Nialls POV: Ever since I visited Eli at the Hospital, all I could think about is her. Not in the obsessive kind of way, but in an “I miss her” way. I’m not in love with her or anything but when you have a close bond with someone, it’s hard to just ignore it and act as if it we’re never there. She’s just so real. She also has so many walls that I just want to help break down. I feel as if even though she trusted me, she was never secure enough with herself to really open up to me about her past.
I didn’t have enough time with her. I just wish I did. When I saw her in the hospital, looking like another person I had conflicted thoughts. I had selfish ones which kept on telling me to just let it go, as long as I can keep in touch with her maybe she’ll get better. I knew that those thoughts we’re the wrong way to think and that I had to think about her instead of myself.
It’s been rough for me. Having to hear every day from her rude roommate about how better off she is doing without me…How she’s gotten over our friendship and possibly has forgotten all about it. I couldn’t help myself though. I had to know if she was fine. I just had to! I guess I was waiting for something bad to happen so I could go to her to help her and I would be back in her life again.
That never happened. I never took off that bracelet she made me, but I wouldn’t be surprised if she forgot about hers or threw it away. The lads noticed and would sometimes try to convince me to take it off, but I couldn’t. Harry hates Eli for some reason. I don’t know why, but it pisses me off. Even though she probably forgot about me, it still isn’t a reason to hate someone. Eli, no matter what, will always be one of the most amazing people I’ve ever met.
I’m back now, in the hotel, and I’m nervous. Even though Sofy and I planned everything out so I wouldn’t run into Eli, I’m still scared. I don’t think I’m going to be able to avoid her for six months. When I told Simon why I don’t understand why he picked this hotel out of the hundreds that are here, he told me it was because the time I was mobbed here actually brought us more publicity. Shit. So were here again for my own fault.
What if I see her in the halls, or when I come back from rehearsals, or if one of the boys orders room service, or…. I have to try to calm down. Man, I wish I could just hear her voice. I haven’t heard it in such a long time. Her voice is so soothing. That’s one of many reasons why I loved talking to her so much.
I have to stop thinking about her, but I just can’t. What’s wrong with me?
I decide to take a walk around the hotel since the lads and I just finished rehearsing and we can do whatever we please. I see a maid with a cleaning cart walking towards the back of the hotel so I decide to follow her. She’s heading to the cleaning supply closet. All the memories start to burst inside my mind. I continue to observe her from a secretive distance and see how she grabs a key from under a matt and unlocks the door. When she leaves the closet and puts the key back under the matt, I wait till she is completely gone, and walk to the door. I get the key from under the rough dirty matt and unlock the door.
I walk inside and shut the door behind me. I stroll to the middle of the room and sit down. I observe the atmosphere around me and I begin to reminisce. On the corner of my eye I see two spray bottles. I can’t help the smile on my face at the memory of Eli and I spraying each other with them. I won. I laugh a little at the thought until the thought of her came back. I begin to put my hands through my hair and regret that I even came in here. Being in here is just making me sad. When I’m about to get up I hear someone unlocking the door. Crap I’m in trouble.
I feel my jaw drop as I see Eli coming in holding something in her hand. When she turns around I can’t help the word out of my mouth.
“Eli?”
Wow. I’m and idiot. Of course it’s her.
She turns around nervously and I see the shocked expression on her face.
Sofy is going to murder me.
“N-niall?”
She suddenly drops what she was holding in her hand and begins to run out.
I glance at the floor to see what she dropped. As I walk closer to it, I see how it’s her friendship bracelet.
Why was she holding it? Why was she here? Why why?
I shake my thoughts, pick up the bracelet, and run after her.
When I’m outside the storage closet I see her about to enter the hotel from the back door.
I run as fast as I can to try to catch up to her. I feel my breathing becoming heavy due to the amount of energy I’m using to try to catch up to her.
I see her running down the hallway. Maybe if I call her name, she will turn around and stop.
“Eli! Eli please!”
That isn’t working.
When I’m finally about to catch up to her, she goes inside one of the rooms, I’m guessing hers, and quickly locks it from the inside.
I stop and catch my breath before I begin to knock on the door.
“Eli, please talk to me.”
I can tell she’s right next to the door, since I can hear her breathing.
“Eli plea-“
“Niall you have caused me enough pain. Can you please just leave me alone.” I hear her faint voice through the door.
She’s crying. If all the things Sofy has told me we’re true, why is Eli crying, and why was she holding the friendship bracelet at the storage closet?
I think I’ve been lied to.
I knock again, this time more desperately as the urge to wanting to talk to Eli is growing.
“Eli it’s important please open up.”
I step back as I hear a sigh and the lock of the door unlocking.
Eli is standing right in front of me. Her eyes are puffy and red as well as her cheeks.
I stare at her for a while trying to take in the image of her being healthy. I grin at the thought of her being healthy. Even though her hair is in a messy bun and her shirt is covered in tears, she’s healthy.
My mind then returns to the fact that she was crying. I glance behind her to see tissues scattered all over the floor in her room behind her. Why was she crying this much?
“Niall w-what’s s-so import-tant?” she asks looking straight into my eyes with sadness and pain in hers.
“Why have you been crying Eli?”
She looks down for a second and then back at me.
“Go away Niall. I should’ve never opened the door.”
She’s about to go back inside her room until I grab her wrist.
“Wait.” I comment.
She turns around back to me.
“You dropped this.” I say while handing her the bracelet she dropped.
She stares at the bracelet in her hand for a few seconds then sighs.
“I don’t need it anymore. Goodbye Niall.” She states while handing it back to me.
Eli then goes back in her room and locks the door once again.
I try knocking again, but this time she doesn’t answer.
I’m about to walk away when I spot a familiar face on the corner of my eye walking towards me.
“What in the hell are you doing here?” I hear Eli’s rude roommate say.
“Why was Eli crying Sofy?” I ask completely ignoring her question.
She looks down and bites her lip before she meets my gaze again.
“It’s none of your business. Now tell me why you’re here!”
Damn this lady gets me aggravated.
“NOT UNTIL YOU TELL ME WHY SHE’S IN THERE FUCKING CRYING!” I yell.
“SHE’S FUCKING CRYING BECAUSE OF YOU NIALL! BECAUSE OF YOU!”
I feel frozen at the spot. Eli was crying because of me?
“But I thought you said that she doesn’t even care about me anymore.” I say.
Sofy tries to calm herself down.
“Niall, she’s been devastated. She cried so much over you forgetting about her, that she even ran out of tears and even became mute for a while.”
She couldn’t look me in the eye anymore.
“You lied to me. Why?”
“If I told you how miserable she was, I know you would’ve come back, leave her again, and she would go back to her unhealthy ways.”
“We need to tell her the truth Sofy. I don’t want to lie to her anymore.”
“We can’t and won’t do that Niall.”
“Yes we will! If you won’t tell her I will!” I feel my voice starting to rise again. I don’t like screaming at people but she just pisses me the hell off.
“Oh really. What makes you think she’s even going to talk to you, much less trust you again.” Sofy says with an evil smirk.
“I’m not going to give up on Eli. I’m going to get my best friend back.” I state while walking away.
1 week later
I feel like shit. Eli is still not talking to me, no matter how hard I’m trying. I tried ordering room service a dozen times hoping she will talk to me, but every time she delivered it her face would be blank with no emotion.
I also tried sending her gifts like sunflowers, knowing there her favorite flowers, and teddy bears. I know it’s cheesy but she likes that kind of stuff. Any way, they would always be sent back to my room.
I sent her letters as well, but like the flowers and bears, they would be sent back to my room unopened.
I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel as if I’m becoming dead inside due to this amount of rejection.
I’m in Harry’s hotel room right now in his bed, just staring at the ceiling and thinking.
“Niall are you okay?” My curly hair lad asks me while coming out of the bathroom.
“Ya, I guess.” I say while still staring at the ceiling.
“What’s wrong? Why have you been so down lately mate? I’m starting to get worried.”
“Nothing I’m fine.”
“Is it about that maid girl again? I mean come on Niall when are you going to figure out that she is a fake-“
“Harry.”
“She doesn’t care about you, she never has she-“
“Harry.”
“She’s just a crazy fan an-“
“HARRY! Don’t talk about her that way ALRIGHT!”
There was silence.
“Look Harry I didn’t mean to scream at you I was-“
“You’ve been talking to her roommate for the past couple of month’s right?” I hear Harry ask.
Harry and the lads know everything. They know about the hospital and that I’ve been talking to Sofy every day and etc.
“Ya wh-“
“Her names Sofy right?” he asks.
“Yes but wh-“
“She works here as a chef you said?”
“Yes but Harry I-“
“I’ll be back Niall. Stay here.”
I sit up straight and look at Harry.
“Harry what are you going to d-“
“Stay here.” Is the last thing he says before he walks out the door.
2 hours later
I’m still in Harry’s room since he told me to stay. He even made Liam stay with me to make sure I wouldn’t leave. Liam was no help though. He wouldn’t tell me anything about what was happening with Harry.
I suddenly feel my phone vibrate in my pocket and I quickly get it out.
It’s a text from Harry.
From: HAZZAAA
You can thank me for this later Xx
Before I can even text Harry back, there’s a knock on the room door.
Liam is sitting down in on the couch pretending as if nothing happened, so I stand up to open it.
When I open the door I see Eli standing right in front of me looking like she’s about to cry.
“Eli w-“
Before I could finish my question she wraps her arms around my torso and burries her head in my chest.
“Niall I’m so sorry.” She says while still hugging me.
I wrap my arms around her tiny body.
“For what?”
“Sofy told me everything Niall. I’m so sorry.” I hear her say.
I hug her even tighter and kiss the top of her head.
“Why are you sorry? I was the one that lied to you.”
She let’s go of me and looks up at my face. She’s so short compared to me.
“You did it to protect me. Y-you didn’t forget about me.” She says with guilt in her eyes.
“How could I forget about my favorite girl?”
She smiles which causes me to smile as well.
When I’m wiping away the tears on her face she stares at my wrist.
“What?” I ask.
“You still have it.” She states with a soft smile while still looking at the piece of yarn around my wrist.
“I never took it off.”
“Do you happen to-“
I chuckle.
“Ya I still have yours Eli.”
“Great.” She says with a mocking irish accent which causes me to laugh.
“You need to work on that.” I comment.
“You’re just jealous because my irish accent is more awesome than yours.”
“Oh really?” I say while picking her up baby style.
“Put me down!” Eli states while laughing.
“Admit that your irish accent stinks!”
“NEVER!”
I begin to spin around with her still in my arms.
“NIALL PUT ME DOWN! IM GONNA THROW UP!”
I put her down and we both laugh.
“We good?” I ask.
“Yes, but my irish accent is still better than yours.”
Liam ended up leaving and Eli and I spent the rest of the day together.

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