(Sorry) Blame It On Me

Sorry for that last update, heres a new and better one...............

Andrew's POV
Dad and I were out practicing our shooting, it was relaxing and a good stress reliever.
Sometimes I wish having a family, but I won't for a while. Dar hates dad for what he had done to Harry, I kinda do. I'm his only child left so I can't leave, even though I really want to.

Dad's is just an achor holding you down and trying to never let you go, and once he does hes nothing.
Mom's his only strength, but ever since Dar left I feel like they are slowly and slowly departing.
I think sooner or later their gonna get a divorce.

" Wow, Drew you really have improved I'm very proud." He hugged me and I smiled.

"""" Thanks Dad that means so much coming from you." He reloaded the gun and began to shoot for himself. Sometimes I feel like he doesn't care.

I have a girlfriend her name is Penny and she's really sweet. I think she's the most beautiful girl in the world http://collider.com/wp-content/uploads/shailene-woodley-01.jpg she hasn't met Mom and Dad yet. I'm afraid she'll leave me if she sees how horrible my life is right now without Dar.

Dad takes everything out on me or mom and it breaks my heart, he hates that his baby girl hates him. Believe me I've tried to get Dar to accept his apology, but she isn't ready.

I really am getting and showing signs of depression, its really tiring.
If only I could help Dad, if only.
I've been going to church with Penny and she's given me hope into god, and that there is a place where everything is okay.
I really do like church alot and its shown me that, the world isn't just black and white. Its gray, and purple,red and even sometimes green. I don't know it just helps me know that everyone is different and thats beautiful.

I still want to be in the gang, I feel like its my duty and the only way to help my father. That means that someday I'll have to let Penny go.

I don't want her around such danger and risk like that, I think I might even love her. I know I'm only 15 but she's really shown me alot. I love that, if I let her go there's alot I'll be missing.

TTToday I am going to see Darlene, and its been a while. A long while, and I'm a bit scared.
I knocked on the door of her apartment that she lived in with Harry, he answered the door shirtless and let me in.
I kept my head down, afraid. I don't know why.
" So Andrew, you thinking about joining the gang?" I kept my head down and nodded.
" Well don't, I can't let it happen to you. Its a terrible thing." He said and I finally looked up he was sitting on the counter top eating a grape.
" I'll do whatever I want, whenever I want." he put his hands up in defeat, thats when Dar walked in. Hair messed up and dressed in an oversized tee, probably Harry's.
" Andy! Oh I missed you so much!" She ran into my arms and I brought her in, tight.
" Can we talk?" I asked and she led me into the back.

" What's up?"

" I need you to hear dad out, I can't deal with this pain and depression anymore. I can't lose Penny, Dar I can't ! I'll go crazy Dar I just know it" I began to cry in my hands embarrassed, she grabbed me and whispered that she will, she will.

----Later that day------

We sat there and waited for Dar to come, she finally showed and we left her and Dad alone.
I hope it works.

Darlene's POV

I came alone, wanting to hear what my father had to say.
I walked in and Mom and Andy left us alone.
" Please sit Darlene." I rolled my eyes and took a seat.
" Hurry it up please." I asked and he sighed.
" I want you safe,and protected and that Harry kid is far from it." Here we go again.
" Stop! You know, he has a job now he's a boxing trainer." I yelled back and he laughed.
" Still doesn't mean people aren't after him." I cringed and sat back crossing my arms.
" I don't care, he loves me Dad."
" You don't know what love is."
" Yes I do!"
" No, cause love is showing them you care everyday that includes meaningful sex, and marriage. It also means to be there for them always. Wanting to be there everyday of their life Darlene!"
" Guess what Dad Harry and I had sex 2 nights ago and it was meaningful and slow, he cares and always fights for me,and I do the same Dad." I shouted and my Dad was finally quiet for once.

" He's deadmeat!"

" That's it I'm done with you consider me never born Dad!"

" Darlene honey you can't hate me for looking out for you, I'm sorry I'm like this I just care."

" Bullshit Dad, if you cared you would have gave him a chance. Save your apolgy for someone who cares, I hate you." I slammed the door and drove to the mall to meet Lana and shop I needed it.
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Notes

Thanks guys a new and better update. :)