DARKER DESIRES
CHAPTER 43: Harry's Old House
Jessica’s P.O.V
It was almost time for me to leave, my discharge papers were being processed now. I eased myself up higher on to the bed; the curtains flew back in a dramatic effect a nurse that I wasn’t familiar with came walking in. “Hello, I’ll be taking over for Anna” I cringed at that name, seeing though nobody ever really searched for Anna; just gave up…..I hate hearing that word. “Oh” She checked my vitals and wrote down my heart rate and blood pressure. “So how many weeks are you?” Why are people so nosey, I shouldn’t blame them I guess there just making small talk.
“6 weeks” I whispered. I was still stuck in shock and disbelieve that this could happen, I don’t even want a child and now that Harry’s gone and can’t take care of it either…..I’m alone, he was supposed to be here for me but instead…….Aaron is. “Aw are you keeping it?” I closed my eyes tightly. “I have to” The ladies grin dropped. “So you’re having an abortion?” She started writing more vigorously now; I can see the darker lining of the words. “I can’t……it’s too late” I sighed and fluffed out my covers. “No, it’s not. Only after 14 weeks it’s too late” I furrowed my brow. “But Aaron…” “You know Aaron?” She officially stopped writing. Her eyes trained sterner on me, it sound like she was jealous. “Yeah, we um…we’re friends” She slammed her pen down in the folder and closed it dramatically.
“Are you the girl he’s going to help through pregnancy?” I nodded my head embarrassingly. “Well, well you’re a lucky girl” I stared at her awkwardly. “Um how?” “You don’t know?” I shook my head. She leaned in closer but Aaron came walking in. “Hey ladies” The nurse withdrew her away from me and walked back over towards Aaron. He looked at me then at the nurse, he knew there were some words that were left unsaid after he came in. “Any who, here’s your papers and you can leave now…..I mean we can leave now are you still staying with your mom?” I felt my heart speed up. I moved out of mom’s house three days after Harry left, I got an apartment in the city and I’ve been living alone counting the days; wondering if Harry will come back.
“Thanks, I was talking to the nurse and she said…..” I looked at the nurse, she looked nervous that I was quoting her statement so she eased herself slowly out the room. “I still can have an abortion, but you said……why would say that?” He rubbed the back of his neck once again, is he always nervous? “I-I, okay I lied only because I want you to keep this baby. Your killing a life if you get an abortion…..isn’t me helping you out enough?” He was desperate for me to keep this baby, and it was annoying me I don’t want to disappoint him. “I-I…..I’ll keep the baby, fine god!” I threw my hands up. He plastered a satisfied smile across his face. “Good darling” He rubbed my thigh. Oh god! Then walked out the room so I could change.
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Once we got outside he helped me out of the chair. “Do you wanna take my car?” I nodded. He helped me into his car, gosh it was so beautiful and perfect like he just bought it. A Mustang that was bright white with black tinted windows not one scratch tainted the perfect painting. I scooted into the car, the seats automatically warmed up under my butt I could get used to this. He turned on the car. “Where do you live?” I asked out of curiousity, I mean if he has a nice car like this and can afford it there has to be a house that follows behind it. “You want to come over that fast? Whoa” I chuckled. “Ah, there goes a smile” I covered my hands over my mouth trying to calm down my laugh.
“Just around the corner, literally” He drove out of the parking lot and started his way down the street. Both are hands touched when we both tried turning up the heat, I quickly withdrew my hand back as so did he. I haven’t touched a guy for 2 weeks now, it feels weird. Normally when I would touch Harry he was cold, we both were cold so we didn’t mind the temperature but with Aaron it’s like touching warm water. “Why….do you even want to help me with this baby?” He turned down a street that was familiar to me, yet I couldn’t put a finger on it. “It’s personal
problems but also because I really don’t want to see you know…..struggle” This Street was coming all back into play in my mind; I haven’t been down this road for a few days. Please, drive past it, please drive past it. But no he decides to stop right in front of it, park in front of it and get out in front of it.
I got out hiding myself behind the car I vowed that I would never come back here that I would never step a foot inside that house. “What are you waiting for?” He waved his hand for me to come on. I swallowed my fear and started my way towards the house; this house will never be the same since he’s gone.
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Harry’s P.O.V
The plane took off; I grabbed the arm rest firmly as the turbulence vibrated through the whole plane and closed my eyes breathing slowly in and out. Niall was sitting next to me popping nuts inside his mouth not minding the turbulence. “Hey mate why ya scared, your ta vampire your inevitable” Yeah, but we can still be scared at times. “Yeah, but there’s still times where you get scared, like you got scared when you had a nightmare all the food in the world was gone.” He laughed at that memory. “Ya I know bro” He popped another nut in his mouth. “So how ya
hanging?” I grabbed my phone out of my pocket, to check my messages but she didn’t reply. “If you’re saying how am I living without my better half, as if I can actually move on from something that loved me more than I loved myself…..then no…..i’m not hanging bruve” Niall raised up his hands in self-defense. “Oh excuse me, just trying to make small talk” I slightly smiled.
“Sorry, I know” He shrugged his shoulder and stared off down the aisle. I looked out at the clouds, they were dark grey and the rain was falling hard. When will I ever see sunlight again? Since I’ve left Jess all I see is darkness, everywhere i…….
****I slipped into another premonition these were becoming more common now and I can’t control them.
I knocked on the door of my old house. It was dark and the light porch lit up the front. A guy, that Aaron dude came to the door “Oh, hey um who are you?” I creased my brow. I thought I wasn’t allowed to talk in my premonition? I moved closer to shake his hand but another person came walking pass me. “Very funny” It was girl, would say about 13 she had long blonde hair just like Jess that fell down her back in loose waves. I followed them inside the house. She threw her duffel bag onto the floor “Hey mom” Jess was cooking something on the stove, she turned around. And I couldn’t believe my eyes; her huge belly was barely bumping into the counter.
Aaron came wrapping his arms around her stomach. No, this can’t be happening, this is not real….yet my premonitions always showed the future too. So this…..could happen? I walked closer into the kitchen, they looked so happy and filled with Life…Jess don’t like anything like a vampire. Aaron makes her happy, maybe it is better for me to let her go…..just a little small part of me inside just wish that she would have held the same promise I did, of not finding another love in the past life.
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I snapped out of my premonition. “You really creep me out with your plain, un emotion straight face stuck in another world thoughts” I shrugged my shoulders. "Their uncontrollable now" He kept staring at me with a concerned face, i just looked outside the window to avoid more talking.
It was almost time for me to leave, my discharge papers were being processed now. I eased myself up higher on to the bed; the curtains flew back in a dramatic effect a nurse that I wasn’t familiar with came walking in. “Hello, I’ll be taking over for Anna” I cringed at that name, seeing though nobody ever really searched for Anna; just gave up…..I hate hearing that word. “Oh” She checked my vitals and wrote down my heart rate and blood pressure. “So how many weeks are you?” Why are people so nosey, I shouldn’t blame them I guess there just making small talk.
“6 weeks” I whispered. I was still stuck in shock and disbelieve that this could happen, I don’t even want a child and now that Harry’s gone and can’t take care of it either…..I’m alone, he was supposed to be here for me but instead…….Aaron is. “Aw are you keeping it?” I closed my eyes tightly. “I have to” The ladies grin dropped. “So you’re having an abortion?” She started writing more vigorously now; I can see the darker lining of the words. “I can’t……it’s too late” I sighed and fluffed out my covers. “No, it’s not. Only after 14 weeks it’s too late” I furrowed my brow. “But Aaron…” “You know Aaron?” She officially stopped writing. Her eyes trained sterner on me, it sound like she was jealous. “Yeah, we um…we’re friends” She slammed her pen down in the folder and closed it dramatically.
“Are you the girl he’s going to help through pregnancy?” I nodded my head embarrassingly. “Well, well you’re a lucky girl” I stared at her awkwardly. “Um how?” “You don’t know?” I shook my head. She leaned in closer but Aaron came walking in. “Hey ladies” The nurse withdrew her away from me and walked back over towards Aaron. He looked at me then at the nurse, he knew there were some words that were left unsaid after he came in. “Any who, here’s your papers and you can leave now…..I mean we can leave now are you still staying with your mom?” I felt my heart speed up. I moved out of mom’s house three days after Harry left, I got an apartment in the city and I’ve been living alone counting the days; wondering if Harry will come back.
“Thanks, I was talking to the nurse and she said…..” I looked at the nurse, she looked nervous that I was quoting her statement so she eased herself slowly out the room. “I still can have an abortion, but you said……why would say that?” He rubbed the back of his neck once again, is he always nervous? “I-I, okay I lied only because I want you to keep this baby. Your killing a life if you get an abortion…..isn’t me helping you out enough?” He was desperate for me to keep this baby, and it was annoying me I don’t want to disappoint him. “I-I…..I’ll keep the baby, fine god!” I threw my hands up. He plastered a satisfied smile across his face. “Good darling” He rubbed my thigh. Oh god! Then walked out the room so I could change.
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Once we got outside he helped me out of the chair. “Do you wanna take my car?” I nodded. He helped me into his car, gosh it was so beautiful and perfect like he just bought it. A Mustang that was bright white with black tinted windows not one scratch tainted the perfect painting. I scooted into the car, the seats automatically warmed up under my butt I could get used to this. He turned on the car. “Where do you live?” I asked out of curiousity, I mean if he has a nice car like this and can afford it there has to be a house that follows behind it. “You want to come over that fast? Whoa” I chuckled. “Ah, there goes a smile” I covered my hands over my mouth trying to calm down my laugh.
“Just around the corner, literally” He drove out of the parking lot and started his way down the street. Both are hands touched when we both tried turning up the heat, I quickly withdrew my hand back as so did he. I haven’t touched a guy for 2 weeks now, it feels weird. Normally when I would touch Harry he was cold, we both were cold so we didn’t mind the temperature but with Aaron it’s like touching warm water. “Why….do you even want to help me with this baby?” He turned down a street that was familiar to me, yet I couldn’t put a finger on it. “It’s personal
problems but also because I really don’t want to see you know…..struggle” This Street was coming all back into play in my mind; I haven’t been down this road for a few days. Please, drive past it, please drive past it. But no he decides to stop right in front of it, park in front of it and get out in front of it.
I got out hiding myself behind the car I vowed that I would never come back here that I would never step a foot inside that house. “What are you waiting for?” He waved his hand for me to come on. I swallowed my fear and started my way towards the house; this house will never be the same since he’s gone.
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Harry’s P.O.V
The plane took off; I grabbed the arm rest firmly as the turbulence vibrated through the whole plane and closed my eyes breathing slowly in and out. Niall was sitting next to me popping nuts inside his mouth not minding the turbulence. “Hey mate why ya scared, your ta vampire your inevitable” Yeah, but we can still be scared at times. “Yeah, but there’s still times where you get scared, like you got scared when you had a nightmare all the food in the world was gone.” He laughed at that memory. “Ya I know bro” He popped another nut in his mouth. “So how ya
hanging?” I grabbed my phone out of my pocket, to check my messages but she didn’t reply. “If you’re saying how am I living without my better half, as if I can actually move on from something that loved me more than I loved myself…..then no…..i’m not hanging bruve” Niall raised up his hands in self-defense. “Oh excuse me, just trying to make small talk” I slightly smiled.
“Sorry, I know” He shrugged his shoulder and stared off down the aisle. I looked out at the clouds, they were dark grey and the rain was falling hard. When will I ever see sunlight again? Since I’ve left Jess all I see is darkness, everywhere i…….
****I slipped into another premonition these were becoming more common now and I can’t control them.
I knocked on the door of my old house. It was dark and the light porch lit up the front. A guy, that Aaron dude came to the door “Oh, hey um who are you?” I creased my brow. I thought I wasn’t allowed to talk in my premonition? I moved closer to shake his hand but another person came walking pass me. “Very funny” It was girl, would say about 13 she had long blonde hair just like Jess that fell down her back in loose waves. I followed them inside the house. She threw her duffel bag onto the floor “Hey mom” Jess was cooking something on the stove, she turned around. And I couldn’t believe my eyes; her huge belly was barely bumping into the counter.
Aaron came wrapping his arms around her stomach. No, this can’t be happening, this is not real….yet my premonitions always showed the future too. So this…..could happen? I walked closer into the kitchen, they looked so happy and filled with Life…Jess don’t like anything like a vampire. Aaron makes her happy, maybe it is better for me to let her go…..just a little small part of me inside just wish that she would have held the same promise I did, of not finding another love in the past life.
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I snapped out of my premonition. “You really creep me out with your plain, un emotion straight face stuck in another world thoughts” I shrugged my shoulders. "Their uncontrollable now" He kept staring at me with a concerned face, i just looked outside the window to avoid more talking.
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