapter 15 guys! omg.. you missed a whole chapter! so I fixed it all, it you want re read it if not an you undestand it without that chapter then its all good .