Envy (Niall Horan) [BOOK 1]

ELIS POV
It has been four days since the last time I saw Harry. He hasn't visited me and I wonder why. I hope I didn't offend him or anything. Wait. Why do I even care? He was a jerk to me and I'm glad he hasn't visited me. But what if he's sick or he got hurt or-
"Eli are you okay?" Niall asks, interrupting my thoughts.
"Oh um ya I'm fine. Sorry I was just thinking." I say slightly embarrassed.
"Watcha thinking about?" He asks walking closer to my bed.
"Oh nothing. Um I'm just a little hungry. Can you pass me the gelatin the nurse left me that's over there?" I lie. I'm not even hungry.
"Sure." He states with a little suspicion in his voice.
He walks to the little table in the corner of the room, grabs it, and begins to eat it himself.
"Hey! Why are you eating that?"
"Eli, I know you're not hungry. Tell me what's on your mind."
Damn he knows me so well. I can't tell him that I'm worried about Harry though. I don't want him to think I like Harry or anything. I mean I don't. Do I? No, no I don't. But wh-
"Eli!" I hear Niall say louder.
"Oh I'm sorry...again." I retort.
He chuckles.
"It's ok. Now tell me what's wrong."
"Well I... I miss my mom a lot." I reply. I didn't lie this time. I do miss my mom. I always do.
He stares at me for a while. I can tell he's thinking. I guess he doesn't know how to quite respond to what I just said.
He then grabs my hand and squeezes it tight.
"Don't worry Eli. I bet she's here in this room as we speak. She will always be with you. I will always be with you as well. Okay? Even though you don't talk to them much, the lads will always be here for you too." He states with seriousness and compassion.
I nod and then realize that he just gave me the ticket to be able to ask him about Harry without him being suspicious about it.
"How are they by the way? What have you guys been doing lately?" I ask trying not to state Harry's name.
Niall looks a little shocked by my questions and smiles a little.
"Well they've been good. The other day Zayn got his driver's license and Louis received like ten boxes filled with only carrots from fans! It was hilarious. His face was priceless. He hates getting carrots and he looked so pissed off." He replies while laughing.
I laugh along with him even though I'm a little confused. Why would fans send him carrots? Whatever, I will ask him about it later.
"How's Harry? Oh and um Liam?"
Nice save. I praise myself.
"Oh, well Harry has been helping Zayn prepare for his driving test the whole week practically and Liam-"
I zoned out the rest of the words Niall was telling me.
Harry had a reason for not visiting me. I can't help the smile on my face. What if he's going to visit me today? I must smell horrible! Maybe a nurse could braid some of my hair or-
"Eli. Why are you so smiley?"
I really need to stop zoning out in my own thoughts.
"I'm just glad they're doing well." I state with a smile.
Niall smiles back. He then looks down at our hands, and notices how he's still holding mine and quickly lets go.
"Um I got to pee." He states looking a little red.
"Niall maybe you should drink some water. You look like you're getting hot." I suggest.
He laughs oddly and heads to the bathroom.
That boy needs some sleep.
While Niall's in the bathroom, I begin to twirl a piece of my hair that wasn't shaved off, around my finger. I then hear a knock on the door and my head almost instantly turns to the door.
A smile instantly grows on my face. I really hope it's Harry.
I then suddenly frown when I see how it's Sofy. She looks like she's been crying.
"What are you doing here?" I ask.
"Hi I uh just wanted to see how you were doing." She states nervously.
"I'm fine."
There's an awkward silence in the room.
Niall then walks out of the bathroom.
"Hey I- oh hi Sofy." Niall says awkwardly.
"Do I need to-?" He asks while heading towards the room door.
"No she was just about to leave." I coldly reply while staring at Sofy.
Sofy bites her lip and then walks up to me.
"I'm not going to leave until you here what I have to say." She demands.
"Why should I listen to anything you have to say? Everything that comes out of your mouth is a lie." I reply angrily.
I hear the room door close and notice how Niall left the room.
"Eli I didn't lie to you to hurt you!"
"Sofy, I was dying inside. I know that you knew I was, yet you still lied to me." I comment sternly.
"Eli if you only saw how unhealthy you were before. You were skin and bones. You were dying on the inside and out. I saw how you were destroying yourself. I couldn't bear to see you like that. You weren't healthy El." She replies while obviously trying not to cry.
"You aren't my mom. Stop trying to be." I state.
"Eli, I know I'm not your mom. I could never be as wonderful and amazing as she was. I'm not here to be her or try to be. You are like my sister Eli. You are my best friend. If you saw that Niall was doing that to himself, you would probably do what I did if it meant him being healthy again."
I stare at her in silence and realize that she's right. If Niall did what I did, I don't think I could handle that. I sigh and look at her.
"I'm sorry." I say.
"No I'm sorry. None of this was your fault." She adds while hugging me.
She then let's go and looks at me.
"We good?" She asks.
I nod and I give my sister another hug.
The next day
Sofy stayed for a few more hours, but had to leave because she had to work the night shift at the hotel. I waited the rest of the night for Harry. He didn't come. At least Niall stayed with me. He wanted to sleep here, but I wanted him to feel comfortable so I made him go back to the hotel to get some rest.
It's the morning now and Niall texted me saying that he's heading over here.
I'm having my breakfast right now which consists of gelatin, water, an apple, and soup. When I get out of here, I'm going to get a burger and fries. I've been craving one. For now, I'm going to have to eat this.
As I'm eating the gelatin, I hear a knock on the door.
"Wow Niall that wa-"
I couldn't help the smile on my face.
"Why do you always think I'm Niall?" I hear Harry ask while chuckling.
"I don't know, he's kind of the only one that visits me." I say trying to imply the fact that Harry hasn't visited me in a long time.
Harry grabs the chair and drags it next to me, and sits down in it.
"I was going to visit you yesterday, but Zayn wanted to treat me to dinner since I helped him get his driver's license." He stated.
"Dinner? What are you guys dating?" I say with a grin.
He chuckles.
"Shh don't say it too loud. No one's supposed to know yet." He comments.
I then laugh more which causes him to laugh even louder.
"Niall was right. You do have an infectious laugh." He states while staring into my eyes.
I feel my stomach beginning to twist again and I bite my lip from nervousness.
I then stare at him and look into his eyes. They're so green and sparkly.
I then see how he turns away and he begins to chuckle again.
"What?" I ask.
"You're just not what I expected." He simply states looking at me again.
"What did you expect?" I ask curiously.
"Well I kind of thought you we're an arrogant, fake jerk." He states regrettably but honestly.
"Wow. That's what I thought about you!" I say jokingly.
He then laughs.
"I'm glad I got proven wrong." He adds.
I feel my cheeks heat up again which causes him to smile.
"Harry, why did you think I was like that? Fake." I ask seriously.
His smile fades and he looks serious as well.
"You kind of were looking through Niall's phone when I first saw you and you seemed too young to be a house keeper, so I just thought you were a crazed fan in disguise." He honestly comments.
I nod in understanding.
"By the way why were you looking through his phone that day?" He asked with one raised eyebrow.
"Well I kind of wanted to know how you guys could afford a room at this hotel especially since you guys are young. I thought that maybe I could find out more info if I snooped around your rooms. I'm sorry, I wasn't really thinking that day and that was rude of me."
"Why were you so interested?"
I can't tell him that I was even poorer than I was now back then, I was depressed, and I kind of had nothing better to do so I lied.
"Like I said before, you guys are young and I've never met young people that have stayed at a hotel this expensive by themselves."
He observes me for a few seconds.
"When you're ready to tell me the truth, I'll be here." He adds.
He's going to be here.
"Are you going to visit me more often?" I blurt out. Why the hell did I ask that? Now he's going to think I'm a clingy weirdo.
"Do you want me to, love?" he asks with a stupid grin on his face.
"First sweetheart now love. You kind of like giving me annoying nicknames don't you?" I say.
He begins to laugh his adorable laugh. I mean um he begins to laugh... un-adorably.
"I know you like them." He states.
"To be honest no. I really don't. Why don't you just call me Eli?" I suggest.
I can tell he's thinking about it.
"Hmm... everybody calls you Eli. I don't want to be like everybody sweet heart."
"Why do you call me sweet heart and love anyway? Those sound like couple nick names. What? Does a certain someone like me?" I teasingly say.
His smile fades and he just stares at me.
Oh no I hope I didn't freak him out. I was just playing around.
He then leans his head closer to me until were a few inches apart. He's just looking into my eyes.
My stomach is twisting like it never has before.
I catch him staring at my lips and then back into my eyes. I feel myself blush uncontrollably.
He then leans his face in a little closer. He lifts his hand up and moves a piece of hair out of my face slowly and puts it behind my ear. I feel and hear his breathing as well as my heart beating out of my chest.
"You had a piece of hair in your face." He whispers.
I'm speechless. I don't even know what to say.
His eyes then look down to my lips once again and then back to my eyes. Curly then gets out of the seat.
He then grabs my hand and kisses it softly.
"Good bye love." He says before walking out the room.
What the hell was that?
A few minutes later Niall comes in.
"Sorry I'm late I was- are you okay Eli?" he asks.
I'm still frozen to the spot and Harry's kiss is still lingering on my hand.
"Uhuh." I reply to Niall. I can't form any words right now.
I'm so confused.
Nialls POV and three weeks later
The lads and myself are in Simon's office right now. He's kind of late so the boys and I are just sitting in front of his desk. Today Eli gets to leave the hospital. The doctor said that she has to remain in a wheel chair for a little while because her ribs still have to heal, but at least we can hang out again.
"What do you think Simon needs to talk to us about?" Liam asks.
"Probably about upcoming interviews or something." Louis replies.
"What if it's something bad?" Zayn says a little nervous.
"Don't worry Zayn, Simon isn't going to take your hair products away." Harry comments.
Everyone began to laugh except Zayn.
"Really Harry? Are you ever going to let me live that down?" Zayn asks.
"Nope." Harry says popping the p.
"I'm going to g-" Zayn tries saying but gets interrupted by Simon.
"Hello boys. Good morning. Sorry I'm late; there was a lot of traffic."
"It's alright Simon." Liam says.
"Okay so I called you all in here so we can talk about the American tour."
"When is it?" I ask.
"In two months." He replies.
"How long?" I ask regrettably.
"Niall, it's going to be like every tour. It's going to take at least a year. Maybe ten months minimum."
I feel sadness spread through me almost automatically. I can't leave Eli again.
I look over at the boys and see how there all pleased with it except Harry. Harry's just looking at his hands.
"We haven't even finished the second album yet." Harry comments.
"You guys will be finishing it while on tour." Simon states.
Harry and I both sigh in unison.
The rest of the meeting was about the tour dates and the cities we we're going to perform in.
I wasn't really paying attention though. The rest of the meeting I was just playing with my yarn bracelet and thinking about what I'm going to do about Eli.

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