Shattered

Harry's P.O.V-
I can't believe I actually said that kissing her was a mistake. What kind of an idiot am I? Honestly, kissing her was probably the only thing I've done right ever since the X Factor. But why did I have to go tell her it was a mistake?! Why did I ruin everything?!

"Babe? Where are you?!" I heard a very feminine voice call from my kitchen. When the boys and I came back, Simon had gotten us our own flats. You're probably wondering who is calling me. It's my girlfriend, Chloe. She's 19 years old, almost 20, tall, curvy but still skinny, fake blond... Yup, that kind of girl...

"Ah! There you are!" She says, coming in. She was wearing a black lace underwear and bra under one of my button up shirts, that was open. Ok, you can start judging me....

"Hey" I say flatly, not even faking happiness or anything. She frown and sits down next to me, placing a had on my left arm. Despite her mean attitude and slutty ways, she's actually nice and caring.

"What's wrong, babe?" She asks. I sigh.

"I thought I'd get over her, but..." She nods, patting my arm slightly. See, Chloe is a slut and she's also really mean, but she has a heart, and we actually were great friends back in High School. She was the popular, mean girl, but she was nice to some. Underneath all this act of pure evil, she's kind and caring.

"Dude, you love her, you're being a stupid ass, you know?" She swears a lot too. Sigh.

"I know, but I don't want to ruin our friendship, and honestly I'm a wimp" I blurt out, before face palming. I feel so stupid sometimes.

"Yeah, you are a wimp. You're like those little bitches from High School, scared to even look at their crush" She rolls her eyes before walking over to 'our' closet.

I see you're still confused as to why I'm dating her and all of this madness is happening, so let me explain: Chloe and I met again at a caffee on Christmas Morning, we talked for hours and I told her about Angel and everything. She listened quietly, and then suggested that I surprised her with a special date. That reminded me of the fight I had with Gemma the night I arrived...

*Flashback*

"Harry! Why are you so scared?!" Gemma yelled at me, frustrated. She had tried to convince me to plan a special surprise date for Angel and tell her my feelings. I was beyond scared of the idea of confessing my feelings to the most beautiful creature I have ever seen.

"I don't know! You fall in love then tell me if you wont get scared of confessing!" I yelled back, hitting with a magazine on the counter.

"WHY CAN'T YOU JUST MAN UP AND ASK HER OUT ALREADY?!" She yelled even louder and angrier than before.

"BECAUSE SHE'S SPECIAL! I DON'T WANT TO RUIN EVERYTHING! I DON'T WANT TO RUIN HER!!" I said, finally admitting why I was truly scared. A player like me didn't deserve and angel like her.

"OH MY GOSH! YOU'RE BEING SO RIDICULOUS!" She yelled, laughing bitterly at the end.

"SO WHAT IF I AM?!" I yelled, before throwing the magazine across the kitchen and stomping upstairs to my room, muttering cuss words and curses...

*End of flashback*


So after that, I decided that I'd try to forget Angel and move on with my so called life. The end. But I can't. No matter how hard I try, or how much I wish I could, I can't forget her eyes. Her lips. Her smile. Her voice. Her petite body. Her long eye lashes. Her.


"Dude, you're so not getting over her anytime soon" Chloe laughed from the other side of the room. She had a white dress on, tight fitting and matching high heels. A high pony tail that reached her shoulders, sunglasses for some odd reason, and some jewelry. I got dressed in whatever I found and we walked towards the elevator. We rode and walked in silence until we reached her car. I hugged her tight.

"Since you're taken, I might as well go guy hunting" She winked. I laughed lightly, feeling a bit bad for not really being a good boyfriend, at all.

"I'm sorry, for not being a good boyfriend" I said, looking down ashamed.

"Hey, I'm a whore, I have no feelings, don't worry" She laughed and winked again. I smiled cheekily and winked at her. She pulled me into a kiss, snacking her arms around my neck. I put my hands on her hips and we snogged for some time. She broke the kiss and kissed my cheek one last time.

"See ya around pretty curls" She smiled and got in her car.

"See ya around slut" I smiled back. She waved and sped off. I sat on the ground and thought for a bit.

Do I need Angelica? Yes. Do I love her? No doubt in that, I think we can all see I'm crazy over her. Do I deserve her? Hell no, never. Does she want me? I have no idea. Can I call Gemma and admit defeat? NO! NEVER! .... Maybe not now.... Later...


I know what I have to do...


Angelica's P.O.V-

"It's been three hours and still!" I said frustrated. Laura sighed heavily and sat down on the park's bench.

"Hey! What about that house?" Jake yelled, calling us over. He pointed towards a small little house. It was cute, and it was close to the park, not to mention I love the color on the walls.

God, is this what you want? Is this the house? I asked God in my mind. Suddenly, I looked back at the house, smiled wide and a feeling of pure peace and happiness flooded me. Yup, this is the one.

"I guess we found a new house, Jake" I smiled and held him up. He clapped and cheered.

"Yey! New house! But, please promise this is the last one" He finished, looking at me worriedly. I laughed and nodded.

"I promise, this is the last one" I said and gave him an eskimo kiss.

"This one was put in the market yesterday, you're in luck! The price is still accessible and it's close to a little cute coffee shop, the park obviously, and a few grocery stores. It's quite the family's home type" The estate agent said. She was a woman that looked in her early 30's, wore a very tight fitting suit, but knew what she was doing. She took us to the best places in London and even in the outskirts and showed us beautiful houses, big houses, spacious houses, but none of them really looked family like. Then she took us to the more family like side of town.

"Thank you so much for the help" I said, gripping her hands in mine and smiling. She smiled back and hugged me. I hugged back and we walked inside to take a look.

"It's so.... white" Jake said. I laughed lightly and nodded, agreeing. This place would need a major decoration session.

"Let Jake explore the house while we talk about the paper work" Mrs. James suggested. Laura, who was extremely quiet, nodded along with me and followed her in the kitchen.

"So, the house isn't for rent, it's for sale" She began. We talked about prices and investments and such. Thanks to my job, I had saved enough money to buy the house, and still have a lot, and I mean a lot more money to buy furniture, food, and decorations.

I'm finally going to be at peace. No boys. No dad. No memories. A new beginning. A new start. A new life. I might even make new friends. Laura said her house was close, and indeed it was. The little coffee shop was gorgeous and adorable. There was also a book store nearby. The park was close, of course. It wasn't so far away from Jake's school. It's perfect. Finally, perfect....

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