DARKER DESIRES
CHAPTER 42: Separate Lives, Separate Problems
Jessica’s P.O.V
My eyes popped open once I became conscious again. I was lying on the hospital bed, ivy was stuck in my arm and that white thing that goes on the pointer of your finger was clamped on to me. I observed the room, it was big yet scary having something this big to yourself seem weird, I only fainted not have a child. The nurse swung back the curtain “Oh your awake” She walked over to the machine that was standing next to me, she checked on my vitals and changed that bag that hung with water in it. “Are you okay?” She glanced at me every now and then.
“Is your back okay?” I creased the middle of my forehead. “What? Actually yeah” I sat up slightly. “I’ll bring back a pillow, the doctor should be with you shortly” She walked to the end of my bed. “I’ll get you a pillow for your foot too.” Okay…this is weird, is this required when a patient pass out? I rubbed my head while looking around for my phone. I saw my purse sitting in the chair next to me; I stretched my fingers out until my finger hooked underneath the handle. I grabbed it and threw it on to my stomach, quickly took it off. A shot of pain shot threw my belly. Gosh, what do I have in here?
I dung around for my lip chap first, never know if the doctors hot. I grabbed my portable mirror, with one breath I looked at my reflection. Oh gosh, I pushed my hair into place and removed the crust out my eyes, there were barely visible black circles under my eyes….I’ve lacked this much sleep? I quickly closed the mirror and threw it back into my purse. I scrambled around some more and finally ran across my phone, I quickly grabbed it the battery was low but I had a message. I hurriedly clicked on it, I could hear the doctor entering the room. “Hello….” I gave a short wave “Hello” But kept my eyes on the message. It was an unknown number.
How are you?
I knew exactly who this was, a small part of me got happy. “So…..um” The doctor was getting irritated by me being on my phone. I threw that too back into my purse. I finally looked at the doctor. “Aaron?” He gave a shy smile. “Yeah, hey….” We both awkwardly waved at each other. “How are you?” He asked respectively. “You should be telling me that” I fumbled my hands nervously. “Are you still with that guy?” I looked down at my nervous hands. “Uh…um no actually he moved….away” He walked over and sat on the edge of the bed by my feet and reached up to rub my hands. “I’m so sorry” I stared him deep in the eye. “Why? People move all the time, I’m fine what about you?” He sighed. “No, I mean…..I’m sorry he’s not here….to help you through this” “Through what?” That one nurse came back in with two pillows, we watched her
awkwardly. She slid one under my feet and behind my back, I already felt relive in my bones. “First of all let’s move this purse off your stomach. He grabbed the purse and put it back on the chair next to me. “I thought you were a zoo host, helper guy” I was confused on his jobs. “I’m also a doctor part time, but that’s not the point.”
“Jessica….are you and this guy married?” I clenched my jaw, we could have been. “No…..” He scooted closer on to the bed. His eyes were serious with a mixture of sympathy. “Then you can’t go around saying your last name is Styles” I slightly smiled, I was so close to getting away with that. He opened the big folder he was carrying and ran his eyes down the paper. “Your six weeks, to be exact frankly” I looked over at the nurse; she was smiling from ear to ear. My heart began speeding up; I really don’t want to hear bad news come out his mouth. “Your….pregnant” I sat up quickly but gently laid back once that soreness shot threw my stomach again. “What?
No, I can’t be I’m, wait I’m a……” I quickly look over at the machine’s the heart monitor was moving rhythmically. But I’m supposed to be dead, how can I have a beating heart? “It’s ok--…” “Abortion” I said clearly. He fluttered his eyes in disappointment; the nurse lowered her smile and walked further away towards the doctor. “I want an abortion, now right now come on what are you waiting for?” He rubbed the back of his neck nervously.
“It’s too late, your fetus is already beginning to grow” “No” I threw my head back and started crying. “Why me?” I put my forearm over my eyes, the tears stained my skin. Aaron got up from the bed and walked closer to me, he sent the nurse away. “Jessica? You mind if I call you Jess?” “No” I removed my arm and stared him dead in the eye. “I can help you….I really do like you, a lot and you never gave me the chance to love you because you always put me on hold for that other guy.
His eyes were so bright green, just another thing reminding me of Harry. “I’m sorry” I never really thought of it that way. “I can help you through this; I’ll help you with the baby…..if you want?” He rubbed the top of my head, just that gesture made me feel safe. “Yeah….” I blew out some held breath. He leaned down at brought me into a huge embrace. His buff arms tightened around my small ribs. His cologne swiped up my nose, he smelled safe and caring…..and human, I haven’t smelled a human in a long time.
“Now let’s get you home”
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Harry’s P.O.V
I rested my hand on my chin, looking out the window. We were in Paris, getting ready to board another plan to London. It was raining pretty hard; the raindrops were staining the window and sliding down. Suddenly a premonition flooded my thoughts, kicking out my previous ones.
**** I was in a huge meadow; the sun was setting giving off an orange hazy look. Somebody so beautiful was standing feet’s away twirling a flower around in her hand. “Jessica” I said the name with less confidence thinking it wasn’t her. The girl turned around and it was her. She seemed different; her hair was up to her shoulders with beach wave curls in them. She wore a short flowy dress; her legs were so perfect they could stop cars. She smiled brightly, and bit her bottom lip seductively. “You came” She whispered, but somehow I could hear from all the way over here. She came running towards me, the long grass of meadow hitting just above her knee didn’t bother her either.
Her skin was different too, it wasn’t pale and boring. It had color to it, sun kissed perfectly tan skin that made my heart flutter even harder. And this…..was all mine. She was closer now; her smile was so much bigger, brighter I couldn’t turn away for one second…..this made me happy just knowing this beautiful perfection was mine.
She kept running not losing breath. “Jess…” I whispered. She ran closer but passed me, I turned around confused. “Jess?” I watched her run into arms of another guy, but not any guy that Aaron dude. I balled my hands into a fist. “Jess, no choose me not him” But she couldn’t hear me. I forgot I can’t speak in my premonitions. I walked closer to them observing something I envied for. He wrapped her into a big hug, they both had smiling faces on. Then a small person come walking off behind the guy, tugging on Jess’s dress. I stumbled back a bit, till I lost balance and fell to the floor. “What?” Jess looked down at the girl and swooped her up in one grab and rocked her back and forth on her hip. I ran my hands threw my hair, this isn’t real.
******
I fluttered my mind back into civilization. I was back in the airport, staring off at the rain still waiting for the plane. One tear, one lost emotion dropped down my eyes on to my cheek. “Plane 143, London, England” I wiped my eyes with one finger and leaned down to grab my bags. Niall came putting his hand on my shoulder. “I know, I know mate” He was normally the only one who felt my pain. Niall fell in love once too, and he ended up in the same problem I was in….we all have been in love, but we all had to leave the one thing we loved for something better.
My eyes popped open once I became conscious again. I was lying on the hospital bed, ivy was stuck in my arm and that white thing that goes on the pointer of your finger was clamped on to me. I observed the room, it was big yet scary having something this big to yourself seem weird, I only fainted not have a child. The nurse swung back the curtain “Oh your awake” She walked over to the machine that was standing next to me, she checked on my vitals and changed that bag that hung with water in it. “Are you okay?” She glanced at me every now and then.
“Is your back okay?” I creased the middle of my forehead. “What? Actually yeah” I sat up slightly. “I’ll bring back a pillow, the doctor should be with you shortly” She walked to the end of my bed. “I’ll get you a pillow for your foot too.” Okay…this is weird, is this required when a patient pass out? I rubbed my head while looking around for my phone. I saw my purse sitting in the chair next to me; I stretched my fingers out until my finger hooked underneath the handle. I grabbed it and threw it on to my stomach, quickly took it off. A shot of pain shot threw my belly. Gosh, what do I have in here?
I dung around for my lip chap first, never know if the doctors hot. I grabbed my portable mirror, with one breath I looked at my reflection. Oh gosh, I pushed my hair into place and removed the crust out my eyes, there were barely visible black circles under my eyes….I’ve lacked this much sleep? I quickly closed the mirror and threw it back into my purse. I scrambled around some more and finally ran across my phone, I quickly grabbed it the battery was low but I had a message. I hurriedly clicked on it, I could hear the doctor entering the room. “Hello….” I gave a short wave “Hello” But kept my eyes on the message. It was an unknown number.
How are you?
I knew exactly who this was, a small part of me got happy. “So…..um” The doctor was getting irritated by me being on my phone. I threw that too back into my purse. I finally looked at the doctor. “Aaron?” He gave a shy smile. “Yeah, hey….” We both awkwardly waved at each other. “How are you?” He asked respectively. “You should be telling me that” I fumbled my hands nervously. “Are you still with that guy?” I looked down at my nervous hands. “Uh…um no actually he moved….away” He walked over and sat on the edge of the bed by my feet and reached up to rub my hands. “I’m so sorry” I stared him deep in the eye. “Why? People move all the time, I’m fine what about you?” He sighed. “No, I mean…..I’m sorry he’s not here….to help you through this” “Through what?” That one nurse came back in with two pillows, we watched her
awkwardly. She slid one under my feet and behind my back, I already felt relive in my bones. “First of all let’s move this purse off your stomach. He grabbed the purse and put it back on the chair next to me. “I thought you were a zoo host, helper guy” I was confused on his jobs. “I’m also a doctor part time, but that’s not the point.”
“Jessica….are you and this guy married?” I clenched my jaw, we could have been. “No…..” He scooted closer on to the bed. His eyes were serious with a mixture of sympathy. “Then you can’t go around saying your last name is Styles” I slightly smiled, I was so close to getting away with that. He opened the big folder he was carrying and ran his eyes down the paper. “Your six weeks, to be exact frankly” I looked over at the nurse; she was smiling from ear to ear. My heart began speeding up; I really don’t want to hear bad news come out his mouth. “Your….pregnant” I sat up quickly but gently laid back once that soreness shot threw my stomach again. “What?
No, I can’t be I’m, wait I’m a……” I quickly look over at the machine’s the heart monitor was moving rhythmically. But I’m supposed to be dead, how can I have a beating heart? “It’s ok--…” “Abortion” I said clearly. He fluttered his eyes in disappointment; the nurse lowered her smile and walked further away towards the doctor. “I want an abortion, now right now come on what are you waiting for?” He rubbed the back of his neck nervously.
“It’s too late, your fetus is already beginning to grow” “No” I threw my head back and started crying. “Why me?” I put my forearm over my eyes, the tears stained my skin. Aaron got up from the bed and walked closer to me, he sent the nurse away. “Jessica? You mind if I call you Jess?” “No” I removed my arm and stared him dead in the eye. “I can help you….I really do like you, a lot and you never gave me the chance to love you because you always put me on hold for that other guy.
His eyes were so bright green, just another thing reminding me of Harry. “I’m sorry” I never really thought of it that way. “I can help you through this; I’ll help you with the baby…..if you want?” He rubbed the top of my head, just that gesture made me feel safe. “Yeah….” I blew out some held breath. He leaned down at brought me into a huge embrace. His buff arms tightened around my small ribs. His cologne swiped up my nose, he smelled safe and caring…..and human, I haven’t smelled a human in a long time.
“Now let’s get you home”
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Harry’s P.O.V
I rested my hand on my chin, looking out the window. We were in Paris, getting ready to board another plan to London. It was raining pretty hard; the raindrops were staining the window and sliding down. Suddenly a premonition flooded my thoughts, kicking out my previous ones.
**** I was in a huge meadow; the sun was setting giving off an orange hazy look. Somebody so beautiful was standing feet’s away twirling a flower around in her hand. “Jessica” I said the name with less confidence thinking it wasn’t her. The girl turned around and it was her. She seemed different; her hair was up to her shoulders with beach wave curls in them. She wore a short flowy dress; her legs were so perfect they could stop cars. She smiled brightly, and bit her bottom lip seductively. “You came” She whispered, but somehow I could hear from all the way over here. She came running towards me, the long grass of meadow hitting just above her knee didn’t bother her either.
Her skin was different too, it wasn’t pale and boring. It had color to it, sun kissed perfectly tan skin that made my heart flutter even harder. And this…..was all mine. She was closer now; her smile was so much bigger, brighter I couldn’t turn away for one second…..this made me happy just knowing this beautiful perfection was mine.
She kept running not losing breath. “Jess…” I whispered. She ran closer but passed me, I turned around confused. “Jess?” I watched her run into arms of another guy, but not any guy that Aaron dude. I balled my hands into a fist. “Jess, no choose me not him” But she couldn’t hear me. I forgot I can’t speak in my premonitions. I walked closer to them observing something I envied for. He wrapped her into a big hug, they both had smiling faces on. Then a small person come walking off behind the guy, tugging on Jess’s dress. I stumbled back a bit, till I lost balance and fell to the floor. “What?” Jess looked down at the girl and swooped her up in one grab and rocked her back and forth on her hip. I ran my hands threw my hair, this isn’t real.
******
I fluttered my mind back into civilization. I was back in the airport, staring off at the rain still waiting for the plane. One tear, one lost emotion dropped down my eyes on to my cheek. “Plane 143, London, England” I wiped my eyes with one finger and leaned down to grab my bags. Niall came putting his hand on my shoulder. “I know, I know mate” He was normally the only one who felt my pain. Niall fell in love once too, and he ended up in the same problem I was in….we all have been in love, but we all had to leave the one thing we loved for something better.
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