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Hey guys. Um.. I can't type long because the doctor said that I can't be on the phone right now so I'm writing this until they come back. First off, I tried. I took a handful of sleeping spills from my dad and just swallowed them.

After a few minutes, it came to realization to me that I was going to die. That these were my last minutes. That's the last thing I remember. I woke up in the hospital like they do in the movies and they explained how they gotten the pills out of my system on time.

I guess I forgot to lock my bedroom door.

Brandon's sitting right next to me, typing something into his phone while holding my hand. We aren't together still but he's the first to come and see me. Some of my family are outside doing who knows what..

They said that I'm on suicidal watch so they send a nurse in like every five minutes to check on me. Plus, someone always has to be in the room with me-.- Even when I'm going to the bathroom.

I can't Be too long but I just wanted to thank everyone for their support. I see that there are a lot of comments and messages but I can't read then right now so I'm going to let Brandon read then for me then respond like he used to do. But right now, I just wish I could hug each and every one of you for the love and support that I've already seen.

I wrote so many goodbye letters last night thinking it was my time, but I actually learned that you can't determine that. Only god can. But just thank you.

Hopefully, I'll be able to respond too all your lovely messages and if I can't, just know I read them. Once again, thank you for everything guys and as soon as they say I can, I will try my best to update :) I'll explain everything better once they let me use my phone without me having to sneak it.

Notes

You guys were the first thing I thought of when I woke up so I had to tell you guys I was fine first :)