Never In a Million Years (Zayn Malik)

ok thats every one else..
only one person left.
i clicked on his name to see.....

i had 18 missed calls from him and 3 messages.
wow.
i clicked on the messages and read the first one.
"Anna just answer the goddamn phone,it's all a misunderstanding,just let me fucking explain"
i shook my head at the text and deleted it,it was sent yesterday around 6 pm.i guess he got his phone back.
after i deleted the first text the second one plopped in to my screen:
"just answer for christ's sake Anna!!i've been calling you nonstop!i know you're mad but you have to let me explain don't do this to me!"
i clicked on the little trashcan again and didn't even bother to think about it more.the next message popped up in to my screen and i felt my breath hitch.
"i'm coming over there"
it was a simple sentence but reading it and comprehending what it said,it left me there in shock.
there's no way he's coming over here,is there?he just said that to make me call him,yeah that's it.i mean he's on his fucking tour!there's no way they would let him come here.
i deleted the last one as well and stood up from my seat,i wrapped my cardigan around myself tighter than before,i couldn't help but think what would happen if he came over here.
but he won't,will he?
of course he won't.
i tried to forget about it but i couldn't.i didn't want to see him.i couldn't see him because i knew i would lose it.i didn't want him to see what an effect he had on me.
i didn't want him to know i fell for him.
i didn't want him to know i love him.

i started walking back towards my house again,figuring i should go back since i was so paranoid i was expecting zayn to jump out from behind the bushes and yell at me or break me more even i it's possible.
i was so lost in my mind that i passed my house a couple of meters before i realized.
i shook my head for what felt like the 20th time that day at my stupidity and jogged up back to my own house.
but something caught my attention.there was this big black car with dark windows pulled up in front of our house,i wonder who could it belong to?
i got my key out of my purse and opened the door and got in to the house,so tired that i didn't notice the black and green backpack thrown carelessly next to the door.or the smell of the unusual yet familiar cologne.or the fact that the lights were on in my room upstairs.
i just walked up the stairs slowly,after i reached my door i sighed loudly and pushed my door open only to be met with the left side of Zayns body holding a paper reading it carefully,so lost in it that he as well didn't notice me walk in to the room.
it took me a few moments to realize what the paper was.
and i couldn't help but let out a gasp,feeling my heart beat 10 times faster than usual.
obviously the sound of the gasp made Zayn snap out of what ever trance he was in an look up to see me.
he was looking at me with a mixture of feelings.
sorrow,hurt,shame,regret,sadness,pain,shock but also he looked some sort....relieved?
while i stood there looking at him with:
hurt,sadness,pain,shock,betrayal and so many other untold feelings.
i waited for him to say something,and he did.
"why didn't you tell me"
i know i should be yelling at him to get out of my house,screaming at him why did he cheat on me,but i couldn't,i simply couldn't.so answered:
"why i didn't tell you what?"
he continued with a voice barely above a whisper looking at the paper in his hand:
"why didn't you tell me you loved me"
i answered him with the same tone:
"i didn't see the point,it was a one way love anyway"
he looked up and locked his eyes with mine,suddenly looking angry.:
"one way love?!you wouldn't even confess you like me and now you tell me you love me!"
i didn't answer him,i don't know what is wrong with me,normally i would've scratched his eyeballs out but right now it looks like i just couldn't care less.
"Anna why didn't you tell me you love me?"
"i told you i didn't see the point,and it looks like i was right,since you cheated on me"
"i didn't cheat on you...."
the nerves of this guy,i couldn't keep it in anymore and i told him with a voice dripping with sarcasm:
"oh sorry,what do you call someone with a girlfriend, kissing and possibly sleeping with another different girl behind their girlfriends back!yeah my bad,that's not considered cheating at all!it's actually a very nice act,we should all try it....."

"annabelle,Let me explain for a second!"

"you know what's funny zayn?that we had a fight where you thought i was the one cheating and you actually broke up with me because you thought i cheated on you,and now,look at us,the same fight only the tables have completely turned,and this time the fight is over something real,not something i heard from a drunk guy talking to his friend!"

zayn suddenly took a step towards me saying:
"don't bring that up Anna!i told you i was sorry!you just have to bring that up every single fucking time,don't you?!you just can't let it go,can you?"

"how can you expect me to let it go!you ruined my birthday for me!you called me names that i can't even speak of!and you tell me to just let it go!your fucking unbelievable zayn!"

"For the thousand time Anna i'm sorry!i'm fucking sorry!how many times do i have to tell you that!how many time should i say it to make you fucking forgive me!"

"get out Zayn!i don't have the time nor the nerves for this right now!leave!i don't want you here!"

"i'm not gonna fucking leave Anna!at least not until you let me fucking explain!"

"oh then!enlighten me of the story of how you fucked another girl!just make it quick!i have better things to do than to sit here and listen to you!"

i didn't even notice we were shouting out our lungs and we both were much closer to each other than before,zayn was still clutching the letter tightly and we were both panting slightly due to our little breakout.
Zayn said in a way more calmer voice:
"i swear to god,i didn't even go near that girl,i don't even know her name...."
i rolled my eyes huffing at him saying:
"wow that make me feel better"
zayn said through gritted teeth:
"don't interrupt me,and i told you before,i hate it when you sass me"
i rolled my eyes again and he continued:
"as i was saying before,i didn't even know that girl,she just came on to me at a club,and no she's not perrie,she was just another girl who happened to have blonde hair as well.i was drunk and she was too so at first,i'm not gonna lie,i did kiss her back,but only for a second before i pushed her away,i just.....couldn't go on with it"
i looked in to his eyes looking for anything to tell me he was lying.but i couldn't find anything.i asked him:
"why did you stop?"
he took 3 long steps towards me so he was standing right in front of me towering over me, looking down right in to my eyes,and said:
"because i figured out i loved someone else Anna,and i still do"
he caressed my cheeks with his thumb and said:
"i love you Annabelle,with all my heart"

Notes

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