The Lovers

Kay's P.O.V:

“Truly, madly, deeply, I have… foolishly completely fallen. And somehow you kicked all my walls in, so baby, say you’ll always keep me truly, madly, crazy, deeply in love with you.” He finished the phrase and kissed me again. “You should sing to me all the time.” He smiled, rolling from above me.

“Well, you never asked me too.” I said, kissing his cheek and moving my head to lie on his chest.

“I didn’t know if you would be comfortable with it. Can I ask you something?” He toyed with my curls, something he hadn’t done in a long time. It reminded me of when we first met and I felt my heart constrict, painfully but familiarly at the same time.

“You’ve seen me naked… there’s no need to be shy anymore.” I laughed, trying to cover up my unease. “What did you want to ask me?” What could he possibly need to ask me was what I really meant. I was afraid he’d found the string of threatening and menacing texts Danielle had sent me. I was keeping them… in case she tried to deny her words.

“When you left… why did you do it?” I sucked in a shaky breath. It was the one subject I never thought we’d bring up again.

“Well, I- I thought you were done with me.” Before I knew it, his warm hand was underneath my chin, turning my face so he could look in my eyes.

“Why? Why do you think I’d run out that easily?” He asked, his lips dangerously close to mine. I had to look down to explain. His stare felt as if it were burning through me, seeing through my skin to my skull.

“Because we… we’re different. I’ve never been Rachel-innocent or Sami-shy or anything. I wasn’t uncomfortable in my own skin… I actually remember using my ‘feminine woes’ as my mother calls them, to get what I wanted sometimes.” He grunted, clearly annoyed, but he didn’t interrupt.

“But I always had issues with commitment. A fling here, a fling there, short relationships to distract me. It was… about self-preservation. I needed to protect my heart no matter what. And when Danielle gave me the proposition of you… well, it was shocking. I had to make you fall for me, without falling myself. Which, let me tell you, is not exactly easy, Mr. Liam Payne.” I continued. He smiled a little, before making a simple comment.

“Well, I’ve heard that it’s hard for girls to resist the temptations of the One Direction Infection, I believe it’s called.” I lifted up, staring at him with my mouth open. Just for effect, I smacked his chest.

“That’s a lie and you know it. Okay, maybe not a complete lie, but really…” He stared in utter confusion. More explaining is what that meant. “When we were together, you were really mean sometimes but other times, you were the sweetest guy ever. You could be… intimidating and romantic and everything is between, which is what made you so hot. I fell in love with Liam James Payne, son of Geoff and Karen… not Liam James Payne, member of One Direction.” He ran his hand up my arm and pulled me over, so that even though I was sitting up, his legs were between mine. The thin, soft fabric of my Victoria Secrets nightie wasn’t providing much protection against the heat of his skin.

“Keep talking…” He smirked.

“When I fell, I fell hard… and that scared me. But being with you—it just made so much sense. It felt right. Up until the other day. You don’t know what it feels like… to think the only person you’ve ever loved has given up on you. It’s like—like a small black hole inside you that’s growing and growing and it’s only purpose is to consume you in guilt of things you didn’t even mean to do wrong. It feels like… you don’t deserve to have love. You’re not perfect enough.” I said, allowing a stray tear to drip down my cheek onto his bare chest.

“Kay, I’m sorry I made you feel that way. But I do know how it feels—even if I can’t relate to that—when you think everything you knew is a lie. When you told me what you and Danielle did… I couldn’t help but think that it was still happening. You were still playing me and I couldn’t tell you what that I was feeling because I didn’t know how. So, I didn’t say anything.” The tears fell in a steady stream down my cheeks now and I could see a couple glinting in his eyes, as well. I didn’t know what to say. We’d already told each other everything we needed to, at the time.

Instead, I brushed my hair away from my face with my hand and leaned down, placing my lips on his. It was a whisper of a kiss, but more than I could ever ask for. And we didn’t need to make love or anything… because the fact that we were together was enough. At least, I hoped it was.

“I love you.” He whispered, bringing me to lie beside him.

“I love you, too.” I smiled, lying on his chest again.

“Good, ‘cause I’m never letting you go again. It sucks, sleeping alone.” I smiled, deciding not to tell him the bi-polar-ness I experienced during our short “break.” We fell asleep that way. I had finally accomplished the one thing I needed to on the trip. Happiness. I knew it would be hard… so that was my only goal.

“Kiss me, like you wanna be loved…” My phone sang, waking me up.

“Ugh. Fucking Val and her freaking issues.” I mumbled, checking my phone while trying not to wake Liam. It was three in the mothertrucking morning. God. Friends these days.

But it wasn’t Val with one of her much expected, but not occurred, Hazz rants.

Danielle: After the happiness comes the trap. Enjoy your day… don’t get your tail stuck.

And here we go with this bitch. I’m not a fucking mouse… and I don’t have a tail. What the hell is she talking about? Again, I didn’t respond. I went to put my phone away but it rang again.

“Shit.” I said, aloud, fumbling for it again. I silenced it before reading another new message.

Rach: I just made the biggest decision… we need to talk.

Kay: Okay, we can talk tomorrow. Go the fuck to bed. You almost woke Li. Lol. Night.

Rach: Niiight J

Now, I have my problems, Rachel’s, and my psychopathic ex-best friend to deal with. Just fuck everything.

Notes

A/N: Soooo took me forever to update. Sorry for that but I had a bunch of stuff going on. Yeeeah so I'll try and update more :) Love ya.

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-Kay