DARKER DESIRES
CHAPTER 48: Hardship, Then Trust
Jessica’s P.O.V
My gut told me to get that boy and tell him the truth, tell him that this baby he put in me is his. But another side of me wanted to let him go, let him live his life the way it was supposed to be lived. I’ve imagined enough how life would be if we stayed together now I just want to imagine life if he didn’t know me. Would he still be fucking women daily? Would he still be that seductive guy? Wait is he still even seductive towards me? That question left me in suspense.
He slammed the door hard, dramatically while he exits out. I stood there, my heart thumped a million miles per second. Let him go or not, let him go or not, my pointer finger rubbed along my thumb. I could hear slight bickering outside; I walked closer to the door but eased myself to the side so I could peel back the curtains. I swept my hair behind my ears and leaned them in closer; my ear buds were picking up sound waves.
“So that baby……you guys, why didn’t you tell me this?” Harry was pacing up and down the porch. Aaron was sitting in an old rocking chair counting his money like a drug kingpin. “Oh, oh….now you come to me with questions” He continued counting his money. “So, did she ever talk about me……when you to were together?” Aaron got up from the chair, stretching out his back. Harry’s face was written with forlorn, any second now Jess, you can just walk out there and yell it out…..but I didn’t. “Dear rude, obnoxious, asshole I’m not with Jess though I want to
be….it’s just something you to have that I can’t break.” Aaron stared into the floor. “I wish I-I….could figure it out” Great! Now Aaron was sad. But soon he popped out of it. “But! We’re not together Harry” He walked over to him patting him on the shoulder, I slightly smiled. Harry
rubbed his jaw thoughtfully, and chewed on his bottom lip momentarily. “Wow…..” He made his way towards the stairs; he tipped the corner of his lips into a smirk. “It’s mine” Aaron nodded his head nonchalantly. No, dumbass you were supposed to send him my way. Harry continued his way down the stairs, there he was and here I am. I felt so far apart from him, even though…..he was yards away.
Harry turned back, not acknowledging my presence in the window. “I-I…..can you do me a favor?” Aaron forgot about his money. Harry stared into his hands, twirling his ring around his finger – he was searching for the right words to say. “Can….you take care of the baby for me? I-I know it’s a lot right now but um….” He stared down at his hands again, and then rejoined his eyes on him. “Um, just tell Jess that I love her….okay?” Aaron nodded his head. I opened the door vigorously. I stood there holding my own in the middle of the door; Harry took his eyes away from Aaron to look at me. “I’m right here Harry, tell me it to my face”
He turned fully towards me, smiling. “I love you” His smile fell into an even line. “Bye” He continued walking; he was down to the side walk. I ran after him, giving Aaron a nice nod. I quickly ran down the steps. Harry was shaking his head “Don’t follow me baby” Just how can he still call me loving things but walk away from the most thing he loves? I continued shadowing behind him. “Don’t call me baby!” He stopped in his footsteps and turned around. He stepped closer to me – because of his towering body I stepped back some. “I call you whatever I want to love” He leaned in for a kiss on the cheek, I yanked my face away. He chuckled lowly, and then turned back around continuing on walking across the street.
“Only a guy who loves me and stays can call me whatever he wants” He unlocked his car door. “Now, now, now baby i never said I didn’t love you nor have I stopped loving you” He opened the car door. “As long as your alive, I’m alive…..remember that?......Baby!” He threw his keys onto the seat and posted his hand firmly on the roof of the car. His back was sculpted perfectly and his muscles were overshadowing my thoughts. “I have never….and I mean never love” He
turned around. “Have met somebody so guile, yet gullible in my life…..you feed, feed off of people’s pain……do you know how bad this hurts me Jessica to walk away from you? To walk away from that child?!”
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Harry’s P.O.V
I lowered my voice once I realized how loud I was shouting. “No, I don’t’ Harry….but I know how it feels being the only one to be left in the dust for two months and a fucking week with a guy I don’t love” my hands tightened into a fist, my pulse was beating strong and heavy. I released my knuckles slowly from the hold. “You’ve been pregnant for two months?” I creased my forehead.
“H-How can you keep something like that from me? Jess, I don’t care how mad you were you can’t keep something like that from me……I would have crossed mountains, oceans even fire to come back to you if I would have known you were pregnant!” She lowered her head. “Don’t get quiet on me Jess” She mumbled something but I could barely hear. “What?” “I don’t want this baby damn it! The only reason I kept it was because it was too late to get an abortion” I
opened my mouth in aw, I stumbled back a bit. “You don’t want this baby?” She shook her head. “Or do you not want this baby by me?” She looked me dead straight in the eye. “By the way you’re acting, by running away from your problems I could say the same” She gave a tight smug smile.
I gave a tight smile back. I stared at her momentarily; she connected her eyes to me as well. “Are you okay baby?” I said jokingly. She smiled sexually back, she bit her lip. “Yeah, what about you baby?” I walked closer to her. I trained my focus more towards her eyes. “Do you still love me?” I whispered. She walked closer; her eyes were more pure in the light. “I never stopped” She wrapped her long extending arm around my neck. “Why do we fight?” She asked randomly.
“So we can have make up sex” She smacked my back with her hand. “No, but really love….we fight because we care, if we didn’t fight then…..i would get tired of you and cheat on you with the old lady down the street” She popped her mouth open with a gasp. I slid my hands around her small waist. “So you’re pregnant?” She grew closer to my body. “Yes” I kissed her forehead chaste.
“So I put this thing in you?” She nodded. “Well, well…..are we still able to have sex?” She nodded her head. “But not vaginal” I smiled. “Great…….” I grabbed her hand and opened the door to the back seat. “What….are you doing?” She gave me a crazed look. “I haven’t seen you for two months and….a week, I’ve imagined touching you yet I couldn’t. So now since I have you, I’m going to make mad love to you till your sore” Her eyes widened with excitement.
“But I want something in return….” She whispered. I raised my eyebrow. “Promise me….you won’t leave me alone?” I switched my eyes into a sincere, serious face. “I could never go a day without touching you…..you’re like a drug to me, a special brand and I’m so addicted…there’s no way out” She stood up on her tippy toes and kissed me on the cheek. “What was that for?” I whispered. She’s never kissed me on the cheek before, this felt different. “For loving me” She turned away, I grabbed her neck slamming her lips up against mine. “What was that for?” She whispered as well. “For having my baby” I rubbed her jaw line repeatedly.
My gut told me to get that boy and tell him the truth, tell him that this baby he put in me is his. But another side of me wanted to let him go, let him live his life the way it was supposed to be lived. I’ve imagined enough how life would be if we stayed together now I just want to imagine life if he didn’t know me. Would he still be fucking women daily? Would he still be that seductive guy? Wait is he still even seductive towards me? That question left me in suspense.
He slammed the door hard, dramatically while he exits out. I stood there, my heart thumped a million miles per second. Let him go or not, let him go or not, my pointer finger rubbed along my thumb. I could hear slight bickering outside; I walked closer to the door but eased myself to the side so I could peel back the curtains. I swept my hair behind my ears and leaned them in closer; my ear buds were picking up sound waves.
“So that baby……you guys, why didn’t you tell me this?” Harry was pacing up and down the porch. Aaron was sitting in an old rocking chair counting his money like a drug kingpin. “Oh, oh….now you come to me with questions” He continued counting his money. “So, did she ever talk about me……when you to were together?” Aaron got up from the chair, stretching out his back. Harry’s face was written with forlorn, any second now Jess, you can just walk out there and yell it out…..but I didn’t. “Dear rude, obnoxious, asshole I’m not with Jess though I want to
be….it’s just something you to have that I can’t break.” Aaron stared into the floor. “I wish I-I….could figure it out” Great! Now Aaron was sad. But soon he popped out of it. “But! We’re not together Harry” He walked over to him patting him on the shoulder, I slightly smiled. Harry
rubbed his jaw thoughtfully, and chewed on his bottom lip momentarily. “Wow…..” He made his way towards the stairs; he tipped the corner of his lips into a smirk. “It’s mine” Aaron nodded his head nonchalantly. No, dumbass you were supposed to send him my way. Harry continued his way down the stairs, there he was and here I am. I felt so far apart from him, even though…..he was yards away.
Harry turned back, not acknowledging my presence in the window. “I-I…..can you do me a favor?” Aaron forgot about his money. Harry stared into his hands, twirling his ring around his finger – he was searching for the right words to say. “Can….you take care of the baby for me? I-I know it’s a lot right now but um….” He stared down at his hands again, and then rejoined his eyes on him. “Um, just tell Jess that I love her….okay?” Aaron nodded his head. I opened the door vigorously. I stood there holding my own in the middle of the door; Harry took his eyes away from Aaron to look at me. “I’m right here Harry, tell me it to my face”
He turned fully towards me, smiling. “I love you” His smile fell into an even line. “Bye” He continued walking; he was down to the side walk. I ran after him, giving Aaron a nice nod. I quickly ran down the steps. Harry was shaking his head “Don’t follow me baby” Just how can he still call me loving things but walk away from the most thing he loves? I continued shadowing behind him. “Don’t call me baby!” He stopped in his footsteps and turned around. He stepped closer to me – because of his towering body I stepped back some. “I call you whatever I want to love” He leaned in for a kiss on the cheek, I yanked my face away. He chuckled lowly, and then turned back around continuing on walking across the street.
“Only a guy who loves me and stays can call me whatever he wants” He unlocked his car door. “Now, now, now baby i never said I didn’t love you nor have I stopped loving you” He opened the car door. “As long as your alive, I’m alive…..remember that?......Baby!” He threw his keys onto the seat and posted his hand firmly on the roof of the car. His back was sculpted perfectly and his muscles were overshadowing my thoughts. “I have never….and I mean never love” He
turned around. “Have met somebody so guile, yet gullible in my life…..you feed, feed off of people’s pain……do you know how bad this hurts me Jessica to walk away from you? To walk away from that child?!”
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Harry’s P.O.V
I lowered my voice once I realized how loud I was shouting. “No, I don’t’ Harry….but I know how it feels being the only one to be left in the dust for two months and a fucking week with a guy I don’t love” my hands tightened into a fist, my pulse was beating strong and heavy. I released my knuckles slowly from the hold. “You’ve been pregnant for two months?” I creased my forehead.
“H-How can you keep something like that from me? Jess, I don’t care how mad you were you can’t keep something like that from me……I would have crossed mountains, oceans even fire to come back to you if I would have known you were pregnant!” She lowered her head. “Don’t get quiet on me Jess” She mumbled something but I could barely hear. “What?” “I don’t want this baby damn it! The only reason I kept it was because it was too late to get an abortion” I
opened my mouth in aw, I stumbled back a bit. “You don’t want this baby?” She shook her head. “Or do you not want this baby by me?” She looked me dead straight in the eye. “By the way you’re acting, by running away from your problems I could say the same” She gave a tight smug smile.
I gave a tight smile back. I stared at her momentarily; she connected her eyes to me as well. “Are you okay baby?” I said jokingly. She smiled sexually back, she bit her lip. “Yeah, what about you baby?” I walked closer to her. I trained my focus more towards her eyes. “Do you still love me?” I whispered. She walked closer; her eyes were more pure in the light. “I never stopped” She wrapped her long extending arm around my neck. “Why do we fight?” She asked randomly.
“So we can have make up sex” She smacked my back with her hand. “No, but really love….we fight because we care, if we didn’t fight then…..i would get tired of you and cheat on you with the old lady down the street” She popped her mouth open with a gasp. I slid my hands around her small waist. “So you’re pregnant?” She grew closer to my body. “Yes” I kissed her forehead chaste.
“So I put this thing in you?” She nodded. “Well, well…..are we still able to have sex?” She nodded her head. “But not vaginal” I smiled. “Great…….” I grabbed her hand and opened the door to the back seat. “What….are you doing?” She gave me a crazed look. “I haven’t seen you for two months and….a week, I’ve imagined touching you yet I couldn’t. So now since I have you, I’m going to make mad love to you till your sore” Her eyes widened with excitement.
“But I want something in return….” She whispered. I raised my eyebrow. “Promise me….you won’t leave me alone?” I switched my eyes into a sincere, serious face. “I could never go a day without touching you…..you’re like a drug to me, a special brand and I’m so addicted…there’s no way out” She stood up on her tippy toes and kissed me on the cheek. “What was that for?” I whispered. She’s never kissed me on the cheek before, this felt different. “For loving me” She turned away, I grabbed her neck slamming her lips up against mine. “What was that for?” She whispered as well. “For having my baby” I rubbed her jaw line repeatedly.
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