Us

I'm really thinking about ending it all. Tonight.

Ive been dealing with depression for about two years now. Fake smiles, and all that. But it's getting played out. And tonight's really giving me the sign. My eyes are red, my hands are trembling and my heart hurts. I don't know if I could go on with this pain any longer. Please don't think I'm an attention seeker because I'm not. I just... I don't want you guys to be lost if anything were to happen. But tonight's hard and I'm praying for god to take me then I'm praying for him to get me through this pain. Even if it's for one more night. My whole life's a mess. My parents think I'm crazy because I told them a few weeks ago that I wanted to kill myself. I haven't talked to my counselor in like a months. My friends don't even care about what I'm going through so why would my death be heartbreaking? No one cares about me anyways.

My whole life's just falling apart. And I'm trying so hard to hold on. Even if it's just for tonight but every breath causes a pain in my heart and I'm tried of being in pain. I don't know, maybe I'll wake up tomorrow all refreshed and happy but right now all that's on my mind is ending this pain. For good.

Notes

I'm sorry.

Please don't think I'm just writing this for attention. I'm not. I just don't want you guys to have to go on with not knowing why the stories finished or anything.. I love all y'all so so much! I just can't explain how much I do.