Sweet like sugar

I can't be bothered doing anyting. I can't go to work, I can't go for a run, I am not in the mood to talk to anyone even though I promised Caitlin I would call her. I just have no energy. I feel so sad and I hate it. Like nothing can cheer me up. Did I, l-l-love him? No. I just haven't had feelings for anyone in a long time. Movies and alcohol sound great. I think they should be my only company.
10 things I hate about you up first! Every 20 minutes I have to do 3 shots of vodka in a row. I made up games to play and keep myself entertained
This part comes up in the movie and I am really drunk.
I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
it even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you’re always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you’re not around,
and the fact that you didn’t call.
But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you,
not even close…
not even a little bit…
not even at all.
I start crying my eyes out. I think to myself, no! You just need to go out and party! Have fun! Let loose! I am realising that I am so upset because I am not living my life. I shouldn't have to have friends force me to have fun. I can be fun on my own!
So I get ready, I try put make up on as best as I can since I am drunk, I think I did a good job. I let my hair out loose and put on the sluttiest outfit I have! I call a taxi and get my stuff. Got the rest of my vodka in my handbag and I go the a night club. As soon as I walk in a yell PARTY!

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