Never In a Million Years (Zayn Malik)

i looked at the clock,it was 3:15.
zayns flight arrived at 12:45.
that means he got home about 1:30 tops.
that means its about 2 hours he got home and i haven't gone there to see him.
if i'm being honest,you have no idea how many times i had to stop myself from going there,he was my first love after all it's hard to forget it.
you know what,who am i kidding?he is my first love and i'm not over him,but i have to try.it's for my own good.
i heard my phone ringing and i got up to see who it was,when i got there,i saw it was from Avin,well that's weird,we talked yesterday.why is she calling me this soon?
oh did i mention?Avin and harry broke up a few months a go,when Harry cheated on her with some one else,he claimed he was drunk and the same old shit every single man uses to get out of a fight and be forgiven,but Avin saw through it,if you ask me she did the right thing.
when i answered my phone i was faced with yelling on the other line,she kept screaming about something and i couldn't figure out what was going on.i finally yelled:
"what the hell is going on!"
she finally calmed down and i heard her take a couple of deep breaths before she said:
"Anna,you wouldn't believe what i saw today"
"what?"
"Harvard"
i felt my heart skip a beat because of that one word,we've been both waiting for the results which were to come out Monday.....wait.
today is monday.
TODAY IS MONDAY.
the phone dropped from my hand because my mind has been so messed up because of mine and zayns situation that i forgot completely about it.i didn't have much hope any way.i didn't believe i would get in.
i quickly kneeled on the ground to pick up the phone only to hear Avin saying:
"Anne?you there?"
"yeah,yeah....so...."
i heard her take another deep breath before saying:
"i checked,i had both of our usernames and passwords and i checked."
i held my breath,
"we both got in"
the phone dropped out of my hand for the second time and i couldn't help but scream.i picked up the phone again to hear Avin screaming as well.i don't know what both of us were saying but i finally somehow told her that i was going to tell my parents and hung up.
as if on cue Jason opened the door running in looking at me with wide eyes asking:
"what's wrong?why were you screaming?!is something-.."
i didn't let him finish and i threw myself at him.he said:
"woah!whats going on?"
i said:
"i got in!"
he pushed me back while asking:
"you got in to what?"
i yelled:
"i got in to Harvard!!!!"
Jason looked at me comprehending what i just said and then his eyes widened in realization before hugging me back laughing loudly saying:
"i knew it!i knew you could!!!"
i hugged him back tightly and i realized i was crying.this meant so much to me.i worked my ass of and finally it paid.
i was so happy.
Jason said:
"go tell mom and dad!"
i nodded my head running downstairs to eager to tell them being followed closely behind by Jason.


not having a clue my phone was ringing upstairs under my bed where i threw it after my conversation with Avin.
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i finally walked upstairs after a series of yelling and screaming and hugging and crying with my parents.
they were both so proud of me,i could see it in their eyes.my father hugged me saying he knew i could do it and my mother cried saying she can't believe how fast i grew.
i really have no idea where the hell from she remembered me growing up so fast,i guess thats how every mother is,their just thinking about the most unnatural thing any one could even think of at the moment.
i was exhausted.i plopped down on my bed and grabbed my pillow screaming one more time in to it not being able to control myself.i felt like i could explode out of excitement.
my dream finally became true.
just then i heard my phones Text tone indicating i had a new message but i couldn't find it anywhere.i looked on the ground ,on my tables, in my bags but it wasn't anywhere.
another time i heard it but this time it came from my bed.i walked up to it searching every part of the bed until i kneeled down and found it on the bed.
i looked at the page only to have my eyes nearly popping out of my eye sockets,i had 14 missed calls plus 23 messages.
i was only downstairs for about 30 minutes!who the hell called me so many times.
then suddenly i remembered Zayn,him coming here,me planning on breaking up with him,this Harvard thing got my mind of him for some time.
is it possible he called me?does that mean he still cares?
i unlocked my phone to only have that tiny piece of hope in him fly out of the window.
they were all from Waliyha,and 2 or 3 from Avin.
i sat down on my bed looking at the screen,laughing at y stupidity to think he still cares.
it's obvious he's over me.
but i'm not gonna let that get to me,i just found out i got in to Harvard for gods sake!that has to mean something!
i'm gonna prove it to him,i don't need him.i'm gonna prove it to him,that i'm the better one.i'm gonna show him what i'm capable of.
so i called him.
he answered on the 5th ring.wow that's so nice of him,finally answering after 2 months!(sarcasm)
"hello?"
so he doesn't know me anymore huh?
"hi zayn"
"uhm...hello Anne"
i rolled my eyes at him.and just went straight to the point.
"look i need to tell you something but i don't think it's suitable to do it over phone,can you come some where to meet me or something?"
he didn't answer for a couple of seconds and then said:
"uhm...i....i'm really tired....i had a uhm,long flight-.."
i knew he was lying.i'm not that oblivious.
so he wants to do it this way,no problem.
"ok no problem,then i'll just say it over phone,hope you won't get any hard feelings"
"uhm,okay?..."
i took a deep breath and before i could stop myself i told him everything.
"so,you've been treating me like shit for the past 2 months,you don't answer my calls,and even if you do you hang up on me after 10 seconds.you've been ignoring me,not bothering to call me to even to see if i'm alive yet.you came here and i haven't showed up yet when i told you i would be there from morning, yet you don't seem to care,i haven't answered any of Liyha's calls and you seem like you don't care if i'm ok or not.so yeah i get it zayn,you don't care about me anymore,so i won't be a bother.it was really nice knowing you,but we're done.i'm sorry i had to this over phone but you have such a tight schedule and you're always so tired that you don't seem to have time for your girlfriend,oh wait she's your Ex right now,so bye zayn have an amazing life!"
i hanged up before he could say anything.i was proud of myself because i didn't shed a tear the whole time,
but after i hanged up,that was a whole other story.
i started crying worst than i cried yesterday,i don't know what the hell is wrong with me,i seem to cry over the simplest of things,and it's not even my time of the month yet,now that i come to think of it i'm a bit late.
probably because of this stress i'm going through.
i shook my head going in to the bathroom washing my face with water and then drying it with one of my towels.
i walked out of my bathroom only to see my mother sitting on my bed with one of my photos in her lap.
she looked up and when she saw me she frowned.she said:
"honey have you been crying?"
i shook my head saying:
"no it's nothing"
she stood up putting the frame back where it was and walked up to me saying:
"anything that got you crying isn't nothing,i thought you would be happy with going to Harvard"
"i am"
she caressed my face looking in to my eyes with her blue eyes similar to mine and said:
"then why are you crying?"
i closed my eyes leaning in to her hand that now was on my cheek knowing she will find out one way or another.i told her:
"i broke up with Zayn"
she hugged me saying:
"oh honey i'm so sorry!"
i took another deep breath repeating in my head that i will not cry,that i'm stronger than this.so i told her:
"it's ok really,i was the one who finished it any ways,there wasn't anything there,if you know what i mean,anymore"
even though i knew it was a lie.i still felt every thing for zayn,it was him that didn't.
My mother said:
"well,i'm sorry it was over,do you want to talk about it?"
"no,i'm just tired,i'll go to sleep now"
"ok honey"
she kissed my cheek walking out of the room mumbling a good bye closing the door behind her.
i changed in to my pjs and got under the covers.
Zayn didn't call me back,he didn't even bother to explain.
i guess i mean that little to him now.

Notes

don't kill me.
but believe me when i say you want to read the next chapter.
oh and guys.
this was kinda the last chapter.
next one is an epilogue kind of chapter.
so yeah......my story is over,...kinda.
Love
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Anoosha