DARKER DESIRES
CHAPTER 29: It's Done, Over, Period
Jessica’s P.O.V
The sunlight glowed into my room staring me into the eye, my headache was getting worse, I hid my head behind my forearm. “Uuugghh” What time is it? I dragged my arm over to the side of the table and felt around for my phone till I finally came across a light object.
I raised my head slightly with one eye open; a card was lying perfectly up like a tent on the side table with “Jessica” in black imprinted across the front. I grabbed it quickly bringing it to eye level; I wiped the corners of my eye with my palm. I opened it slowly preparing myself for an excuse.
*I had a great time, we should do this again*
I checked around the room, the sheets next to me were messed up and uncoordinated. No, no! I lift up the covers to see my bare naked body, I didn’t no, please oh god! I jumped out of the bed and hurried over towards the closet, I grabbed a new pair of panties out the hamper. I was definitely not going to pick up the ones off of the floor; those had whore written all over them. I slipped on my grey sweats and a jacket – I tied my hair into a messy bun. I slipped on my slippers and headed for the stairs but before I could go my stomach drawn me to the bathroom where I fell to the ground in front of the toilet and began throwing up my toxic’s. I cried and threw up repeatedly for minutes; I was heartbroken and disgusted by myself.
How could I have a one night stand with somebody I barely know, i felt like a hoe….what does Harry think of all this, wait he doesn’t know? Right? I don’t think so, of course he wouldn’t know. I got up off the floor and went over to the sink, I splashed the cool water on my face; calming my hot flesh down. “You’re okay Jessica” I felt like I just lied to myself, I’m not okay I’m torn. I gripped the edge of the counters, I stared up at the mirror I remember when I was in this state.
*FlashBack*
I made my way to the bathroom.
I quickly run to the countertop. I gripped it tighter and tighter with my finger nails. What did I get myself into? I quickly turned on the water, gather some in my hand and splash it on my face. The cool refreshing liquid helped settle down my burning temperature. As I cleared my face of the water, I saw an image appear behind me.
I turned around startled to see Harry standing there staring at me with sorrow deprived eyes. He reached behind him and locked the door. I quickly walked a little further away from him, spacing the distance between us. This is it! He’s going to rape me, my innocents is going to be token….well it’s not rape if you like it?
“I…I thought you left” his eyes were sincere, and vulnerable. He would be scared if I left? “Don’t leave” he continued. Something about him now was alluring; he seemed like a little innocent child that I saw for a second in the alley. He walked closer to me, carefully. He quickly smiled at the floor as his eyes reconnected with mine. “No, I’m not going to rape you……but I wish to make mad, crazy love to you right here on the counter in the bathroom”
Suddenly a loud flushing noise echoed through the bathroom as an old fragile women come quickly walking out the bathroom. We watched as she hurriedly unlocked the bathroom and left. Harry smiled deviously at the thought, of what that women could have been thinking.
“I-I barely know you and…this going way too fast” I grip the counter tighter.
“Have you ever met somebody and felt like you’ve known them your whole life?”
He walked closer and closer. My body told me to move but my heart told me to stay. I sat there watching as he inched closer and closer till he was a few inches away. “S-stay still” I did as I was told as I watched him slowly tilt his head down towards mine. His lips were moving closer and closer and I could feel my breathing get shorter and shorter.
Then boom! His lips slid on to mine, suddenly I give in. Our kiss escalates as he grabs my hips and pushes me on to the counter. This is nothing I anticipated on doing but now I can’t stop, it’s too good, way too good and now my body crave for more and more.
*FlashBack Ends*
The tears dried up now, and my skin settled. I opened the bathroom door – I jumped back startled from seeing Harry. He was mad; his face wrote it all his fists were balled tightly. His eyes were stern and focused on me.
“I don’t need that look” I walked around him and over to the bed, I grabbed up as many covers as I could and headed down stairs. I didn’t hear any footsteps behind me or anything coming from his mouth, I turned around and he wasn’t there….he was gone. What was the point of coming then? I threw the sheets first into the washer machine and put the covers on the side. I stood there for a minute then darted for the door, just something in my gut told me he knew, he knows what happens. Maybe he saw him leaving this morning? I ran out across the street over to his house. I took my time getting up the steps.
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Harry’s P.O.V
I sat in the living room watching the guys play Fifa 14, my thumb nail picked at my middle finger; I was trying to figure something out. Why? Why would she cheat on me? But I can’t think like that because I did break up with her but she knew that I was playing right? She’s rightfully mine whether she knew that or not.
“Knock, knock” Niall came from the kitchen and over to the door. “Don’t open it!” I said calmly. Niall shrugged and walked back over to the kitchen. Liam got up to check who it was through the window. “Eh Harry, it’s your girlfriend” Liam giggled. Louis shot me a mad look. “What girlfriend?” Louis’s eyes was written with glee, but Liam was confused. “What Bruv, stop Harry you know Jessica” Liam was waiting for me to respond. “Jessica…who Payne-o?” Louis gave me a side grin and gave me a nod. I smiled back – Zayn looked at Louis then at me, he shook his head making my smile fall back into a hard line.
“So ya just going to leave ha out there?” I got up from the couch, I walked over to the kitchen to join Niall with some food. I pat Liam on the shoulder “Nobody important is outside Payne-o” Liam stared at me for a minute. “So you’re just going to act like she’s not even there? Like she doesn’t exist anymore?” Liam’s questions were cutting into me deeper and deeper.
“She who Liam? Stop asking me these questions” I sat on the bar stool across the table from Niall. Liam shrugged and walked away from the window. “So Hazza, since you and Jess are you know done can I….” “No!” My eyes widened and I clenched my jaw. “I mean yeah….go for it” Letting her go right now was the hardest thing ever. Niall’s face plastered with a huge smile. Niall got up from the table and walked over to join the boys, Zayn came over to get some water.
“Just like that Harry?” “Just like that Zayn” I held my statement clear. “Not going to fight for ha” “I’m a lover not a fighter Zayn” “You don’t love ha?” I played with my food. “I’m a fighter not a lover Zayn” I tipped the corners of my mouth up higher, giving a devious smile. “Well then why are you giving up on ha?” I hate when Zayn brings out the sentimental side of me. “Because she cheated on me”
Zayn shook his head understandingly. “So you can never forgive ha?” I got up from my seat “Forgiving ha would be like forgiving my mum” I put the plate in the sink and walked away leaving our conversation on edge. Zayn grabbed my wrist “This is the kind of love you fight for, I couldn’t do that with Perrie” I yanked my wrist out his hold. “I don’t have time for your sob story Zayn” He pulled my shoulder back. “Don’t act like you don’t care Harry, cuz ya do mate….everybody knows” I turned to look at everyone in the living room. They stared at me and Zayn shaking their heads in unison. I yanked my shoulder “Caring takes patience and I don’t have the time
anymore” I turned and headed up the steps.
I quickly walked down the hall, tuning into my bedroom. i paced back and forth next to my bed, "How...why, uggh they make this so much harder" I stared all along the wall, my eyes stop along the calender pinned up to it. Seem like everything cleared my mind, i grabbed the sharpie hanging on the corner of the paper. I wrote a quick note on the day.
Happy Birthday Harry! Everything that's been going on, i forgot it was even my own birthday......and seem like everybody else forgot too.
The sunlight glowed into my room staring me into the eye, my headache was getting worse, I hid my head behind my forearm. “Uuugghh” What time is it? I dragged my arm over to the side of the table and felt around for my phone till I finally came across a light object.
I raised my head slightly with one eye open; a card was lying perfectly up like a tent on the side table with “Jessica” in black imprinted across the front. I grabbed it quickly bringing it to eye level; I wiped the corners of my eye with my palm. I opened it slowly preparing myself for an excuse.
*I had a great time, we should do this again*
I checked around the room, the sheets next to me were messed up and uncoordinated. No, no! I lift up the covers to see my bare naked body, I didn’t no, please oh god! I jumped out of the bed and hurried over towards the closet, I grabbed a new pair of panties out the hamper. I was definitely not going to pick up the ones off of the floor; those had whore written all over them. I slipped on my grey sweats and a jacket – I tied my hair into a messy bun. I slipped on my slippers and headed for the stairs but before I could go my stomach drawn me to the bathroom where I fell to the ground in front of the toilet and began throwing up my toxic’s. I cried and threw up repeatedly for minutes; I was heartbroken and disgusted by myself.
How could I have a one night stand with somebody I barely know, i felt like a hoe….what does Harry think of all this, wait he doesn’t know? Right? I don’t think so, of course he wouldn’t know. I got up off the floor and went over to the sink, I splashed the cool water on my face; calming my hot flesh down. “You’re okay Jessica” I felt like I just lied to myself, I’m not okay I’m torn. I gripped the edge of the counters, I stared up at the mirror I remember when I was in this state.
*FlashBack*
I made my way to the bathroom.
I quickly run to the countertop. I gripped it tighter and tighter with my finger nails. What did I get myself into? I quickly turned on the water, gather some in my hand and splash it on my face. The cool refreshing liquid helped settle down my burning temperature. As I cleared my face of the water, I saw an image appear behind me.
I turned around startled to see Harry standing there staring at me with sorrow deprived eyes. He reached behind him and locked the door. I quickly walked a little further away from him, spacing the distance between us. This is it! He’s going to rape me, my innocents is going to be token….well it’s not rape if you like it?
“I…I thought you left” his eyes were sincere, and vulnerable. He would be scared if I left? “Don’t leave” he continued. Something about him now was alluring; he seemed like a little innocent child that I saw for a second in the alley. He walked closer to me, carefully. He quickly smiled at the floor as his eyes reconnected with mine. “No, I’m not going to rape you……but I wish to make mad, crazy love to you right here on the counter in the bathroom”
Suddenly a loud flushing noise echoed through the bathroom as an old fragile women come quickly walking out the bathroom. We watched as she hurriedly unlocked the bathroom and left. Harry smiled deviously at the thought, of what that women could have been thinking.
“I-I barely know you and…this going way too fast” I grip the counter tighter.
“Have you ever met somebody and felt like you’ve known them your whole life?”
He walked closer and closer. My body told me to move but my heart told me to stay. I sat there watching as he inched closer and closer till he was a few inches away. “S-stay still” I did as I was told as I watched him slowly tilt his head down towards mine. His lips were moving closer and closer and I could feel my breathing get shorter and shorter.
Then boom! His lips slid on to mine, suddenly I give in. Our kiss escalates as he grabs my hips and pushes me on to the counter. This is nothing I anticipated on doing but now I can’t stop, it’s too good, way too good and now my body crave for more and more.
*FlashBack Ends*
The tears dried up now, and my skin settled. I opened the bathroom door – I jumped back startled from seeing Harry. He was mad; his face wrote it all his fists were balled tightly. His eyes were stern and focused on me.
“I don’t need that look” I walked around him and over to the bed, I grabbed up as many covers as I could and headed down stairs. I didn’t hear any footsteps behind me or anything coming from his mouth, I turned around and he wasn’t there….he was gone. What was the point of coming then? I threw the sheets first into the washer machine and put the covers on the side. I stood there for a minute then darted for the door, just something in my gut told me he knew, he knows what happens. Maybe he saw him leaving this morning? I ran out across the street over to his house. I took my time getting up the steps.
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Harry’s P.O.V
I sat in the living room watching the guys play Fifa 14, my thumb nail picked at my middle finger; I was trying to figure something out. Why? Why would she cheat on me? But I can’t think like that because I did break up with her but she knew that I was playing right? She’s rightfully mine whether she knew that or not.
“Knock, knock” Niall came from the kitchen and over to the door. “Don’t open it!” I said calmly. Niall shrugged and walked back over to the kitchen. Liam got up to check who it was through the window. “Eh Harry, it’s your girlfriend” Liam giggled. Louis shot me a mad look. “What girlfriend?” Louis’s eyes was written with glee, but Liam was confused. “What Bruv, stop Harry you know Jessica” Liam was waiting for me to respond. “Jessica…who Payne-o?” Louis gave me a side grin and gave me a nod. I smiled back – Zayn looked at Louis then at me, he shook his head making my smile fall back into a hard line.
“So ya just going to leave ha out there?” I got up from the couch, I walked over to the kitchen to join Niall with some food. I pat Liam on the shoulder “Nobody important is outside Payne-o” Liam stared at me for a minute. “So you’re just going to act like she’s not even there? Like she doesn’t exist anymore?” Liam’s questions were cutting into me deeper and deeper.
“She who Liam? Stop asking me these questions” I sat on the bar stool across the table from Niall. Liam shrugged and walked away from the window. “So Hazza, since you and Jess are you know done can I….” “No!” My eyes widened and I clenched my jaw. “I mean yeah….go for it” Letting her go right now was the hardest thing ever. Niall’s face plastered with a huge smile. Niall got up from the table and walked over to join the boys, Zayn came over to get some water.
“Just like that Harry?” “Just like that Zayn” I held my statement clear. “Not going to fight for ha” “I’m a lover not a fighter Zayn” “You don’t love ha?” I played with my food. “I’m a fighter not a lover Zayn” I tipped the corners of my mouth up higher, giving a devious smile. “Well then why are you giving up on ha?” I hate when Zayn brings out the sentimental side of me. “Because she cheated on me”
Zayn shook his head understandingly. “So you can never forgive ha?” I got up from my seat “Forgiving ha would be like forgiving my mum” I put the plate in the sink and walked away leaving our conversation on edge. Zayn grabbed my wrist “This is the kind of love you fight for, I couldn’t do that with Perrie” I yanked my wrist out his hold. “I don’t have time for your sob story Zayn” He pulled my shoulder back. “Don’t act like you don’t care Harry, cuz ya do mate….everybody knows” I turned to look at everyone in the living room. They stared at me and Zayn shaking their heads in unison. I yanked my shoulder “Caring takes patience and I don’t have the time
anymore” I turned and headed up the steps.
I quickly walked down the hall, tuning into my bedroom. i paced back and forth next to my bed, "How...why, uggh they make this so much harder" I stared all along the wall, my eyes stop along the calender pinned up to it. Seem like everything cleared my mind, i grabbed the sharpie hanging on the corner of the paper. I wrote a quick note on the day.
Happy Birthday Harry! Everything that's been going on, i forgot it was even my own birthday......and seem like everybody else forgot too.
Notes
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I LOVE CHOO P.S HAPPY BIRTHDAY HARRY, just give me a second to cry our baby is 20 the once boy that was 16 and was on the X-factor is 20 we've grown with him! <3
@The Dreaming Angel
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3/18/14